That night
when I found
Another girl's
Hair barrette
in Your bed
And I pretended to believe you
When you said that it wasn't someone else's
How could it be?
You're being crazy.
Who else's would it be?
Was the night that I thought
I would never look back

And here I am
Just like that

You know that feeling
When you wake up
In the morning
And for a few seconds
Everything is fine
And normal
And  okay

And then you remember
That four days ago
He broke your heart
And now you choke
Just enough to make you
Lose your breath

And you have to feel this way
Until tomorrow morning
When you wake up
And for a few seconds
Everything is fine
And normal
And okay
Until it's not

i will stop writing poetry like a eulogy when you start making me feel alive

Sext: listen to our song and feel your heart crumble in your chest

One dimensional
That's a good phrase for what we are
We tease, we play, sometimes we talk
Mostly we lust
And that's it

I have grown accustomed to your body
Your pale shoulder blades
and the light that shines through
your bedroom window
illuminating your body

The way you say my name
like no other man
has ever said my name

The compliments you give me
on my small waist,
my *******,
my hair,
my eyes,
my laugh

Our relationship has become
safe, standard

But the other night
You kissed my neck
Normal
You kissed my mouth
Normal
You told me you cared
Not so normal

This is not our usual rapport
Instead of replying
with any semblance of concern
I unbottoned your shirt

And as I kissed the soft skin
Of your hips
Your belly
Your chest
I heard something novel

It was your heartbeat,
so excited to be near me --
It was so intimate,
I almost withdrew
But I only held you tighter

When I sat on the edge of your mattress
Fighting sleep
While you laid behind me, eyes closed
You traced the outline of my spine
Your touch so gentle
It sent shivers through my body

I kissed you
Not out of lust
But because
you made me so happy that night

Today I saw you on the street.
You looked right through me.

I had the option of reaching out
And I didn't
I won't put the blame on you
But it left me so conflicted

How am I supposed to express my feelings
genuine, real feelings
when I can't even find the nerve
to say hello