just when i feel
as though i can't breathe
as though i'm about to fall
as though i've hit rock bottom
the impossible happens
things get worse
the weight on my shoulders
it gets heavier
my palms
they get sweatier
my grip loosens
i can't hold on much longer
yet some how
i'm still holding on
still fighting
trying to be strong

Electric light,
a robot sun;
the real one,
a god,
who was dethroned,
and now we make our own,
powered by our blinding
arrogance and vanity

A million thoughts are running wild
As I stare into the body of an adult
But only see the spirit of a child
That has created feelings never felt

My heart has lost and won the war
But my mind has succumbed to it
My soul has been left feeling sore
While the picture of us was so perfect

How does one bounce back from love
It has become so difficult to comprehend
That this is a believed plan from above
When all I want is a restart and no end.

We both agreed to the terms and conditions
But what if we bend the rules a bit
As you are one of my only obsessions
Why don't we at least attempt it?

- EAF

i knew this was all too good to be true.

i knew you never really wanted me.

i knew i wasn’t the only one you were talking to.

i knew those poems weren’t about me.

i knew you were the same as everyone else.

i knew you would eventually fade away.

i knew you were going to leave.

i knew **** well you would never stay.