i feel like a bird with 2 broken wings
a knife twisted in my heart
cutting through my soul's strings
broken and shattered with no armour i stand
my pieces can't be put together
I'm no puzzle or spelling bee letters
shattered glass sits on the floor with my reflection torn apart with it
like every piece of me lies beneath my feet
within my reach
but I'm too weak
i can't pick up any piece
my heart still broken with only stitches to fix
i lay down my heart to the broken things list
where i had laid my soul once and my thoughts once
now my heart belongs there
where it hopefully will be repaired
im so scared of the life i will have to face
im an exploding star turning into a black hole
taking the life out of every light like a machine
like I'm made of steel
and i feel like every time i try to touch the light i consume it ,
break it and break every inch of me too
thats what a super massive black hole would do
I'm just like a monster
i still feel used
my eyes are tired of crying
they burn like the fire inside me
my tears had run out like the ocean that once ran through me
i lay down wishing for help
crying out , looking for a friend

i am not you , i am not everything you think i am .
i am not exactly who everyone thinks i am
im not my gender , its the gender that occupy me
im not my race and society
im not you
gravity that held us together suddenly was too strong that it consumed itself
pulled too strong that it pulled itself apart
now we are floating in space with nothing but vacuum between us
the universe ripped apart in half to be something for me and you
an ornament in our skies but we did not get lucky
because the universe tore itself apart too much that it couldn’t hold itself back ,
because the black hole was holding it hostage

showed us who we truly are
apart from each other we were floating into our decisions and self consciousness
thrown into our own mind so suddenly ,
im not who you are anymore
I’m the perfect intersection between day and night
when the weather is just right
I’m the summer nights we will never get to spend together
curled up with friends
I’m the moonlight of a full moon strong and shining
i am the plot of a good book
im a comfortable sweater you would never throw away
I’m the mug you fill your warm tea with
I’m the little thing that is so impactful but yet so beautiful
im not a part of you
neither are you a part of me
any more