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Apr 2015 · 158
The only way
Caitlin Apr 2015
The only way to get over you,
Is to have you out of my life forever.
But I don't want to forget you...
Apr 2015 · 219
Sad.
Caitlin Apr 2015
It's sad that my parents don't know me at all.
Like nope, my teachers probably know more my parents do.
It's really sad.
Apr 2015 · 200
Him, Me... Us
Caitlin Apr 2015
So I've found out that I was really the one avoiding you.
You really didn't do anything.
And now that I've started being more open with you- our relationship picked back up...
Thanks.
Apr 2015 · 193
Him
Caitlin Apr 2015
Him
He thinks I'm paranoid...
I'm sorry, but that's a low blow for someone who wants me to be happy.
Apr 2015 · 212
Love
Caitlin Apr 2015
I'm tired of putting my heart on the line when all I get is pain.
But I know that I will continue to love anyways.
Apr 2015 · 237
Look
Caitlin Apr 2015
Please,
I know that
If you look into my eyes,
You will see all the unshed tears
and the pain of what you caused.
And I know that you'd fix this pain that I feel.
So please look into my eyes..
Apr 2015 · 176
Still
Caitlin Apr 2015
I still give you hugs,
and I still joke around.
But I know, and I know you know too,
That things are different between us.
And I hate that.
I wish things were the way they were...
Apr 2015 · 160
Fear
Caitlin Apr 2015
I let it run my life.
Apr 2015 · 344
Can't you see?
Caitlin Apr 2015
Can't you see how much pain you are causing me?
I can't breathe..
You make me so weak,
To the point that I can't talk to you anymore.
We used to be close..
Now what do I do?
I love you,
Can't you see???
Apr 2015 · 540
...
Caitlin Apr 2015
...
Is it bad that I know longer know if I have a runny nose because I'm sick, or because I started to think of you..?
Apr 2015 · 204
Parents
Caitlin Apr 2015
Why can't they just leave me alone?!?!?!?!?
Apr 2015 · 164
I wish
Caitlin Apr 2015
I wish you had seen me cry,
So you would know how much you hurt me.
Apr 2015 · 208
Breathe (10w)
Caitlin Apr 2015
Step one.
Breathe
Step two.
Smile.
Step three.
Cry.

Breathe
Apr 2015 · 186
Why?
Caitlin Apr 2015
Why do I feel the need to cry my eyes out?
Apr 2015 · 218
#nocomfortzone
Caitlin Apr 2015
I have to get rid of my comfort zone
To stop being afraid.
To step out of thus box that I've built around me.
And I know I'll cry and I'll be crushed.
But I have to.
I have to.
Apr 2015 · 335
Good Friday
Caitlin Apr 2015
What's so good about it?
More than two thousand years ago,
Today was the day that an innocent man was crucified.
Jesus Christ,
The Savior of the world.
He was crucified,
How was this "Good"?
He was perfect, The Son of God.
Prince of Peace, The right hand of God.
How can Jesus being crucified, be "Good"?
I'll tell you why,
He came to die for our sins, he was the purest sacrifice.
And without Him, we would never be able to pay for our sins; resulting with forever death.
Without Him, we would never reach God, for there would always be a gap between us- Sin.
That is why it is Good Friday,
Because Jesus knew the price he would have to pay, in order for the rest of us to live, He must die,
Happy Good Friday!
Apr 2015 · 614
Grace
Caitlin Apr 2015
In one of my favorite worship songs, Like an Avalanche by Hillsong United,
One of the lines goes like this-
"Caught up in grace like an avalanche,"
It always made me wonder exactly what grace is.
And according to google this is what grace means-
"the free and unmerited favor of God, as manifested in the salvation of sinners and the bestowal of blessings"
The favor of God, that is free and unmerited.
The salvation of sinners and bestowal of blessings.
What a great and graceful God we have!
Happy Good Friday.
Apr 2015 · 279
Pride
Caitlin Apr 2015
Is it too much to ask that you be proud of me?
Apr 2015 · 157
Thoughts.
Caitlin Apr 2015
Sadly I still think of you.
After everything you've said to me,
I still think about you.
Why?
Apr 2015 · 183
Problems
Caitlin Apr 2015
I've figured out what another one of my many problems.
I'm afraid, because I don't trust myself...
Apr 2015 · 274
Ask
Caitlin Apr 2015
Ask
If your were to ask me what I value most in life,
I'd tell you it's not the possessions or the clothes I have,
It's not the talent or passion for music,
It's not even my dearest friends that I value most.
It's me.
I value me.
I have a right to,
However I would take a bullet for you.
So I don't value me that much..
Mar 2015 · 179
Remember
Caitlin Mar 2015
Don't get frustrated with yourself,
Just keep trying.
And don't be afraid to try.
Remember that.
Mar 2015 · 221
#Truth
Caitlin Mar 2015
I still want us to be friends,
I want to have that connection,
We've come so far.
But you don't ******* care anymore..
I'm sorry.
Mar 2015 · 346
Me
Caitlin Mar 2015
Me
I'm the one what dishes out advice like money from a billionaire.
Yet I am broke..
Mar 2015 · 4.7k
Worried
Caitlin Mar 2015
Surprisingly, I'm not as worried as I was about tomorrow.
Its just another performance.
I got this.
Mar 2015 · 867
Be There
Caitlin Mar 2015
I will be there,
When you are falling apart,
When you have tears in your eyes,
When you have nothing left to live for,
When you have everything to lose,
I will be there.

