We don’t think
Before we speak
But our words
Only take seconds to sink
Into someone elses heart
We seem to have no problem
Destroying what’s not ours


Words mean everything
From people who used to mean something

Hospital walls get tired
And colors
They become dry
After a while
The memories fade
But sometimes they crash and fall
Like tidal waves
Striking my heart
As if one blow
Wasn’t enough to impede
My hearts beating
Again and again
They hammer
Their words
Down my throat
And a girl can only swallow
So much
Before she breaks

In the cold
We seek comfort
Beneath layers of clothing
Soaking wet

We stumble inside
And you bump into
The corner of my mother’s
Kitchen table

A laugh escapes your lips
The type of laughter
I can see in your eyes

You always squint your eyes
When you laugh

I got lost in those eyes
Those fields of
Emerald green
Or were they pools
Of blue
It would be easy
To just forget them

But it makes me smile
When I remember

The way the sleeves
Of my flannel shirt
Always slid past your wrists
Concealing your fingers

And the way
You looked at me across the table
Over your empty cup
Of tea

I remember those December nights
When life became frigid
And our future looked bleak
We used each other for body heat

I remember those mornings
You know the ones
4am conversations about pills
And dying

I remember all your quirks
That you drank tea, never coffee
I know that those scrapes on your knuckles weren’t mistakes

I remember thinking it was love
The way your words were woven
But the promise you made
Wasn’t a promise at all

I remember you kissing her
And I lost my appetite

I remember January 1st
When you bled a little too much
And I tightened the noose

I remember that you went to the hospital
And I just stayed home with a bruise
I guess you were the gun
And I was the trigger