In a room where the lights are turned off...a city away and I'm still reminded of the place the right I did the wrong I commit the love I shared the hate that I abolished tormenting fragments of sadness is here but somehow lol low gladness laying here as baggage across the threaded african American.
Holding my pillow like it was you with a "sorry for my clinginess note"..but seeing you do with another is like a show that I use to be apart of. I'm done with the hype
I'm donw with the hurt
I'm done wig when I see you we act like we're not hurtin...
The times I wanted to make it right
But if I reach out it's like I'm the one that's walking backwards

Color is a crime
Math is too
Still we teach what we create
Entrepreneurs are keeping quite like subtitles,
Poor life bought a shiny bezel couldn't find his soul so he banged a couple picking wings from angels Italy might be heavens payroll to him it's Benjamin and Aholes bank rolls flight comes he's gone mentally mind froze . Who am I to a billionaires mind though?
Oh sorry my mind froze I was writing something thinking bout all those who would like this luxury. Multiplying and dividing Benjamin's I might just create a symphony and sale it to the melodies below me so they can get a look at the sky I see...

phone rings**

Oh hey ...

Picture you on a beach where the breeze is tangle and the sun is smooth get Lost in these words we traced don't worry I will patiently wait for you here like a frame hanging on a wall we have taken to another place.

Come on everybody sit down
People wanna act like they are in the know. Well I'm here to wipe off your smile and tell you what's the word around town
I know you don't wanna hear the truth
I know you hate the fact that I actually have the proof.. But I just need you to believe I'm talking ...the Good, the bad, the Ugly.

I've been gone but some how I'm still here
More something's that's worst then last year
Getting older and I got things to pay
Like that ticket for speeding ...sorry I got caught up in my ways racing feeling drunk and I lost a friend and somehow gain a date that don't even know what we are wait.. Is it me or you that's not thinking straight ? Being in Love is great says the guy that's alone and need that person to capture him from the pain, around town is a lot of secrets that I'm willing to change sweep up and burn away if only I can have you as my friend today.

Come on everybody sit down
People wanna act like they are in the know.

Crumbs are good when you don't have nothing, what's wrong with wanting the whole Loaf though? Not being greedy I'm just hungry for something to be honest I just wanna see if I can have it on the table though. Last year was last year can you tell me what you ate? Better yet what was your Actions last week..? Yesterday walks around lookin for a new day, being about your buisiness and seeing what it make is greater then wish you can do something great.

I'm in time of my life where it's not cool to be broke not because your own gain but the people you wanna help things falling around and you just wanna show them your there to help misunderstandings well at least you're standing if we're rooting the problems out of misses.
I'm In a stage of my life where I want see Good outcomes when I give my all have enough time to grasp it all under pressure bout nothing at all face the trails and getting them done tapping my feet cause I'm singing a new song adventuring out while the people that didn't believe and did sings along ...you can count on him because he's been making a difference in the city he's from.
Only twenty-two   so high up but down to earth when you speak to him
Mind_blowing to be around positivety away ye leaks of

Oops I have fell to deep
Oops I have fell to deep in it
My love has become trapped in it
Oops my friend I can't tell you how sorry I am
My love has become bread crumbs
Oops my life is fighting to stay alive
I don't know where this strength comes from
Oops I am praying to deep
Oops I have open my eyes in it
Oops I'm soo tired  of falling in this
Oops I have faith I can make it out
Everyone falls!
I'm falling but everyone falls
Will I stay here with the bread crumbs or will I ...
Oops I have faith now

My love haven't ate but my stomach is full,
My soul wants it now but my spirit is Gold
I feel so away from where I was
Who am I who have I become
I wanted help I wanted to be bold
But this life desires someone to be there and I haven't found not one and it's getting cold
Where ever you are I just wanna go on a date
I love fishing and  grab a few steaks
I want my breath out by a kiss on my face
Crashing in your arms and telling about my day
I use to want her .. now I just want someone who will love me for ....me..

Haven't been here in awhile..wow.
Once again on the Edge of my mind
And let's be honest I'm faking a smile.
I'm usually the one where I look at the ones feeling down and say "Hey we all make mistakes".
But what if it's big like kissing his lips
And throwing up in a ditch, loving the ride not liking the trip I'm falling but wind feels good everybody's there but no ones picking you up.
The kind of mistake where he don't wanna talk about it,  I rather not say a word I like when you was straight but you want me to come out gay there was a lot of grabbing that night and I can't say it's me only sweeping it under the rug is hard when your rug is Holy...
It's got holes
You can't fake it forever
Pick a side
Well...
Haven't been here in awhile...

