I didn't make
Plans for a future
Simply because there
Wasn't one here

They told me,

"leave
until you miss
being home,

go home
until you miss
being gone."

I listened.

I never
Got to know you
So
You're not who
I thought you were.

He says to leave you
He says to leave you
You once said to leave him
I left him
Do I leave you?

The moon
Fills the glass bowl
That is the sky
Empties my mind
I wonder where you are
If you were made for cities
Did you grow restless in high school too?
Were people like us made for planes?
The ceiling is lit
Do pillows miss us when we aren't there for them to hold us?
Did teachers dream of being teachers?
The world has weight but never falls
I went to tell you I love you
But instead I typed "I don't know "
And life is full of uncertain
And do I want to know?

there were scriptures inside your hands
turning pages into history
I was the last thought
hoping to linger in your vision

shrouded in silence
vacant windows in daily rush
where empty train seats
wait for your arrival

there are words I can’t speak
learning the language of you
nameless as you may be
I’m stung by your potential

this searching for focus
as time suffocates my expectations
for I want to know you
past the limits of passing by

I want these walls to become weightless
this anxiety to lose meaning
for this fantasy existing inside me
to show it can come to life
to finally take its first breath