ah, am i numb if i know you love me
but i still rarely feel it?

modified lies,
forced trust
and fabricated you.

do not blame me for not loving the real you
if all you have shown me is the fake you.

at first it was he who trembled awkwardly with fear and paranoia of mistakes he believed would commit that his phobia itself had turned into an error. once confronted, he had gradually become more comfortable and less awkward; their special bond had taken a positive toll. at the peak of this, she had also gradually become more and more of herself, expressive and carefree.

now only to become what he once was.

i want to bathe in heavy water,
engulf me,
**** me,
maybe the radiation could give me abilities
like those heroes who had nothing
turned into something.

im lost and im drowning
maybe being something
just isnt for me

so engulf me and _ _ _ _ me.

i said i loved honesty and hated liars,
but i fell in love with you and your lies the entire time

do you want a clingy girl so bad,
that you dont put in any effort anymore?

love i

to you, lovely: i love you too

a tough nut to crack
but to get the softer centre,
you must break him apart.

im only 43kg but im still the heaviest weight on your shoulders.