She made him a better man
But they fell in love too young
For him to be more than just a boy
.
They could've been "meant-to-be's"
But he wasn't ready to have already found the one

I've forgotten
How many times you forgot
You said you were bringing flowers
Only to walk through my door empty handed
But good intentions and your convincing kiss made me forget
How all I ever wanted was for you to bring me flowers
.
.
.
.
.
(I've grown a garden in your absence. They give me hope that someday someone will love me enough to not forget)

I let you know me better than anyone else.
No one has ever gotten that close.
You were first to conquer all these secrets.

...

I wonder if when you see these pictures
You know,
It's just my way of missing you
And having no other way of telling you.

Am I the only one that finds tragedy
In the difference between
"Where are you?"
And
"Where were you?"

I wish it made sense for me
To call you in a moment of insane courage
And drive in the middle of the night
To tell you how I feel
How angry it made me
That all I was to you was a secret
One you wanted to taste so bad you were willing to take it to your grave
You had no right to tell me those things
You should've been better to me
---
But no amount of yelling
Will ever make you mine
No amount of closure
Will replace never getting to know what it's like to be with you
No matter how ****** I am
If you asked me now
I would let you ******* lips
All those things you said you wanted to do
I would do it all
To be able to give something to you
---
For one chance to know your love
I would give anything
Even if it meant
Looking at your finger
And ignoring the ring

We were visiting your parents for the weekend
We're adults but they made rules anyway
The first night you snuck into my bedroom and broke their rules anyway
The gentle pull into your chest and intertwining your legs with mine woke me up
We laid there a long time
Our lips less than an inch away from each other
Just breathing

You softly whispered to me
"You're beautiful"
Your eyes were closed.

I asked how you knew if you couldn't see me
You replied,
"I don't need eyes to know you are the most extraordinary woman I have ever seen"

I had never liked being called beautiful before
But coming from you it sounded so different...

I think I can get used to this.