I am not depressed.
I can still smile at pretty things
And laugh when jokes are funny,
I can still talk to people
And enjoy nice days.

But when I go inside,
When I'm all alone,
There is something broken.
And I fall into a sadness so sweet
That it engulfs me.
I look in the mirror
But I don't like what I see.
And the tears always fall
When I'm falling asleep,
Because I miss something
That doesn't exist.

But I am not depressed,
I've just been sad for a while.
Although I can still find the light
I can still smile.

I promise to be kind every day that follows today,
I promise to stay by your side no matter what happens,
I promise to take you to dance every friday night,
I promise to sing the songs I wrote for you,
I promise I'll do anything to make you stay,
I promise to give you all the love you need,
I promise that you'll always be able to cry on my shoulder,
I promise to fall asleep in your arms,
I promise to kiss your cheek, your nose and your neck,
I promise to warm you up if your cold,
I promise to kiss you in your sleep,
I promise to make you smile all day, every day
I promise to kiss you under the rain,
I promise to write poems about how much I care for you,
I promise to travel everywhere with you by my side,
I promise to slowly carress your cheek,
I promise to bring you to the top of the Eiffel tower,
I promise to share everything I own,
I promise to tell you you're beautiful every day,
I promise to hold you in my arms and close my eyes,
I promise to make you laugh if you're feeling low,
I promise to believe in our love,
I promise to fight for it,
I promise I'll be the best girlfriend you've ever had,

I promise you happiness for the rest of your life.

Oh you may not think I’m pretty,
But don’t judge on what you see,
I’ll eat myself if you can find
A smarter hat than me.

You can keep your bowlers black,
Your top hats sleek and tall,
For I’m the Hogwarts Sorting Hat
And I can cap them all.

There’s nothing hidden in your head
The Sorting Hat can’t see,
So try me on and I will tell you
Where you ought to be.

You might belong in Gryffindor,
Where dwell the brave at heart,
Their daring, nerve, and chivalry
Set Gryffindors apart;

You might belong in Hufflepuff,
Where they are just and loyal,
Those patient Hufflepuffs are true
And unafraid of toil;

Or yet in wise old Ravenclaw,
if you’ve a ready mind,
Where those of wit and learning,
Will always find their kind;

Or perhaps in Slytherin
You’ll make your real friends,
Those cunning folks use any means
To achieve their ends.

So put me on! Don’t be afraid!
And don’t get in a flap!
You’re in safe hands (though I have none)
For I’m a Thinking Cap!

That terrible moment when
You wake up from your wonderful dream
And you realise
That none of it was true
And that you never got back together
With the person you've lost
And that you never will.

And you're just sat there on your bed
Feeling like somebody stole you something
But nobody did,
It's just that you've realised
The horrible reality of things ;
It's just that you've lost
All your hopes at once ;
It's just that you've grown up
A little bit too fast.

But don't worry, it's fine
To feel depressed because
You're not a child anymore.

She was beautiful,
But not in the beautiful ways you like to think so
She did not have hair that dripped gold
Her eyes were not the colours of the cold sea
But her smile was crooked and bent
Her lips were chapped and thin
She did not have a gentle laugh
Nor did she speak humble thoughts
But she was beautiful
In the way the shore kisses my feet
In the way the moon hides itself in the curtain of darkness
She was beautiful
In the way wind dances with hair
In the way shy lovers hold hands
She was beautiful in the way of morning air
And black coffee
And the love poems that live in each broken heart
Spilling red oil into blue lungs,
Suffocating happiness right out of its shell
And she was beautiful
Because she refused to taste sadness
Even though it was the only thing she had left to eat.

Yesterday I dropped a penny in my room
And it ran and hid under my bed,
Looking on the floor, trying to find it,
I found my old diary instead.

I began laughing but after some time,
After taking a few looks at what I had written,
I realised all the things we've lost,
And I have to admit, now I'm a bit fightened.

"Dear diary, yesterday I went round her house,
And we made love for the very first time
She loves me and it's just beautiful,
What can I say, I play with the big boys now."

