Your fingertips tickle my spine
Your hands caress my thighs
Youre kissing on my lips and my neck
Your eyes look deep into mine
But the truth is
you
will
never
Be in
love
with
me

I don't want to get high
I don't want to feel low
I don't want to feel pain
I don't want to feel nothing at all

I don't want to love jesus
I don't want to hate the devil
I don't want nothing at all
I don't want to know forever

I don't want to be a coward
I don't want to be brave
I don't want to fit in
I don't want to be strange

I don't want to die young
I don't want to live forever
I don't want to be normal
I don't want to be severed

I don't want the sunshine
I don't want to feel the rain
I don't want happiness
I don't want pain

I don't want to be with you
I don't want to be without you
I don't want to laugh
I don't want to sing the blues

I don't want you to cry
I don't want you to smile
I don't want you to forget about me
I don't want you to ask "why"

A hard pill to swallow,
crushed up and snorted,
and taken bitterly like cheap motel coffee,
What a way to start the day.

I didn't think the last time I kissed your lips would be the very last time,
That you would shove me aside for someone half decent, and a dull flamed heart.
And that's when I think:
I am trying too hard.
There is still time, there is still time.  
I've got an hourglass in my head and my heart pinned to my sleeve,
My chest pounding with anxiety and I attribute it to butterflies and give all my love to some strange boy with flowers in his hands,
nothing worth falling for.
I reward myself with a sour taste in my mouth and a thousand metaphorical knives in my stomach.
It's okay, it's okay.
All wounds heal in time,
There is still time, I know.

You told me I was too too unhealthy to ever learn to love, I was sick. I needed help.
You said, "maybe, in the future our paths will cross".
Do you not understand there is no future for me? I want to walk on your path.

I'm always writing about the past
All the things that went wrong
All the things I could have done
Maybe that's why nothing has lasted
That's why I'm taking the time
To write about right now
This very moment
And the way I feel about you
So one day when its all in the past
I'll be able to read it
Instead of cry about it
I'll remember the times
In which great joy accompanied me
And when pain seemed to flutter away
I feel safe
I feel a little less useless
I feel the sun shining
I feel the moon beams
I feel that life is much better
Outside of my sleep
It was an abrupt change that I never got used to
But I didn't have to
Because the second I felt less lonely
Was the second my eyes began to open
No more long nights with men who don't care
Who's names I'll forget in the morning
No more empty beds
No more tears shed
But if they fall down my face
I know you're here to dry them
Oh how nice it feels to have you lying next to me
And to awaken to your face everyday
And when love is made between us
The passion is so strong
I could cry
Who knows if we're in love
Love is not my thing
And neither is it yours
But I can't help but fall
Everytime you make me laugh
All the things that we've done
All the places that we've been
Its just the beginning
Of my wildest dream
I'm not promising forever
And neither are you
Tomorrow is a million miles away
So right now I'm fine soaking in the happiness you've brought to me
Even if tomorrow you're gone

Its a hot summer
But my heart is still cold
I always wanted a lover
Or maybe just someone to hold

I could live in the sunshine
And still be freezing
I've heard every line
None of the words have meaning

But on my darkest nights
You were always right here
You'd spark a fire for light
And open up a beer

We'd talk all night
We'd get drunk on eachother
I was no longer in fright
I was no longer troubled

Its like the calm after the rain
Or the smell of the sea
You got rid of my pain
And set me at ease

Maybe you'll be gone tomorrow
But you're here today
You lessend all my sorrows
So I hope that maybe you'll stay