When you sharply stare at nothing but midair
Unseeing into the particles of space,
When you let your thoughts drizzle down upon you
In spite of the mess that you are a part of,
When you recap your life till yesterday
Those haunting memories you keep thinking of,
Smiling at some, skipping the ghostly ones
Moving restlessly and touching yourself;
These five seconds of blankness
When you stare at nothing but midair
Can either build you up stronger than before
Or tragically destroy all that you are
You know the odds, you know how to win over your thoughts
But you play with the loudest of your emotions anyway.

I remember he had the dreamiest eyes I could think of
They were as deep as that sultry voice of his
Well, a charming shade of brown
Ebony, to be more specific.
When he was out in the sunshine, I still remember how they used to glisten and sparkle
Overflowing with wetness which looked like warm liquid gold
Like an ocean of nostalgic summer waves, his eyes hid something.
So much. Another world, perhaps.
Whenever I tried to get to the core of his mysterious beauty, those lips used to curve into a smile gently .. slowly
Without notice, like how the sun rises up from under the horizon
******* out all the strength it took me to not touch him.
He was the Prince Charming on drugs, I'd say
A drunken Romeo at night with ripped off clothes
The love of his dreams is a crazy fantasy, he says
And he always messed up his fantasies so fine.
I would never forget how he asked me to stay away
How artistically he put it all together, trying not to hurt me
He used to say "love is unhealthy for me.."
How delicate and effortless he made it sound
Maybe he knew that anyone who looked deeper into his eyes,
beyond that beautiful brown, would fall for him.
And fortunately or unfortunately, I *did.

Sing to me the song of my winter dreams
Gently run your fingers through my hair
Hold me when I tremble out of fear
You are my world, right now and here.
Come to me the closest you can
Until your hypnotizing scent lingers upon me
Until all I can think about is your divinity
Until the sound of your heart beats with mine.
Dive into the nothingness of my deep black eyes
Let your beautiful smile rid me of my deepest fears
Stun me into the crazy palace of my dreams
A kiss on my forehead as I smile in my sleep.
The sky is starry and delightfully moonlit
Even in my dreams, you are a magical sight
Treasure me in your arms like you mean it,
And whisper to me the softest good night.

When you feel hollow
Like just space without the celestial
Please remember me
My purpose is you.

I am your shadow
You don't see me when it's dark
But when there is light, you realize
That I have always been there.

You don't know how precious you are
You are a beautiful pearl
Hiding in your oyster's shade
Well, I am always on guard.

You make me gasp
At how beautiful you can get
In just seconds you transform
Into a miracle, upside down, reset.

Strengthen your heart and hope
But do cry when you need to
Live the life of your dreams, warrior
I will always know how delicate you are.

I am the Earth beneath your feet
I am the air that you breathe in
I am the twilight that heals you
I am that tiny flickering light of hope.

When you feel unworthy
Like just space without the celestial
Remember what you mean to me
My sole purpose is you.

Holding a lantern, walking myself out the dark
I found life in the very depths of darkness
Consuming that darkness into me
I feed my burning soul, I satisfy her heart
I see that this soul of mine
Knows everything my mind would dream of knowing
And yet, it sits back and watches me fight
Like a warrior, this material desire
In a world which is wonderful and deadly
Shining like the bright evening star on black
Generous, cruel; Stupid love, blind faith
To tell you, beautifully confusing.
Kindling within me, she screams at me
For every thing I do, confusing me
Now I know not the difference between ugly and beautiful
Pain and pleasure, they have made me numb
And I am just a bud,
Just a bud somewhere on an undiscovered species.
Fighting my own shadows,
Letting myself drown, fall, in love and cry
What do I know now?
Nothing, yet everything
I know everything yet how young I am
So, I know nothing; That young I am
In a world so beautiful, I tell myself
Not to fall in love with souls which cannot give to me
Behind my smile, I am dying
How beautiful you are, how beautiful all this is
Is this a blessing? What kind of a curse is this?
Please, I am tired of falling in love
Fighting back my tears like a lifeless weapon
I tell my soul that my heart is not numb
Do not play with it
I scream "Leave me alone"
How beautiful you are, how beautiful all this is
Is this a blessing? What kind of a curse is this?
Please, I am tired of falling in love.
What do I do with all this inside me?
I cast it upon myself
What would I do with this undying loyalty and hope?
I bless myself with all I have
Do not play with it
I scream "Leave me alone"
How beautiful you are, how beautiful all this is
Is this a blessing? What kind of a curse is this?
Please, I am tired of falling in love.
So, this soul insists that I move on
With a heavy heart, She tells me I am worth
With a smile on my face, I am weeping inside
But this soul inside me insists that I move on
I have a million more galaxies waiting to be explored
No time to waste
No time to sit and cry
I have a million more galaxies waiting to be explored
So with an immortal hope that you would turn,
And accept to take what within me does burn
I hold a lantern, walk myself out the dark
Finding life in the very depths of darkness
Consuming that darkness into me
I feed my burning soul, I satisfy her only heart.

