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  Nov 2024 Kai
Liana
It means almost nothing to me when it is said someone loves my curly hair
It means almost nothing to me when people say they love my green eyes or anything else


The best compliment I have ever received is
"Liana, you're so weird, but in the very best way!"
What I had no decision in vs what I do
Kai Nov 2024
Touch is such a luxury to have
Touch is a sign of love
Something I'd love to have
Something I'm greedy of
Something I'd like to do
Is to be touched by you
I'd feel so warm
While being inside my dorm
Being within your arms
Waking up to no alarms
It would be so relaxing
I don't even need to be acting
To show you how comforting
It would be

Me and you
In my room
Stuck with you in my room
Putting all your affection onto me
We can't see
Since we're in the dark
Being protected from all the monsters of the dark
The only light
Is the moonlight
And the fire in-between us
In between the things we discuss
While in my bed
Listing things from my head
Hoping that you're listening
To the topics I've been listing

Your voice makes me fall asleep
Your everything sends my heart into a constant leap
You send me into a chokehold to learn everything about you
I just don't know what to do
Whenever I'm not with you
Your touch sends me into a fever
I'm always eager
To see you
Just so I can get into your arms
Just for your touch
  Nov 2024 Kai
Liana
I am so mad
And I know anger is other emotions wearing a mask
So here are they:
Sad
Hopeless
Depressed
Frustrated
Scared
And more that don't even have words
Mostly them
  Nov 2024 Kai
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everyday i wake up and i’m reminded -
people will never be there like they said they would,
you can’t make someone understand;
you can’t make anyone care.

it doesn’t matter what you’re facing,
it doesn’t matter how many times you warn people.
as soon as you need more than you can give,
everyone’s opinions change.
if it’s not about them -
no one's listening.

it doesn’t matter -
if you paint your fears on the walls.
it doesn't matter -
if you claw for support on chalkboards.

you could say you had a plan,
unleash all the demons.
you could try to beg,
you could try to plead,
doesn't matter.

it'll never matter.
you'll never matter.

you can’t make someone understand;
you can’t make anyone care.
you shouldn't have to.
i don't want to.

Kai Nov 2024
I'm the mature one
I'm the respectful one
I'm the nice one
I'm the mistreated one
I'm the useless one
I'm the younger one
I'm the smarter one

She's the older one
She's the immature one
She's the carefree one
She's the disrespectful one
She's the mean one
She's the better one
She's the one that misbehaves
She's the one that everyone loves

She's the favorite

Everyone babies her
Everyone cares about her
While everyone glares at me
While everyone tells me
What to do
Just because she's blood related to you
I'm not blood related to you
But I'm still family
But you don't treat me like family
You treat me like I'm her very distant friend
Even though I'm not her friend
No-

I'm her step-sister

She was the one to talk about the *** talk when I was six
It was sick
She started hitting me
Abusing me
She has the strength of a grown man that came out of the military
It isn't temporary
She started hitting me in the head
When I was sitting on my bed
This is when I was eight
And I ate
Well
But too skinny for my health
She gave me hickeys when I was at her grandparents house and on the bed
After a while, she started to choke me
She was treating me
Like her stress toy
She made me her puppet
That she could control, then get out of the allegations of everything she has done to me
She kept manipulating me
Hurting me in the process

She choked me about 5 times throughout my whole life
I wished I would have control of my life
They never seen the things she had done to me
I wish they could see
What happened
But they could never imagine
Their child doing stuff like this
She was never punished
I wish she were punished
But all my ideas and allegations has been dimished
They act like I'm just a liar
Like I'm supposed to be on fire
While they think SHE'S trustworthy
When she's unworthy
They act like she's their God
While I'm just an odd
Commoner
That just wants to do whatever I want to her

She has gotten better
More better
Than before
But I got to wait longer before
I can actually trust her again
Then
I can be caution free around her
My step-sibling's side of the family decides to pick her after what she has done to me. She's done a lot and I haven't recovered since. (I did this poem quickly so expect mistakes)
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