"Dear diary, like every wednesday afternoon,
Today she came by to say hello,
And we laid on my bed for hours,
Just talking, laughing, and kissing also."

"Dear diary, my world turns around hers,
Therefore she can also be the reason of my tears
But when I cry, she kisses me,
And catches every drop of water out of my eyes."

"Dear diary, she laid down by my side,
And I held her tight in my arms,
Then she said she loved me,
So I kissed her, there's no harm."

"Dear diary, today when we were together,
She kissed my cheek softly
And started counting my beauty spots,
I don't know why it made me so happy."

"Dear diary, today we had a little fight,
And it makes me die a little inside,
I hung up on her and I'm so sorry,
But I didn't want her to hear me cry.."

"Dear diary, it's over."
"Dear diary, I miss her."

Those were the last words I wrote
But I think it's not enough,
So I took my pen and finished the journal,
Even if for my heart it was a bit tough.

"Dear diary, today more than one year has passed, and I lifted the pieces off the ground. I've known ups and downs but hey, I'm still standing ! This is kind of a message of hope for the future me reading this : of course you'll always love her, of course you'll always miss your first love, of course you'll always think about her sweet laugh, of course you're still in love with her. But it's okay, I mean you're still alive right ? Don't forget about yourself."

                                                     ­             RIP my heart. I think it broke again.

I'm the type of person who can either sit by herself under a weeping willow
Reading quietly or writing poetry about life being an inside inferno,
Or who can go clubbing with her friends, get drunk and show up at 5 in the morning.
That's me, I either spend my day being in an immense joy, or spend it mourning.

I'm the type of person who is everything and its contrary,
I can fall in love with the same person whom I hated yesterday,
I can forgive in two seconds someone at whom I've been angry
I can be strongly willing to leave, and then I suddenly decide to stay.

Once I realised I wasn't in love with the person I had been waiting for, two years after
And realised at the same second that I wanted the person I had just lost.
My brain and heart didn't quite agree with each other,
But now it's to late to get back the girl I love the most.

One minute someone's my best friend, then she gets on my nerves
One minute I really want something, then I just change my mind,
One minute I find myself pretty, then I suddenly hate my curves
One minute I wanna open my eyes to the reality of the world, then I wish I was blind.

I suddenly realise why some people can't see me,
I'm so hard to live with, too difficult to stand,
I'm actually working on myself to be the person I want to be,
Because if I don't react, she's not coming back, ya'll understand ?

To all the Lost souls wandering around the Earth,
If you have problems, believe me they all come from you.
You'll have to give your life another chance, a rebirth,
Otherwise you'll be the person you never wanted to.

Can you imagine a world where
Every single word that you say,
Every tiny word that gets out of your mouth,
Would lend somewhere on your body ?
A world where every letter
Would end up tattooed on your face
Or on a place that can't be hidden.
In a world like this,
Can you imagine being mean ?
Being cruel ?
Insulting others ?
Can you imagine a world where
People would run the streets up and down
With written on their forehead :
"You're a ****."

In a world like this,
Would you be more careful
About what you say ?

We've been through Hell together darling
That's why it's time to get back on our feet
We haven't lost everything,
You can still make my heart skip a beat

So we can work this out together,
You and I are meant to last forever
We just need to work a little harder
Baby, give me a chance to make it better.

We were fine then ******* it up,
But deep down I feel in my bones
That now, sweetie, I can make it all up
To you, to me, to what I have done.

But need your help, I can't do this alone
Just help me out and we will be just fine,
We can go back to what we have known,
Your warm hugs are still on my mind...

But before giving us another chance,
I need to be sure this is what you really want.
Are you sure you want to have the same romance ?
Please say yes, you're the only one I want..

