And I felt it. I felt something that was familiar and unknown. It was recognizable. It was a quiver in my stomach and a tightness in my chest. But there isn't a single thing to do to prove it and even if I sat down you would have still walked away. So now what am I supposed to do with this feeling?

Graceless heart,
You have met your mark
Alone in this dark,
A flame with one lonely spark

You've met your maker,
A beastly undertaker
All left for the breaker,
Everything perceived as a faker

You're dancing again,
They love your hair and the
Way your legs end
And there is no bye to bend

A fool and blind,
Wasted what has left me behind
Just a colossal joke
And now we've choked
On summer camp smoke

He gave me back
What I knew wasn't his
And I was a child
I was stupid

How does it feel now?
Does it feel bittersweet?
To finally have me see?
And does it fluff your feathers,
Smile on your face
That you are better
That you are whole now?

I'll spend my life with regret
Of never paying too much mind
To the things you'd say

And a promise was kept
That it wasn't the end
But the end for you
Is my only beginning
And I promise to you
That I see no end
I will settle but to never
Replace the things
I could have had

And I never knew
I could feel this pain
It's a difference from
Losing what you shifted
Your life for

This pain took over that
This pain took over everything
This pain is my newfound home
And your soul dashed through
The back window years ago

This is the winner

I hope you do.
I hope you live life to the fullest.
Enjoying every moment,
Never wasting time on regret.

I hope you travel the world.
I hope you search every corner
And find everything in you.

I know you won't think about it
And I know I have changed sides
And every aspect of my mind everyday

But finding you gave me that feeling again,
The kind you probably don't remember.

I hope you have endless life
I hope you collect everything with your mind.
I hope you love fiercely
And never have doubt

Throw your head back fast,
Don't over think it,
Lids closed don't last
Eyes down to fit

Wooden table with years of weather
It's probably long gone,
Replaced with something better

You find comfort in knowing
That new trees are growing
To build new tables

And you'd sit at the table,
Place it in the same spot
And wait for a dying fable

You would sit there forever
For him to find a little down time
Because he knows how to be clever
Turn the ending sublime
And make you feel better
When you knew it was the end of the line

Come back one day
Ask for an old friend
You can stay for a while
That'd normally **** someone off
In the same position

But you'd be an exception

Show you how things change
And how fame makes you realize things
And you can walk away
You can get up and go
Leaving a handful of change

Or you could stay
Have another round,
This one's on me
And you can tell me of a life
I was never made to hold

Because it's past may
And time has a funny way
Of flying by.

You look at me
Like I should know,

I look at you
Every way I go.

You know where
To put on a show

And I wonder
Without the ****** hair,
Would I know?

And I go back,
Tell them I'd enjoy
A night in that bed.

It's here
That time
And don't be scared,

You had your
Bed made long ago
Ready to go

But you've always
Been late,
You'll be late
To your own funeral

But you're doing
Exactly what was told
But it's different this time
You aren't fourteen years old

I carry the burden
of always caring
for the ones that wouldn't dare
for the ones that have passed
for the ones not yet
brought to life

My heart has the capacity
to sustain time and decay
And regardless of what people say
my heart is bigger than
my body in every way

I am a survivalist
I make it through every list
and every room has
different views

Packed to the maximum
I still find the knowledge
to out last the best of 'em

I am an old soul
that has survived
even the harshest of cold
in a body that is
made of solid gold

Certain bumps in the night
things stop collecting
over periodic time
No longer feeling of fright

And my guide is built
for endless fights

To think you differ
Is a tragedy within itself
I would hate to be
Around when the world
Decides to bring it back down
But with neither reason or
Apathy
I still wouldn't wish it on you
Sit high up in
Your rose-colored tower
Boy
And see what
A real human like
Me
Can handle
You'd be amazed
At how far I have come
And how broken and yet
Willing to rise
I will give a hardy laugh
When I still am heads up
After every slip up
And untimely
Fall
To be persistently
Unapologetic towards
Someone with a
Golden broken heart
You my acting dear
Are the worst of
The undoubtedly worst
But forgiveness is
Vengeful and
Undecided in the victor
When you are no longer
The porcelain
Chosen one
I need not another
To find a way
What will be done
When kingdom come
Of the highest knowledge?
I earn my marks
And find strength in
Continuous relay
I know my worth
My name
And infamy fame
But I stand true on
That day

I don't understand
The conservative view on life,
Didn't mix with that vibe.
But I felt ration in 'sixteen,
took me back just past nineteen.
Hot coffe spilt,
our world was in tilt.
Collisions a moment ending,
no more room for griving.
One day I'll fall asleep,
but someone will be there to take the wheel to keep.

In a land forever more,
It's you that I adore.
Don't run away,
I've memorized your name.
Take my hand,
We can dance and sway.
In this rebirth,
We can lay.
Enjoy our time,
Endless summer days.
Come forth and shine,
Always yours, forever mine.