The question is
Will you be there?
Mar 2015 · 510
Understand
Caitlin Mar 2015
Will anyone ever understand me?
Mar 2015 · 233
States
Caitlin Mar 2015
State solo and ensemble is on Friday...
I'm terrified.
Mar 2015 · 254
Untitled
Caitlin Mar 2015
I wonder if anyone hears me at all....
Mar 2015 · 231
Why?
Caitlin Mar 2015
You asked me why I love you.
Why don't you accept my answer?
Just somethings being said over text...
Mar 2015 · 1.6k
The White Dress
Caitlin Mar 2015
I am wearing a floor length white gown.
It seems to be made of the finest materials.
I am walking, down a path which has no end.
I see people around me and I realize that this pathway is my life,
I intersect paths with many and vice versa.
Although I look down and notice that the bottom of my dress is covered in dirt.
Oh well I thought, It happens.
I came across certain people in my life, They threw red mud and dirt at me, staining my beautiful white dress.
These people were supposed to be friends, mentors, people I could count on.
I guess not, I tried to wipe the mud and dirt off, but it just made it worse.
Oh well, It happens.
I continued on in my journey,
And I met the most wonderful person,
He took my dirt and my mud away, and made me feel whole again,
I twirled in my now restored dress, and felt beautiful.
He and I walked together for sometime, but for some reason,
I walked ahead of him, I still knew he was there, however.
And as I walked on in my adventure,
I met more people and these people didn't throw mud at me,
they instead gave me flowers and words of wisdom.
Yet somewhere on my path, I made a wrong turn a wrong choice.
I began to collect dust and dirt, had people throw mud at me,
I even began to think that I wasn't worthy of this white dress and began to purposely run into people who would throw mud and dirt at me.
By the end of what seemed like my road, I collapsed,
from pain, guilt, worry, and tones of other things.
I glanced down at my white dress, the one that was fit for a bride, was now covered in dirt and mud, so much that you couldn't even tell that it was white originally.
He walked toward me and I cowered,
"No" I said. "Don't come closer, You shouldn't see me like this, I'm not worthy."
He laughed, "Caitlin, I've been with you since the beginning, I've seen you at your best and at your worst. Don't fear what I think of you. To me you will always be beautiful. No matter what."
I still wasn't sure, yet as he reached he hand out to me, I grasped it and he pulled me to my feet.
He said "You accepted my help, that's the first step."
And at his words, my white dress was restored yet again.
"But it will just get ***** again" I stated, somewhat confused.
He shook his head, "Now you need to believe in me. That's step two."
"Believe? What you mean?"
"Believe. That's all you have to do. Open your heart and let me in."
I closed my eyes, Opened my heart, and smiled.
"I believe."
We started our journey after that.
He always walked beside me, I never ran ahead.
The best part?
No dirt caught on my dress, no mud either.
Mar 2015 · 293
Fear
Caitlin Mar 2015
What am I so afraid of?
Why is this fear driving me?
Why is it controlling me?
Why am I letting it?
Mar 2015 · 199
My Life
Caitlin Mar 2015
My life revolves around fear,
I am afraid to be known.
I am afraid of being me.
I am afraid of letting people down.
I am afraid of becoming a good player.
Why am I so afraid????
Based on something that happened to me on Monday night..
Mar 2015 · 555
I am
Caitlin Mar 2015
I am great.
I am adventurous.
I am daring.
I am important.
I am kind.
I am cool.
I am worthy.
I am moody.
I am caring.
I am me.
I am Caitlin.
Feb 2015 · 175
Family (10w)
Caitlin Feb 2015
It's by blood,
And it's not..

