I sit here and stress
About the highs and lows of tomorrow
If you will think of me or not
If i am important
If am important enough for effort
To choose me over something simple.
I choose you.
But who cares,
Your not "ready" to except love.
But i wasnt.
I broke.
But if you did-
That means more.
Because you are most important to you.
So if i back off
If im quiet
And if i leave
Its me protecting myself.
Its me trying to prevent a crack
Or a chip
Or a scratch
Because they all hurt the same.
But you dont care about the damage done to me.
So as i sit there
From the warm glow of the candles
I hope i dont wish for you.
Because you should of been there already.

You say the sweetest things,
And keep me attatched.
I give you my heart,
And forget the past.
We share a moment,
I feel so lucky,
That i get to have you
This means to much to me.
I walk down the hallway,
So see the same,
You With another girl,
And you say her name.
But what about me?
What about what we shared?
Did you forget what you said?
Now Im scared.
I hold back the water,
About to drip from my eye.
I was so gaurded
And you were my only guy.
I only saw you.
I feel betrayed,
Lied to and beaten up,
Its me who needs some space.
I see you with her,
And my heart breaks.
I dont know what to feel,
I dont know what it takes,
To be with you.
I dont know
if i want to be with you.
Because...

You hurt me.

Every word,
And evey smile,
Laughing and joy,
Let's stay for a while.
Sharing secrets.
And from the start.
You had a piece of me,
A piece of my heart.
I was there for you.
A shoulder to cry on.
"Through thick and thin,"
An unbreakable bond.

But you forgot,
What we had.
For someone else,
it makes me sad.
He means more to you.
A change of perception.
I dont want to hurt you.
Im now competition.
But
i dont want to compete.
But
You don't need to me to feel complete.
I thought you did,
But now I realize,
Your true intensions.
So was it all lies?
Was that "bond"
Really there?
All my pain and suffering,
You didn't care?
You
You tell me your selfish.
But I say your more.
And you still tear me down,
Until i hit the floor.

You cant breathe,
If he loves anybody.
And you cant bare,
If that person is me.
I just want,
My friend back.
When did,
Your heart turn black?
Mine never did,
And it never will.
I just want everyone happy,
But you can't swollow that pill.
I won't allow,
You to ruin.
All we have.
We don't have to end.
You don't benefit,
From seeing me smile.
But i want whats best for you,
Please stay a while.

A friendship and a relationship.
Are completely separate.
How could just drop everything,
Like you don't give a ****?
I listened you.
I respected you,
I supported you,
I loved you as my own.
I held you at your weakest point,
When you trashed my throne.
And what do I receive?
What do I get in return?
A guilt trip,
And a lesson learned.
I don't want to accept,
Your insensitivity.

So just know,
No matter what.

I will purely love you,
From forever to infinity.

Things happen,
Unexpectedly.
It will hit you like a storm,
On the raging sea.
Getting sick,
From the bumpy ride.
More and more waves,
Move you side to side.
But you have to realize,
You need to go with the flow,
Swim against the current,
And your pace will slow.
Always move foward,
But admire the past.
It happened for a reason,
So a new net you will cast.
There are always more fish,
In the deep blue sea.
Don't get hung up on one,
When tomorrow you can catch three.
So what ever the future,
Holds for me.
Now I will be floating along,
Without a care in the sea.

It's a crazy concept.
That the feeling is mutual.
Constantly saying "no",
So hearing "yes" is unusual.
All that time,
Ive been denying,
All that time,
I could of stopped crying.
But it was tough,
Being the one unwanted,
For so long being put down,
And today im still haunted.
All those years,
Feeling useless,
No one looking at me,
A continuous mess.
I have to understand,
That i have changed.
Your not that girl anymore,
So dont feel ashamed.
I am here now,
And so is he.
Now help the sad little girl,
Because that girl was me.

Have you ever felt pain,
Of a serious sort?
You just sit there,
And think,
About how it all fell short.
You said you'd be there,
Through thick,
And thin.
But why would you do this?
You think id still let you in?
From the nasty things,
That you have shared.
From ruining my chances,
And you loving to compare.
But you underestimated me,
And in the end of it all,
You watched with pleasure,
As i continued to fall.
But i got up,
When someone else caught me.
You did what you do best,
And took all there glory.
And its not my fault,
It worked to my advantage,
That i have attention,
That im no longer damaged.
Then you looked my savior,
Dead in the eyes,
I looked too,
And was pleasently supprised.
Because your game,
Is minipulation,
And you will always be,
In some complecation.
You wanna fight me,
And lie too.
And when i cry,
Its for you.
Because seeing me happy,
Seeing me complete,
Makes you upset,
Makes you weak.
So you keep fighting,
But i will stand my ground.
Because someone once said,
"You will never be crowned,
If you always back down."

Do you know what its like
To be heart broken?
When your ripped apart.
Or torn open?
Hopeless
With hope
Is what i have.
Not know the outcome,
Is why im sad.
I feel so stupid,
My work went to waste,
Overlooking my side,
Without having a taste.
Do you know what its like
To be over looked?
I have the missing peice,
That she almost took.
Today im upset.
Tomorrow ill be better.
But right now i have chills,
That cant be solved with a sweater.
A tear falls down,
But i wipe it away.
Im stonger than that,
But my heart is decayed.
Im nervous,
Ancious,
Scared,
Upset.
Do you know how i feel,
Do you have any regret?
I will push a little harder,
Untill im nothing,
Because -
I dont know.
I just dont know