Assise sur tes genoux, les yeux levés vers ton visage
Fatigué par les souvenirs d’une lointaine tristesse,
Je regarde ta figure souriante et marquée par l’âge,
Je suis du bout des doigts les preuves de ta vieillesse.
Chaque creux qui vit à l’ombre de ton front
Me renvoie à un instant de ton passé profond,
Tous tes sourires, tes larmes et tes soucis
Me rappellent qu’il y a une histoire derrière ces plis.
Grand-Père, je dois avouer que ton visage froissé
Me montrent toutes les épreuves que tu as dû traverser.

It's become so hard to write beautiful poems
Because it seems that I only pour my sadness out when I write
And I have absolutely no reason for sadness
Therefore I just leave my pen on my desk,
I don't ever pick it up anymore ;
Because I now know joy and everything that goes with it
Now I only listen to swinging songs
And I just dance to them all night long,
Now I only watch decent films and not depressing ones,
Even my psychologist says I've overcome my depression
But now I can't write anymore..
I've forgotten what beauty sounds like
When I try to put my happiness down on paper
I can't even do it properly

I'm used to writing about death
And tears, lost love and broken hearts
Now all my sadness' gone
And I wish I could write about her smile
But my poem would be too joyful, and that is just not me.

Say yes                                                                                                           Say no
To sunshine in the morning                                                                            To darkness when you're alone
Say yes                                                                                                           Say no
To any piece of advice                                                                                   To the people who aren't true
Say yes                                                                                                           Say no
To night lights on the city                                                                               To lights in broad daylight
Say yes                                                                                                           Say no
To snowfights on a winter day                                                                       To fights with the real Ones
Say yes                                                                                                           Say no
To everyone who might thank you                                                                 To the ones who aren't thankful
Say yes                                                                                                           Say no
To the strangers in need of directions                                                             To the strangers taking you away
Say yes                                                                                                           Say no
To any sign of love                                                                                         To any sign of pain
Say yes                                                                                                           Say no
To a stranger smiling at you                                                                           To a stranger grinning at you
Say yes                                                                                                           Say no
To the members of your family                                                                      To familial arguement
Say yes                                                                                                           Say no
To the signs from the Universe                                                                      To the signs sent from underneath
Say yes                                                                                                           Say no
To the differences in the world                                                                       To hunger and poverty
Say yes                                                                                                           Say no
To any change that occurs                                                                              To people leaving you
Say yes                                                                                                           Say no
To creative people                                                                                          To destroying humanity
Say yes                                                                                                           Say no
To a candle in the dark                                                                                   To loneliness
Say yes                                &nbsp

when all stars are starting to fade
when all lights have been turned off
when the coffee is getting colder
when the ice is melting down
when your dreams have been crushed
when your hopes flew away
be sure that i'm never coming back.

when all the pain reaches your heart
when all the tears reach your eyes
when the food doesn't have any taste
when the alcohol replaces your blood
when your brain says you hate her
when your heart says you love her
be sure that i'm never forgiving what you did.

when all days are spent crying
when all nights are spent crying
when the clouds are rolling in
when the sky laughs at your face
when your whole body cries for help
when your life is a complete Hell
be sure that i still love you.

It is 4 in the morning again
And I'm still up drinking coffee
Thinking it's fine to hold my own hand
Not feeling alone, but so lonely.
What happened to this life of mine ?
Before you walked out the door
I used to be so happy all the time
And now I just can't laugh no more.

But I'm fine, yes I'm fine you know,
I've just been sad for a little while,
It's hard to think that just a year ago,
I was with the person who made me smile.
"A year ago, we were in love"
said your beloved Woody Allen
How come I ever made you think of
Leaving me by myself again.

And how come I'm still in love with you,
After all the time that's gone by
After all that I've been through
You still manage to make my cry.
It's all my fault, I know that well
I just can't stand blaming myself for everything
I'm laying inside my little shell
Of hate and insecurity.

If you were here, we'd just finish this cup of coffee
Then I would drag you into my bed
You'd stay there, on top of me
You'd kiss my nose, my cheek, my forehead
We would make out, we would make love,
Which is probably one of the things I miss the most
I'd open the window, we'd watch the stars above,
You see... That's all I lost.

