When you break up with someone, you lie in bed every night, homesick for arms that don't want to hold you anymore.
You're eyes are lost as you wander halls looking for the smile.
You're stomach lurches when you see them laughing and smiling and being okay.
And when you see them happy with another person,
well, that's what hell is.

I swish the pain with *****,
I gargle it was beer.
I down the pain in pills,
Hoping it'll get me out of here.

I bleed the depression in silver,
And wipe it down with red.
I await my last tiring breath,
As I lay awake in my bed.

I write my notes in ink,
And sign my name in blood.
The emotions wash over me,
As memories began to flood.

I blew out hopelessness in smoke,
And coughed out all my guilt.
My hope was slowly perishing,
As the black roses began to wilt.

My heart aches to be in his arms,
But he is off with another girl.
The night we split apart for good,
Was the night an earthquake shook my world.

I'm slowly losing hold,
My eyes have begun to close.
My last tears rolled down my cheek,
As I finally begin to let go.

Look deep into my sunken eyes,
And welcome to my world of lies.
Dragging a blade across my skin,
as their spoken words are sinking in.
The light switch in my world is off,
My entire world is beginning to frost.
Colors darken and begin to fade,
In this world I have made.
All my so-called 'friends' turned on me,
I'm not the perfect little girl you want me to be.
Take a drink, smoke it up,
No one could possibly give a ****.
As colors flash by faster and faster,
I think about acts I never wanted to master.
Society always tells me to go,
So mind as well put on a show.
Please try not to make me cry,
As you wave while leaving,
My world of lies.