Death of a brother can burn the coldest of hearts.
Love from a friend can cause it to heal

I am only useful when used
Thrown away when useless

There are emotions that I can't describe
Words flowing in my head through the days of my life
Everyday I see you I feel at ease
Your smile, your humor, your future I see
Even though I should not wait
I can't help it because 2 I can't partake
Patience is a virtue
so is your heart
I will wait for you to heal
Because I will never shatter your heart
We may bump heads, but no doubt about it
I know I love you
the one who saved my heart

Struggling to keep my eyes open,
Trying to see when my world is filled with void and darkness,
Running until I find the light,
The light I seek is hidden not knowing that all alone the light is inside me.

Can you see me or am I someone who will remain in the shadows.

Pain is something you can't escape
Life is something you can create
Death is beyond what we can understand
Yet so many want it, to nullify the pain
We want to live, yet so many die
Because love is what we desire beyond our very own eyes.
If we cant live beyond present time
The past will swallow us, pain and all
We cry at night and smile during the day
Creating a false hope that can't go away
Why should we live and why should we die
Why should we deal with things beyond our control
We want to live, we want to die
All because we have that pain deep inside
Pain is something we have to accept
Life is something we must celebrate
Death shouldn't be what we want
Depression and anxiety shouldn't control as we have so many things we can appreciate.

My heart is like the sea
Spreading love to those around me
On the surface it has not one flow
But within its flow is waiting for one to calm the storm.  The love I want,  the love I need,  the love I want someone else to give to me.