But I don't really care anymore about the past
'Cause now I'm focusing on the future
First loves are the only ones that last,
I'm working on us being together.

Because the love I feel for you is all I have left..

First you try and create the mood,
A quiet and peaceful atmosphere
Give us more romance than you should,
Find your inner voice, calm and clear.

Then your hands on the piano
Should look like the wings of a butterfly
Tell us about that girl you know,
Tell a story that would make us cry.

Just write a love song,
With stupid clichés and stupid romance
Make us sing along,
And give us the chance
To fall in love tonight.

Try to remember about
All the chances you missed
And what hurt the most in your past
And all those goodbye kisses ;

Turn those memories into
A stupid song with a stupid name,
Like "That girl I thought I knew",
And don't come back with no fame.

Just write a love song,
With stupid clichés and stupid romance
Make us sing along,
And give us the chance
To fall in love tonight.

And here we go, you're on stage,
The crowd listens to you.
Locking your heart away in a cage,
Locking away everything you knew.

Sing with your own voice the painful words
That couldn't get out of your throat ;
Admit your feelings to that special girl,
Or don't say anything at all...

Just write a love song,
With stupid clichés and stupid romance
Make us sing along,
And give yourself the chance
To fall in love tonight,
For the last time.

Can you imagine a world where
The most beautiful girl
Would be the one who never cried,
Because every single tear
That would drop on our face
Would leave scars
On our upper cheeks.
Therefore the happiest girl
In the whole world,
The one who would've never cried,
Would be the prettiest
And it would be wonderful.
But then on the opposite,
The girl who'd suffer from depression,
Would be hiding alone in the dark,
Ashamed by those deep red marks
Tattooed on her face.

Midnight.
I'm outside in the garden
There is not a single light,
And the clouds look like cotton.
I remember everything she said
On the day we met,
As clearly as if it was yesterday
There are things I can't forget...
Like her smile.
And the way she holds me
In her arms for a while,
Before saying that I make her happy.
And her voice,
In the dark, when she whispers
That our teacher made a great choice,
By making us sit together.
And her eyes,
Full of hope when she looks at me
She has made me realise,
That love can last an eternity.

Time is going,
I'm still alone in my memory garden.
The clouds have started crying,
Thunder is roaring like a dragon.
If she was here, with me,
We would share a kiss under the rain
We would hug, and she would see
That I can make her laugh again.
I hate how she is so far away
But tonight, I asked the Moon
If she would come here one day,
The Moon said yes, but not too soon.
I want to share my world with her,
I want to see a smile painted on her face
Play with her hair as long as we're together,
A whole night spent in her embrace.

Memories are walking all around me,
In my memory garden, like ghosts,
They're hunting my mind, hungry
I feed them, they're my hosts.
Everything seems less important now,
Distance kills me more every second
A pain in my chest that I don't allow,
But love is insidious, like a poison.
I miss her so much.
I miss her face, her smile, her eyes,
Her laugh, her lips, her touch,
I miss her voice when she said goodbye.
I know that she loves me,
But I'm scared that she finds someone else,
Someone who would love her deeply,
Who would make her smile with a single caress.

Eyes wide open in the dark,
I wonder.
The day we went to the park,
Does she remember ?
All the nights we have spent together,
Does she remember ?
Fulfilling the day with laughter,
Does she remember ?
The first time we kissed,
Does she remember ?
All the ''dates'' I missed,
Does she remember ?
The first time she said ''I love you'',
Does she remember ?
Well, I do.
I will always remember.
Our first love is something we can't forget,
And something we need to look after
I cherish the memories of the day we met,
Every single moment I have spent with her.

Lying on my bed,
I can almost feel her presence by my side,
I wanna tell her the thoughts that I haven't shared,
The feelings that I still hide inside.
I wish I could tell her how I truly feel,
How much I miss her holding my hand
But everything now seems unreal.
I never want our story to end.
I want to spend one more night
Cuddling under the sheets,
I just want to hold her tight,
And under my fingers, I want to feel her heartbeat.
We all want and wish
So many things when we are in love,
That may sound selfish,
But I want to be all she can think of.
Every time I think of the future,
My imagination goes wild, I can't stop smiling
Hope makes every memory brighter,
She is my everything.

