I'll leave you in the dark this year
Being a senior is the coming of adulthood
I won't need to report to you,
so I'll get used to it now.

Do you feel better now?  Lying in bed alone?
Saying
"I miss you, please answer the phone."
"It's been awhile." "Maybe we can work this out."

No.

I find myself crawling back to you.
We were friends,we had it good.
But, you broke your promises.
I drop the phone and cry outmoded tears
on you.
On us.

But all this time, you've forgotten.
That I was the one who lost
everything.

And it only hurts when I breathe.
Heartbreaking goodbyes, over and over again.
It only hurts when I breathe.

Six flights back to where we started.
To prove to you this isn't over.
To find out that I'm the other one.
I thought I deserved better than being a choice.

*I guess not.

when you asked me to be your girlfriend,
i didn't cry.
nor did i cry when you gave me
this promise ring.

I cried when you told me
"if you talk to him again, we're done"
and i cried when i had to tell him
why

i didn't cry after the first time
we made love,
nor the first time you told me
you loved me.

but i never cried so hard until when
you found out he kissed me
and you told me that it was over
but you wouldn't let me leave

today, i cried because i know
i've done so many wrongs
and i don't know when or if
i could ever make it

**right

Every week I see changes
after your freshman year of college,
will you be the man I fell in love with
in his junior year of high school?