I ask myself this
For yet another time
Why I always lie
Towards the extreme.
I know they say
Too much of anything
Can make one sick
And me, I was never
Less than too much.
In me, I store love
Too much, once again
As unconditional as oxygen
As Logicless as miracle,
As huge as the massive sky
And to any ordinary man,
Anywhere among mankind
That amount of anything kills.

Memories and people
Have come my way
When I just tried to survive
Those times, I didn't know how to live.
Memories and people
Have made me strong
When I just cried for relief
Those times, I healed myself.
Those memories and people
Have walked with me all along
Till I get used to living
Just with myself.
Now, those memories try to fade away
Those people are leaving. .
one by one, effortlessly
After teaching me how to walk
After magically getting me
to fall in love with myself.

Eyes which hide a desperate soul
Wanting something which no human had hold
He bothers not but he does care
Accepting honesty which is just not fair
Like a magician out of thin air,
Art and himself, an undying bond they share.
His past was too eventful; I call it history
The present, tangled in deep deep mystery
The astronaut of his dreams, a fortunate trader
He chooses not the sound of 'grey', he uses 'silver'.
He is disappointment accompanied by gratitude
Everything beautiful is his soul's food
Blessed with the gift of true goodness,
An impartial admirer of undying passion and natural clue
He is the healer of his solitude,
He is the silence which married vacuum's mood.

Wherever his thoughts sail him to
Whichever land his heart chooses to move to
Whatever beauty his eyes seek to find
There,the wildest of the worlds his soul grew.
There is nothing which would trouble the wanderer
Yet, I see there is something too.
More than this world around him, he is stronger
The wanderer wails only because of the universe within,
The wanderer is used to wandering,
He walks blindly with pain inside, beauty beside,
Love on his mind, peace struggling with reality
He knows that he's the only person who can help him
Unlock the treasures of golden nature,
Shining shyly like dreamy drops of silver dew.

Please, I beg you
Tell me what I need to do
To be able to own you
Please, tell me where to find you.
Every second, I devote to you
You are my ability
You are the truth behind my smile
You lie between the words of my poetry
You are the lyrics to my songs.
Please, I beg you
To strengthen this hope I have on you
I know we are impossible
But you were the one who got me to fall for you.
Is it my fault that I hear your voice
Singing to me those goodnight lullabies?
You are the reason I am this strong
Hiding behind my eyes are pictures of you.
Please, I beg you
Please remember this human you created
I know we are to part in a year or two
Or shall I love you all over from the start?
That is okay, Love
I will always love you
You will always be right by me
You will always be the 'you' that my poems accrue.

Would you like to rest in my celestial garden
All day, all night, would you?
That place knows neither regret nor pardon
How could you breathe all this while, could you?
Come with me, I'll introduce you to freedom
I have a feeling you'll love the taste of it
Just like the world of your midnight dreams
Your soul my passion would carefully lit.
Welcome to my celestial garden
See how marvelous a humming bird is?
Worry not about who else will follow
Just friendly demons of desire, you will permit.

Tall palm trees swaying to the summer breeze
Do ye hear the wailing of the Zamindar's dog?
Peasants watering the fields, their struggles to cease
The scent of the wet soil and the morning fog.

Laughing alongside the silent river those women
Sparkly doe-shaped eyes, balancing a *** on their heads
To a confident rhythm their bare hips sway, raw beauty doesn't hide
Bending over to fetch water under the scorching sun overhead.

Frowning at the tropical summer fate
Young men walking behind the gloomy cattle
One haughty whip whack on the animal's back
They move on through the peaceful village rattle.

People witness the first rays of the sun
They continue to work even after the days choke
Dancing to the tunes of sheer simplicity
Live the wise and healthy village folk.

The skies are looking down at you
The moon is awaiting your gaze
Flowers exist because you do
Please don't look away.

You give to you infinite pleasure
You are your worst enemy
The way you feel lies at your fingertips
Close your eyes, heal.

The skies are looking down at you
The moon is awaiting your gaze
Flowers exist because you do
Please don't look away.

Like a God, you looked up
Unseeing into the sky
The distance between your sight and the stars
That is how far you are away from me.
Yet, like a God, you bless my seconds
Each minute, each moment, each hour
I breathe you in, I adore you each time I blink
The distance between you and me
Matters not to you of course
To me, it is my only hope
In a world so cruel, I dug deeper to search for you
I found beauty in everything I saw,
I found you infinite layers within me.