I can't believe I never said before,
How I truly felt about her
I thought I knew, but I wasn't sure,
If she really liked all the times we've spent together,
One day at the beach, laughing so hard,
One day at her Dad's, smiling politely,
One night in the tent, heart attack,
One day at the cinema, her hand on my knee,
Our love was obvious.
But I couldn't make the first move,
And then one night, fearless,
I told her, and it proved,
That I was right, and she was right,
Our love could finally be.
Love at first sight,
Just her and me.

I think of her once a day, and it lasts 24 hours,
I keep all my memories inside.
Nothing can stop us, the world is ours,
I can do anything with her by my side.
I wonder,
What is she doing right now ?
I wish we could do everything together,
But I just don't know how...
I want to cuddle in bed again,
Pretend to watch a movie but watch her instead,
Open my heart and show the love it contains,
Kiss her cheek, her neck, her forehead.
I want to hold her against me
And never let go,
Tell her that I am lucky
To have her in my life – I love her so.
My other half,
My everything,
The love of my life,
My Pumpkin.

She says she's scared I will forget her,
But how could I forget my first love ?
How could I forget our moments together,
When she is all I have ever dreamt of ?
She is just perfect.
Nice, funny, beautiful, smart,
No defect.
No wonder how she stole my heart.
I don't know where this is going,
But I want to carry on,
She's the melody to every song I sing,
You know what.. I think she's the One.
She certainly is,
The One who makes me laugh,
The One I want to kiss,
The One who is my other half.

It's funny how we are connected in a way,
Our brains seem to talk to each other,
I can not spend a single day,
Without a thought for her.
I'm giving her all the love I possess,
But I want something in return
She only has to say yes,
And I can get rid of all her concern.
I want to comfort her when she feels down,
Hug her when she is sad,
Make her forget how to frown,
Make her forget everything that's bad.
I wish I could be,
The one who makes everything better.
She is the perfect person for me,
Am I the perfect person for her ?

Empty black holes in the milky way
Are filling themselves for you to come home -
Shooting stars across the universe
Are wishing not to be so alone.
Half the sky is cloudy
Nothing's good on the horizon,
The other half is pale blue
Make the dead come out of the ground !

Come on, come here people,
I have low prices on my new products
Here, take this one :
It's the latest trend in my world !
See how red it is,
Look how it shines !
It used to breathe and beat,
And then it got tired.
But it still works
As you can see !

Ah, you mister !
I see you look interested !
What is it called, you ask ?
Well, this is my heart.
I know it looks like it's dying,
But it's just a bit broken
This is THE deal of your life, I swear !
Yes madam, you can bargain,
The price is not actually set.

Hey you little girl !
Be careful when you touch it !
This is a very fragile thing
You wouldn't want to break it
Even more than it already is ;
Whithin the limits of possibility.
Ah, come closer, come closer !
Yes it is for sale indeed,
I know it is a bit broken
But give it just a little attention
And it will look just as new as before !

There's a story that comes with it,
My diary is free if you buy my heart !
What ? Oh yes, the price can go lower,
Not many people think my heart is valueable.

No ? No takers ?
Ah don't worry, I understand !

Killing my lungs with a bit of smoke
Drowning my sorrow with several shots
Thinking our story was only a joke
A smile on my lips and shadow in my thoughts,
My eyes are raining like they always do
Every now and then because they just have to,
This terrible love almost turned into hate
You've been gone for so long and I'm tired to wait.
But I will.
I'll wait forever if I need to,
Coughing my pain out like I've climbed a hill
Whispering your name because I need you.

Sometimes I happen to wonder if you think of me,
Must be nice to know there's always be someone
who will follow you no matter where you'll be
And who will always love you until becoming insane.

