you didn't realize it, but our souls were intertwined. when you hurt, some part inside of me felt that same pain; even more so than you did, because it hurt me to see you hurt. and when you were smiling, my heart filled with warmth and happiness, because I knew how much you deserved that moment of serenity and joy. but when you changed, and disappeared suddenly, all I felt was nothingness because when you left, you took a part of me with you.

When did life
Stop being so simple,
That you don't remember a time
That it wasn't chaotic and difficult?
What happened to
The sweet childhood memories
Full of sunshine and fun times?
Why after each conversation with you
I want to cry?
And why after each conversation with you
I want to cry?
Where did it all go wrong?
When did the sun burn out?
When did rain become the only forecast?
How can you live
Knowing how many hearts you've broken?
How can I live
Knowing I'm breaking yours?
I'm sorry my love, but
I need you to hold me like you do.
And I know I'm not deserving of it,
But it brings a peace back to my existence.
It brightens up my black hole.
It placates my pain endured.
It heals my broken heart,
And keeps it safe in your hands.
And that,
Brings a true meaning back to the world.

Mom,
my greatest teacher,
I love you and
You taught me
A lot of important lessons.
You taught me to roll with the punches.
You taught me how to make my own money.
You taught me how to dance.
You taught me how to believe in myself.
You taught me about God.
You taught me how to accept.
But why didn't you teach me
How to love?

Light the flame
Burn the paper
Inhale the peace
Exhale the stress
Dream...

I have to be honest
I have to tell you that I remember
I remember the way your eyes shine in street lights
I remember they way your fingers felt intertwined with mine
I remember the way your run your fingers through your hair when you talk
I remember they way you kiss with your entire soul
I remember they way you held me like I was the most important thing to you
I remember the way you made me feel like I was safe
And I remember the way you left
I remember how it felt when you said you were finished
I remember how it felt watching you be happy
I remember how it felt moving on with my life with someone else
I remember how it felt to pick up the pieces
I remember how it felt to see you, and know you that you don't remember
And then I remember why I try to forget

I remember that night, I remember...
That velvet kiss, on your soft, lush lips
I remember the music, I remember...
My arms, gently wrapped around your hips

I remember this feeling, I remember....
What it is when I see you with him, it's rage
I remember this pain, I remember...
Feeling as though you're crushing my heart in cage

I remember all this, I remember...
Every second I spent with you
But to forget the bad, must I forget
everything that was good too?

When did I lose the ability to feel,
The ability to care,
The ability to love…
Am I alive?
I’m not sure
I think I died when you left me
My body is still here
But my heart is gone,
Ripped out, along with my soul
So what do I do now,
With this useless body I’m left with?
Lifeless and hopeless
There’s only one thing to do
Jump into the ocean, water so blue
But I can’t swim
Yes, that’s the point
One more hit off this joint
Splash – it’s over…