and
i don't know
if this is me
just overreacting,
but
the only reason it scares me
when the wind causes my bedroom door to slam shut,
is because
i'm deeply afraid
that
i'll get used to the sound of people leaving.

If I could have just one wish granted
One prayer heard and answered
It would be let me hold him one more forever
Before he grows one day older
Just let me hold him one more time before the days turn to weeks to months to years
Before he turns 8 then 9...12, 13... 16... 18... 21... 25... starting a family of his own
Let me hold him one more forever while watching movies on the couch snuggled warm comfy cozy
Let me hold him one more time after school see him smile as he runs and jumps up into my arms
Let him tell me one more **** joke give me one more obnoxious burp tell me who's knock knocking at my door
Let me hold him while I listen to him laugh and snicker and giggle
Let me hold him one more forever
Before he grows one day older
And then as he turns 8 and 9... 12... 13...
And the days turn to weeks to months to years
Let me hold him in my heart until forever turns to dust and time has found its end
And when we find forevers end and time no longer moves
Let me hold him even tighter and never let him go