I need you to know I'm doing just fine,
Keep smiling to people, I even laugh sometimes
I promised you something that's always on my mind,
The hardest part of days is only bedtimes...
When I lie down, near that girl who just isn't you
When she kisses me but I taste your mouth
When she says she wants us to have something true
But there's no place for her in my little heart.
And when she talks about us in that hope in her eyes
I keep asking myself, why can't you love me like her ?
Because I've became somebody I despise ?
I only think about you when I'm with her.

Tell me - What's actually going on between us ?
I'm not sure whether I like this or not
It makes me so happy but I lose my focus
There's something strong but it's not my fault.

Tell me - What's the nature of our relationship ?
I'd like, just for a second, to get you out of my mind
It oppened my eyes and now I can't blink
There's something strong that I can't define.

Tell me - Do you believe in love at first sight ?
I know I do, it's happened to me
It's going on inside of me, an internal fight
There's something strong and I want to break free.

Tell me - What are your feelings towards me ?
I don't think they're as true as mine for you
It really is going to drive me crazy
There's something strong and nothing I can do.

Tell me - Is that what they call 'Love' ?
I am so scared and have so many regrets,
It became the only thing I can think of
There's something strong that I can't forget.

Tell me - Why do I act so shy around you ?
I am so open and talkative with other people
It's weird how a simple feeling can become so deep and true
There's something strong but it's drowning my soul.

Tell me - How exactly would you describe us together ?
I can't say what I think, all my thoughts are gone
It has been chasing me since a tuesday in September
There's something strong but I want it to leave me alone.

Tell me - What's about you that makes me forget the others ?
I'm really confused by all those different emotions
It is gonna **** me if I don't find answers
There's something strong and I can't find reasons.

Tell me - Why do I miss you so much when you're not here ?
I always feel hurt, but I don't know who to blame
It better go away, let me live, disappear
There's something strong that's causing me pain.

Tell me - Why am I pretending that everything's fine ?
I still remember holding your hand through the whole night
It was cold and your fingers were slowly caressing mine
There's something strong but it's killing my heart.

Tell me – Do you think I have wasted too much time ?
I've been wondering for too long if you'll ever be mine
It's hurting me now, I think the time has come
To reveal my feelings to you, and maybe we will share some...

And here I am, waiting for your answer
Shaking in the dark, eyes wide open with anxiety
Will you say ''no'' and try to forget me ?
Or will you say ''yes'' and be mine forever ?

I can't remember how to breathe
I've forgotten how to live
I don't know where to go now
I just keep walking around town
Barefooted and lonely
Because all I got is myself
And you don't even want me
Maybe I should just cut myself

OH WAIT life is amazing.

The radio is blasting words I don't quite understand,
My right hand's still holding an unlit cigarette
It's 6 in the morning, worst time of any day,
I feel today's gonna be as blurred as yesterday.

And you are still there, in my freaking mind,
Why can't you just go away. Please go away.
And you are still there with your freaking smile,
Please go away, even if it's just for a while.

There's a bottle of Jack Daniels hidden under my bed,
And there's the bottle of your perfume on my bedside table.
Some may say it's a mistake to keep smelling your scent,
But I'm lonely and I believe I'll go where you went.

Don't worry my dear I'll soon be by your side,
Even if there are some things I'm not allowed to say to you
Like the fact that I'm still so deeply in love,
And that you're the only one I can think of.

It's always okay in the end.
So I guess we never really reached the end together.
I suggest we just go back right to the start,
If you wish to give us another chance - at last...

She's just like hot coffee,
I taste her every morning
She knows how to make me happy
And I never see it coming. 

She likes playing with my tongue
I make the most out every drop
Nothing has ever felt so strong
She's like coffee with cream on top. 

She keeps me awake when I'm sleepy
Making me think there's nothing wrong,
A single drop drives me crazy
And I can stay up all night long.

Have you even looked at your bare face ?
My god, you just look stunning.
Your eyes are a beautiful place
Where I'm easily drowning.