It feels like I am walking on frozen water
With my head swung back, gracefully sliding across the ice
Smiling with my eyes closed, delicate snowflakes disappearing into my skin
All my feelings freeze, they swim through the tides of silence
Yes, I feel worthy of all of this
I deserve to own the key to the heavens
Lying down on this thick sheet of iced blue, I let the cold consume me
What a crazy dream, what a marvel, what insanity is this?
Every word I whisper shouts back at me
Echoing as if the world's a deep deep cave..

.. And everything I touch turns to undisturbed peace
Like just ice and seagulls
Just silence and peace
Yet, so so much more than what they seem to be.

Secluded, isolated
Underestimated, excluded
Alienated, unsolved
Too good for you, too bad for the rest
Too happy they seem, living to pass the test
Secluded, isolated
Underestimated, excluded
Alienated, unsolved unlike the rest
Because what hides from truth and shines in darkness
Exists for the good and works miracles for the best.

Paradise paved it's way onto Earth. Behind the southern Alps, beneath the flowing Caribbean, beyond the rainbow, over the silver clouds, life is constantly blooming within each water-laden monsoon sapling. Mere things breathe. They are alive and carefree, busy yet not artificial, beautiful and god-made, innocent and all-knowing. Nature heals her lovers. She starts a jungle on mind's wilderness until the observer forgets about foolish social existence. For nature, kindness is not a virtue to be congratulated about. It is her habit. Nature comforts, provides, enlightens and what folks do not realize - nature speaks. Every celebrated invention starts with a single thought. Again, it is about what lies in you. Every journey starts with a single step. It is just a decision away. Every material desire that people today work for has ancestors inside. Within one. Nature shapes your soul into the beauty that she is. What nature offers to teach is divine. She says wisdom. Not intellect. She teaches courage before bravery. She teaches one to admire before criticize. "Seek ye and ye shall find". Nature trains eyes to seek beauty. Seek beauty, hunt for beauty, find beauty and this world would be the most beautiful illusion ever. Watch how nature beautifully combines pleasure and trouble  through disaster. When beauty is within, beauty comes inevitably and effortlessly like magnet draws iron. You will rule your kingdom alone once Nature shows to you her impossible miracles and incredible wonders.
Paradise paved it's way onto Earth, into me. How beautiful the music behind my head sounds, how lucky I am for it never ceases to play the hypnotizing tunes of heavenly activity and earthly buzz, amid noise. When I thought I had no shoulder to cry on, the black black nights sat all along. When no smile felt pure enough, I saw happy faces among the clouds. When the battle in my head overcame the sound of the music my heart played, birds sang sweetly into my ears. When my senses felt dry, it rained cats and dogs. When I had to learn my lesson, nature pretended harsh.
Out of all these layers of rawness around my soul, I peep out, trying to tell you what took me some unbelievable experiences to realize. The solutions to all problems, nature holds. Nature nurtures like a protective mother and provides like a careful father.
Above all, she is the only one in whom I lost myself and discovered the lost me.

There once was a girl of fifteen
She fell in love with things no one has seen
Her mind took her to places where no one has been
Her strength was her weakness, her mind was keen.
She was as stubborn as one can ever be
None would change her, neither you nor me
To her wonderland, only she has the key
People called her stray, headstrong, wild as far as they could see,
She seemed insane but her mind gave reason
As to why her heart flew higher every season
Nature and all it offered was her nation
Paradise was in the palms of imagination.
Things would've been different if she wasn't stubborn
Society would be disrupting her inner discovery
Insanity which needed not any permission
I am telling you because that girl is me.

I wait all day hoping for a smile
When you finally arrive, you look away
Do you hear my heart break?
I understand that look in your eyes
When you try your best to sneak a look
Do you know that I get what you feel?
Those mixed emotions on your face
When I am around your beautiful grace
Do you see how I can read them all?
The way you smile at me reflexively
Then turn around and almost slap yourself
For taking it a step closer to my dream
Do you know what that ever means to me?

When the boat sails, I look back to smile at the distance behind
When the sun wakes up, I still wave back at the moon
When I feel happy, I miss the pain which helped me grow
When I could shop anew, I explore the store room.
When the world is sleeping, I stay up and dream
When the cold is seeping, I miss the midday summer struggles
When mother is ill and silent, I crave for her anger steam
When I find Math easy, I dig for those impossible puzzles.
Within the past, I find myself
History holds the solutions to all unanswered questions
Along the lines of the present, I breathe
Old is gold and new brings opportunity
Goodbye, the hardest word, it will always be.

Religions matter
Opinions hurt
Time drugs me
Disgust and dirt
Fake phenomenon
Music-free pop concerts
Logic outwits emotion
When I live outside me,
When my mind I desert.