it seems to be,
you and me,
trapped within the universe,
spit a verse,
feeling worse,
happiness is in reverse,
black and blue,
the saddest hues,
i am nothing without you,
hopefully these words will stick—
to your mind alike to glue.

stagnancy.
or, maybe falling very gradually,
falling so slow that the ground is unobtainable.
i can’t even see past the fog in my vision,
cloudy and hard to see through like the thoughts in my mind,
almost as if they are one and the same,
the fog and my brain.
i am a mystery,
you don’t know what you’re walking into,
and if you manage to push through i guarantee that you will get lost.
my inability to trust your mere words will result in you looping back to the start of your journey.
and for that i am sorry,
but if you can’t clear the grim thoughts that occupy my mind, i encourage you to give up.
find somebody who has less fog so that you can easily make your way to their heart.
and i will remain in the same position you found me in,
descending so slow that i forget i’m even falling,
and trust me i’ll be okay.
as i continue to fall, i close my eyes,
and it’s almost like i’m floating.
and for that moment my mind is clear,
i open my eyes and the fog is gone.
i see nothing.
no floor,
no walls,
nothing.
then i realize i was never falling,
i’ve been flying,
flying so high that the ground is not visible,
i’ve been flying so long that my thoughts became cloudy.
but now i am full of clarity and have come to the realization that i’ve been looking for something for so long that i got lost.
so now i will focus on myself and continue to soar,
and if the fog ever captures me again,
i will close my eyes.

i used to be a diamond,
aligning with the light,
polished by the heat and flying high just like a kite,
a diamond full of style algorithms were in order,
boppin’ to the rhythm dancing closely to the border,
everyday i smiled,
running miles in a dream-like false reality i guarantee that i am happier in my mentality,
where everything is diamond-like,
everything’s electric and eccentric as i’m taking flight,
everyday’s adventurous when dawn arrises after night,
everyday is better when i stay within my sunken mind,
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everyday is monotone when i’m alone within the night,
dusk appears and grabs me by the ear into the reaping night,
now i’m here and i can hear my fears all mixed up in the night,
now my tears are failing to adhere against my melanin,
now they fall into the dark and ripple like it’s gelatin
elegantly moving, throwing chills against my skeleton,
then again i feel as if reality is menacing,
so i stay within my mind and all my stress is lessening,
artificial fantasies seem to be my remedy and glorifying memories seem to bring serenity,
so now i will return.

I thought I understood grief.
But I didn’t until-
I was standing alone in a room.
Missing so many parts of myself,
because I kept giving them away
So the people I love
could keep on living.
-
- they are scavengers and they will pick you clean until it is only your bones that shine in the sun.

i’m gathering the energy,
maple scented remedies with tendencies that tend to be suspended  through my memories of melodies that spark amenities within me mentally,
sending me along the path away from all the enemies,
solitude depresses me,
even though i choose it,
pursuing you and all the things you do’s alike to music,
inaudible to you but to my soul it makes me lose it-while i groove it i forget about the sadness.

don’t you know that i’m a villain?
oozing evil light?
i’m no good for you girl,
in love with pickin’ fights,
it’s clear that you love me,
trust me girl, i know,
my demon eyes can see,
the things you fail to show,
so don’t fall for me,
a villain used to killin’
forged underground in the nightosphere chillin’
spillin’ out the blood of some itty-bitty children,
listen to the screams as the demons do my bidding.
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did you think i was lying?
i told you, little girl,
i’m addicted to the villainy,
killing me won’t do a thing unless i do it willingly,
told you not to fall for me my girl you must be kidding me,
now your soul belongs to me, add it to the list of grief,
buckle up and grit your teeth,
ready to admit defeat?
“marshall lee, i can’t believe that i agree that i concede,
can’t believe that you’ve achieved a deed so full of demon’s greed,”
girly girl it wasn’t me,
can’t you see that it was you,
fall for me, you’re falling from the highest peak into your doom.
/
marshall lee the king of thieves,
bathe in blood of enemies,
drink it up like hennessy,
what is it you see in me?
i’m the evil entity,
scaring every deity,
searing hot, they fearing me,
but it’s you who’s cheering me,
seriously like what are you?
you’re the one who’s made it through,
to my heart so full of frost,
now i’m feeling nice and soft,
malice is forever gone,
longing for a soul to spawn,
finally it seems you’re here,
finally it seems i hear,
terror fleeing from my ears,
now the sound that i empower,
is the sound of garden flowers.