A** chance to speak,
Beneath broken sheets,
Caught out in moment,
Dying deep inside.
Evaporate tension,
From little or no knowing,
Growing up alone,
Half loved and half resented.
I come to conclusions,
Just before my death,
Keeping me in memory,
Like you always promised,
Missing me in silence,
No more mourning of past,
Of regrets and despairs.
Promise me you’ll use what I learnt,
Question the decisions of others,
Reluctant or not,
Stay away from their paths,
They only lead you to their futures,
Unknowingly you end their second,
Valiant but alone,
Where you spend life in wandering,
Xrayed life,
Your future makes up nothing
Zorbing inside of your own bubble.

It was when I met you
That I understood love songs
And
why people dance with each other

I understood kissing
And
why it is the most beautiful thing

I understood why brokenhearted people cry
And why they stay away from everyone
when they heart shatters
because they need their space
to fill it
with the voice of their lover who left,
and the memories
to bring the pieces of their heart together
and to break them again.

It was when I met you
That I understood what life is all about
and
why people stay late out night thinking about that someone.

Toutes les histoires sont comme un miroir,
Deux faces, deux versions, deux reflets.
Pourtant le notre ne me montre que ce que je veux voir,
Au secours, j'ai besoin d'aide, notre miroir est brisé.

Cette nuit j'ai dessiné ton visage sur mes rêves, à la craie
Ce matin ta peau était encore collée à ma joue
J'ai essayé de t'arracher, mais tu étais enfoncée comme un clou,
Au secours, j'ai besoin d'aide, je n'arrive pas à t'effacer.

Tu restes là sans être présente,
Ta voix me répète encore que "j'ai dû me tromper"
J'avoue avoir eu tort de penser que tu m'avais laissée
Au secours, j'ai besoin d'aide, ton fantôme me hante.

Mon étoile brille encore moins que tes émeraudes
Nos erreurs m'agressent, comme nos insultes en écho
Ce n'était pas prévu que tout se termine dans un tel chaos
Au secours, j'ai besoin d'aide pour réparer ce désordre.

J'ai lutté de toutes mes forces pour te chasser de mon esprit,
Mais tu reviens à la charge, le soir juste avant de dormir
Toute seule avec ta voix qui me guide pour écrire,
Au secours, j'ai besoin d'aide, tu me fais sombrer dans la folie.

Aujourd'hui j'ai tellement peur que tu ne veuilles plus que je revienne,
Et je ne suis même pas sûre de le vouloir moi-même
Je me fais encore du mal, mais on récolte ce que l'on sème
Au secours, j'ai besoin d'aide, je voulais juste que tu me retiennes.

Ton ombre me suit partout en chantant Clementine,
Mais il n'y a plus d'éveil aux émeraudes depuis longtemps
Le silence me rend muette, je ne respire plus comme avant
J'ai dérivé ; au secours, j'ai besoin d'Aide..line.

She just turned 18
She doesn't know what she's doing
with her life.
Her parents are always on her back,
Always stressing her out,
Got to make her mind up.
She doesn't know what she wants
Her universe isn't balanced
at all.

For now she's lost in a sea of sensations,
Refuses to look at the future in the eyes
Believes tomorrow will bring a clear answer,
but it never does.
Poor girl just turned 18
and she thinks her life is already over.

She's lost her heart, she's lost her mind,
What can she even do now ?
Trying so hard to find a place within
She keeps fighting every day
But life doesn't give her the chance she needs.
She's lost as you can see,
What can she do, what can she do ?

School's almost over, take a decision now
What is she going to do ?
She's still under so much pressure
Poor little girl can't handle of that,
She just wants to go far away
And never, ever come back.

But she's still just a little girl,
She has to wait for a while.
Then she can leave, in a few months' time
And start a brand new life...
She just turned 18,
But she feels she's already lived her whole life.

She's still hoping to go, one day
Where nobody can ever find her again.

At some point, I have come to realise
That the reason why
I am so frightened about my own future
Is because you'll be in it,
And it gave me so much pain in the past
That it left scars in my heart and mind.
I now wonder how bad it will be
When we meet again.

I am scared because I am scarred.