there is a dark emptiness within. slowly growing as the time passes. some days it shrinks away, others it expands and nearly consumes all. there is a desperate need to fill that void: inhale the nicotine release the darkness within that smoke. swallow the fire, that numbs the mind.
Quite often I find myself wondering, Questioning my existence Is all the pain and drama worth it? Every hurtful word, Every tear, Every cut, Every bruise, Every cigarette, Every bottle, Every anything, Is anything worth it?
Fear her She may be small She may be young But she is a force to be reckoned with If she let's you in Do not hurt her You'll understand why you should Fear her She may be small She may be young But she knows how to cause pain Not physical pain But the worst kind of pain Emotional pain Hurt her and she'll make you miserable
Save me I'm falling Farther and farther Down the rabbit hole I can't get out Help me I'm begging My hand reaches out Grasping the air Hoping to find a hand Rescue me I trapped in this hole I cannot break out Not alone Only you can save me now
You're perfect But not good enough for me I love you But not enough to be your man You're beautiful But not pretty enough for me You're funny Because of your stupidity You're cute Because you don't know the truth You're my best friend Because you're just my play thing I'm here for you *But not for long
I thought you cared I thought you liked me I was wrong You never liked me I was just your sympathy case To make yourself feel good You complimented me Constantly throughout the day You built me up Never planning in telling the truth That you had no real feelings for me Now I desperately search For anything sharp To help bleed you out of me
There is no escape No matter how far I run No matter what I say No matter what I do No matter where I hide I cannot escape
There is no escape I can't hide from my past The ghosts come back to haunt me Just when I think I'm free They come and pull me back again I cannot escape
There is no escape I am bound to who I was I am held down by chains I am held down by my regrets I am held down by all my mistakes I cannot escape
I can never be free For I am bound Never to open up Never to rule trust Never to truly love Because I can never escape
Have you ever like somebody so much that it hurt? You want them so badly, but you know you can't have them? You know they don't want you like that, Yet you still hope everyday that they'll change their mind Although you know you can't no matter what you say or do So you settle You settle to be whatever they'll let you be A friend A best friend A sibling Friends with benefits Whatever you can be You're so desperate to be close to them It's sad to see yourself like this And it hurts when you see them more interested in someone else And then you wonder Did you ever mean anything to then at all? Then you realize You don't *And never will
You are perfect I am broken You are innocent I am impure You are an angel I have been cast out of heaven You are kind I get used You are loving I get hurt You are beautiful I am ugly You are my everything I am nothing You are perfect *I am broken
Once there was a kingdom Bright and beautiful it was No other could compare She was strong and steady Like a beating drum
The king of the land Knew not of what he had In his palm was this kingdom It could withstand anything Or so it seemed
The king was arrogant He mistreated the land He abused his power She started to become weak No longer bold
She retreated away from him But his power was too strong She tried to fight But she was too weak She'd lost her radiant glow
With every passing hour she withered away More and more everyday She did not have the strength to withstand him The cracks began to show Like cracks in a statue
I waited for you For days I waited And I heard nothing I started to lose faith Doubt crept into my heart As did fear Fear that you no longer wanted me Fear that I was alone And I was alone You left me Shot in the dead of night My heart broke Into a thousand pieces again You had put them together Now I am broken again And you're gone While I'm alone Left here on earth You are free I am still trapped I long to be with you But I cannot For you are gone forever...
I'm done Done with you With your little games The little games you play You play with my head And my head controls my heart My heart says to love you But to love you would be pain The pain of knowing you're not mine Not mine to have and hold But what would I hold on to? To the thought of your beauty? Your beauty only goes so far But not far enough So I've had enough with you With all your stupid games Games that are no longer fun Now the fun will be mine As you watch and see You'll see that I'm no longer yours
I woke up this morning excited Ready to take on the day And whatever it brought Yet I feared for what would happen My stomach twisted in knots Yet there were butterflies Fluttering around in it too I couldn't think straight But I knew exactly what I had to say I had to know Yet I couldn't stand to find the truth My everything was in that answer My every hope My every dream All could come true Or come crashing down around me What would happen? How would it go?
Sometimes you're such an **** And I wonder why I'm friends with you Or why I put up with you Or how we came to be Then I think how boring my life would be If it didn't have you in it
He loves me He loves me not To be? Or not to be? Simple questions that I never understood Till today There is a new light to the world I'd wondered for years If he loved me And now I know The world has shifted I see the light After years of waiting I now know But he'll never be mine To love and take care of To have and to hold I'd missed my opportunity Long ago It'd come and gone Such simplicity Just to ask him a little question But I didn't because I was scared Now it'll forever haunt me
He was my backbone I was his rock We needed each other Like the sun needs the moon We were Apollo and Artemis Absolute opposites but that's what made us so great
He was tall Blonde haired Blue eyed And fair skinned I was short Brown haired Brown eyed And tan
He was happy and open While I kept to myself He was strong and bold While I was shy and conservative
He saw that I was fragile And I saw that he needed tenderness He taught me to be strong And I taught him to be kind
I tamed him While he made me wild I managed to cage the beast As he opened the door to a world I didn't know about
The longer we were together the crazier things got Soon there was no holding us back We fed off each other We were fire and gasoline
Alec broke my heart As easily as Will had Down to the day Exactly one year ago Will left never saying goodbye Never settling anything
They were polar opposites Will and Alec Will, angry and pessimistic Alec, happy and bright Ones heart had been broken and had turned to stone The others never known what love was or how much it hurt
One thing was the same My greatest weakness Their eyes The most beautiful eyes I'd ever seen A deep blue ocean I was lost at sea I'd died a thousand deaths in them
Will's eyes were beautiful But there was something in them Darkness hide behind the beauty Much pain and agony hid from the light There was no light in his eyes, but only anger
Alec's eyes were equally beautiful There was something in them too In those eyes was a light It showed that he had nothing to hide They showed that no one had ever broken his heart
Yet both those oceans captivated me There was nothing I could do to resist them The more I fought, the more I fell Head over heels for them But neither seemed to feel the same
I was not their sun and stars I was never their Aphrodite Though they were my world And they were my life Alec broke my heart Just as easily as Will had Exactly one year ago