But it's still family.
Feb 2015 · 589
Love Never Dies
Caitlin Feb 2015
Love doesn't die,
It simply fades or grows.
It can fade away to nothingness,
But as soon as you see that picture,
Or hear that song,
You are filled with the past and the love you had.
Or it can grow,
Where it consumes your thoughts and every waking moment is spent thinking and wondering..
Love doesn't die,
It expands and changes,
And LIVES
I just got done watching this musical, let me tell you- it is awesome. The songs are magical and the acting is phenomenal. You should see it. That's where I got the inspiration for this poem, Enjoy!
Feb 2015 · 1.3k
Excitement
Caitlin Feb 2015
I'm going to States!
My solo went terrible but my judge was very generous with me and he saw potential in me, So he passed me through.
Yeah!!!
Feb 2015 · 208
Pain
Caitlin Feb 2015
It hurts when the people closest to you,
Don't even care.
*Thanks Mom and Dad
Feb 2015 · 245
Parents part2
Caitlin Feb 2015
You say I'm not the boss of me yet,
That I'm only 16,
Yet you fail to realize that I became the boss of me when you stopped caring about me.
Neither of you really know me.
So I am the boss of me.
Feb 2015 · 366
2/19/15
Caitlin Feb 2015
Its about 50 degrees outside today.
I was outside for an hour, waiting for my dad.
That was between 4 and 5.
Its 6:47, and I still haven't warmed up.
*I love  my parents!!
This is true- my dad was at a meeting and didn't have his phone....
Feb 2015 · 289
Parents
Caitlin Feb 2015
You wonder why I spend more time in the band room than in my house,
Its not that hard to figure out.
Feb 2015 · 635
Titles
Caitlin Feb 2015
Tall,
Funny,
Fat,
Serious,
Moody,
Loner,
Popular,
Shy,
Afraid,
Vi­rgin,
Player,
Geek,
Stoner,

Among others..
We give out titles like candy,
You are this,
She is,
He is..
Why? Why does our world revolve around titles?
Why cant I just be Caitlin Alexandra Moody?
Not Fat, Tall, ******, Spoiled, Perfect, Angel, Geek, Loner, Shy, Moody.
I am me.
That's it.
Feb 2015 · 505
On the Topic Of Avoidance..
Caitlin Feb 2015
I'm avoiding you.
I'm perfectly aware of that.
I know exactly what you're going to say,
Why are you being so distant?
And you know exactly why.
I don't want to break down in front of you.
I don't want to seem weak in your eyes.
I want you to act first...
I need you to speak up.
And even though avoidance is a little low of me to do,
I can't breathe when you are near..
I can't think when we hug.
That how bad this feeling is of heartbrokenness..
Feb 2015 · 404
The Last Text
Caitlin Feb 2015
The last text I sent you was on Friday.
You still haven't replied.
"I'm head over heels falling for you. That's the problem. And it hurts me both mentally and emotionally."
That was the text.
And when I saw you today,
I wanted to curl up in to a ball and die.
I'm avoiding you,
And it hurts.
Feb 2015 · 1.7k
Happy Valentines..
Caitlin Feb 2015
Happy Valentines Day,
To those who have Valentines,
And to those who don't.
To those married,
And those searching for love.
Those who love and fall apart,
And to those heart broken.
To those who'd rather  be single,
To those afraid to love.
Happy Valentines Day
Feb 2015 · 420
Feelings
Caitlin Feb 2015
Feelings,
That's all I m zeroing in on now..
Feelings.

Loneliness
Fear
Pain
Unimportantance
Unworthy
Un­loved
Not noticed
Nothing

I wish I didn't feel like this,
I wish someone cared,
Someone loved me...

Feelings,
They are the one thing holding me back,
And the one thing keeping my sane.
Feelings....
Feb 2015 · 249
Terrible
Caitlin Feb 2015
Today is terrible.
Today was terrible.
Today was one of those days where nothing went right.
One of those days where I come home and think about cutting..
One of those days when I think of everything I've lost.
Today was terrible.
Feb 2015 · 325
Happy.......
Caitlin Feb 2015
I was happy,
Then it all came crumbling down around me...
Feb 2015 · 436
Damn you.
Caitlin Feb 2015
**** you.
You said you liked me,
But now you say you don't?
Not the way that I do.

**** you.
I finally put my heart on the line again,
And you crush it?
I thought you were better than that.

**** you.
I can't even look at you in the eyes anymore...
I feel like you broke my trust.

**** you.
**** you.
And I still like you,
Hell I even love you still.

**** you.
**** you.
Feb 2015 · 727
Pretending
Caitlin Feb 2015
I need to be strong.
Not for me,
But for those around me..
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