sun in the sky you're a lie
you're not really there
fire cannot fly

it's all a lie
made for me
bought for us
to love
and make idols in sand

of forests and man
animals and insects

it tastes so bland
but the flavour inflicts
and colour infects

my will to understand
everything complex

but not the way
you would imagine

my mind
has never been in fashion

it's still wrecked


there's no mirror
and nothing would reflect

no cause or effect
everything blank

in weird shapes and sizes
planned to forget


the sun rises,


so many things
with so many vices

it's so hollow
and we still buy it

we will, and find it
to remind the scientists


this world is more than science's
concrete and the blind kids

children of the millennium
with nothing to free

nine to five, five to nine
no questions for thee

stuck in a mind
with no one to find
in an endless sea

the sun is a lie
it cannot fly

just close your eye's
and see

sit here all alone
mommy's not home
she's built in stone

laid on the ground
in her gown
and before she was
laid down
she said
i'll never be found

i'll never hear her sound
like her children did
before i came around
and i wonder if
i wander this
ocean
would i drown ?

scars left open with
thoughts i cannot get rid
pieces those do not fit
makes a circle
that's not round
and i'm stuck inside of it
sipping on
tears of a clown

swimming deep
within this pit
made of
so many tricks

but the clock
always lost
does not tick

it makes a weird sound
i'll never wear her
like a crown

like her king is
songs just sing this
there's a place in my mind
and it's
a weird town

full of dead bits
a face where my head fits
a place for misfits
and failed organs
this world is one big glitch

we're all orphans
and bound




and i wonder if
i wander this
ocean
would i drown ?

there's a place in aral sea
where there's nothing left to see

to the east where it dies
all the tears wept and dried

here,

in my mind
where it seeps
in my veins
there it bleeds

on my brain
where it feeds
on my pain
there it breeds



an emptiness that i cannot be
a void so deep that i cannot leave

there's a place you cannot flee
when there's something left to be

in a moment to be dead and gone
some places just don't belong

nobody cares for
what cannot breathe
no matter how alone


there,

with no air in my lungs
to scream and feed
the forest in my brain
will dream and screech

against the metal
that'll make complete
a barren island
that cannot seed

there's a face in aral sea
who has got nothing left to see

to the east where it dried
all the tears rot and dry.

thoughts breeding in my head
stop bleeding or i'll be dead

stop repeating or i'll forget
what i never knew

before it's too late
let me sleep, let me rest
or i'll fade

let me dream lest
i'll be just like you
always awake  


forest seeding my regret
please don't scream yet

let the animals
first reach the boat
tears drain down
my throat

before the fear rains
and drowns us whole

let me dream lest
i'll be just like you
without a soul

without a whole
wandering in parts
torn apart

so hated,


sitting on an empty stomach
so isolated.

sitting here so cold
with things untold

waiting for my soul
to write me in ink
to make hollow whole
with stones and gold

words written in coal
they'll speak my sin



but when they find me
please help them remind me
that i was never ever lost
it was just the cost to be at
a place that never was



sitting here so sold
with nothing left to hold

waiting for the door
to open and take me in
a mind riddled with holes
now every thought's a *****

broken and then some more
i am so torn from within



but when they find me
please help them remind me
that i was never ever lost
it was just the cost to be at
a place that never was


through my pain and loss
without you or them
or your rules and laws
far away from your claws


and i just stood there in awe
for the world to not end
in love with my flaws


so don't tell me about your loss
i don't need tears to fill my sea

and what i see is still travelling
loud enough for the sky to hear

and it cannot pause
it's still raw and it rots
like my brain when i'm not
in a place that never was

between people
and the world they forgot

my mind cannot stop
there's nothing here for me
nothing real for me
everything's bought


and when they find me
please help them remind me
that i was never ever lost
it was just the cost to be at
a place that never was

the rain falls where the petal's sleep
of a flower, not yet ready to seed

and i see what i cannot free

a dream not steady to breathe
that will blossom once it has bled

with all the shapes and figures
we keep deep inside our heads



i was never ready to leave
but there was nothing else
i could ever be; a heart
on an island full of stone



even if i could erase myself
there'll always be what i've known

and it will keep on screaming
long after i'm done and gone

back to the unknown
with all that has grown

and i know I'll still be there,
waiting for the world to ask

reflecting on my face
i see in the reflection;

as the world grows dark
through the glass


and i see the door to the window
it's closing in on me
it's closing in on me
It's eating the view

it wasn't build to last

there's nothing outside but the rain
but the pain and tears blurring
my eyes at last


there's nothing but the veins
of a storm that's about to mourn

and there's this forest
inside of me
that just wants to hunt and roam

and i see the rain falling,


the rain falls where the metal weeps
of a flower, not yet ready to be freed


but i see what i can free


the door to the window
it's closing in on me
but my mind has left

in midst of the clouds
where life is born
far away from myself

and for every time the storm bleeds
a flower will breed

and piece by piece
the door will start to fade

a forest shall be made
as wide as the window can be

as vast as you can see
as alive as you want to be

the door to the window
never had a key

it was just us,
filled to the brim
and we couldn't keep it in.

it's dark,



sitting in an empty room
pretending to read
so many thoughts
mind in water
not yet ready to breathe

awake in my dreams
not steady to sleep
the earthquake i'm riding
won't let me keep
my way to you

sipping the vast gloom
from the big bang boom

i've been searching
for you



nothing to seek
no window to peek
only stark darkness
to love and breed

forget love
too old too cold
through and through sold
nobody knows any code
valentine's dead
and my heart is old

circling the universe
in search of gold


and i find myself drift
in middle of
the universe
with nothing to hold


with no truth to seed
no hunger to feed
with only silence to teach
the science of violence

in middle of
the universe
searching for opulence

finding nothing and,

collecting the pieces
and throwing it in the fire
making smoke from ash
thats been flying in the air
to everywhere

until it all goes black,

back to the same emptiness
we were all born from
without time

the world will fail,

and the words will fade
just as they came
and became
a thought in my mind.