Wow..

To be intimate is like a joint
To be real with yourself is the smoke
I'm reliving the day where I drunk so much my lust spoke
And my hand shake
And my heart choked
No tears ran but I'm so low
So low to the point let's just not talk about what happen cause what happen you don't wanna know I just wanna leave but I don't wanna go cause I don't want to keep you like this where who i was is the same picture you think of when I left you like that I pray that you will give me another chance

I use to come home close the door to my room and ******* just to convince my mind I wasn't alone.
Yet I was so alone
I use to sing to the walls and they use to echo after me it was the closest thing to me they convince me I wasn't alone.
Yet when I stopped talking I was so alone.
Promises broke and I drunk to many
My friend commited suicide and I'm so empty confessions I'm so ***** my nails are ***** my past is with me and I'm really done with myself completely stuck in a war of am I straight or gay
Yes I did it and I can't point the blame
Coming home to silence I use to be in Love with this Madness. I'm finding out this madness is me

There I go again yeah I blew it everything I don't wanna do I keep doing steadily feeling stupid instead of making excuses I just need to face the music I need ya..
I lean on my own strength but it's useless cause healing only comes by those strips and thoughs bruises
I chunk dueces but sometimes I turn right back to it
Why do I abuse all the grace that you given me it's like I can't win man I still got sin in me ...
We're not same man I really thank him that we're not the same

Guilty as pleasure cause pleasure is Fined with a lot more then guilt it's faithful to crime aim just to **** and walks up like wine don't let it spill it won't get out your lies wash them with filth and the nasty thing about this it's  all in your mind

Blue covers pulled over my face.
Just so I can think more as a tiny cloud in my room starts to rain
Upon the liquor upon the shame
Upon the pen the only way to escape.
Why does everything have to be sad story oh that's right your alone and you can't figure out what's wrong with me..
You?
No me.
Wait me?
Nooo you..
Wait you are me
I know but I was talking in third person.
Sooo your talking to yourself?
Yes "we're " to our self
Wait who self I thought you was talking to me?
Sigh can I just finish the poem??!
Oh my bad yeah..geez the fustration hey have notice there's a cloud in here? Uhh that's weird.
Yeah I told you that!

I beg the differ I can't tell a lie if that was only true then I'll stay with you tonight. Eye for an eye is clever of words bunch politics is still Men on earth listen close to who you believe like shapes they all fit a puzzle in me. We the People was a good trick I can say making me believe that I have the right to speak when you didn't make my mouth or my hands today...peaceful pieces are broken on the floor and you tell me you're ready to show me how to breath. I'm naive to your plan but I don't think you have one because that's just a number and you're always mindful about someone
How far was the fall? How far am I coming? Before you tell me or **** me to say "he Knows something".

So deep that it didn't even really hit me
I know my heart is the most deceiving
My snarls jesters I never knew it wasn't a smile my culture and what I entertained for a while now
Like blood pumping threw this crowd
PPP on shafts covered in mouths
I'm good at taking a problem but who am I when I can't solve them
***** on skin thoughts electric ***** flows calm down it's metaphorical inception.

Leaps of space is a black hole..
Not really I just said that to sound poetic
Maybe I'm drawing wrong or seeing my picture in a dim light.
All these words I was gunna trash before I know this black hole is as big as.... I don't know .. I don't know my friend

smiles and walks off

Have a Good day mate..

My soul at ease
My actions despised
My mind is on me
Crying like I wish I was fine
What did I do to you
What did I say to make you think
What really happen to make you go
What happen to make you leave?
If it was a girl then my bad
If it was a girl then okay I'm fine
If it was a girl then wow cool story
If it was a girl why the fudge are you acting funny!!!
I hate how that happens
I hate how this feels
I hate that when you see me it's like you never known me for years

I can say that I did but I can't say that I didn't
Mix drink with alcohol I forgot why your listening
I ramble about the old I talk about the new I am a emotional wreck who are you?
Everything in my head becomes a drop of what I'm drinking
You didn't even save me and you saw that I was sinking
Just trying to get information and now that's 3 people in my life that has walked out for no apparent reasoning
Up on stage for no apparent reasoning
Unless there's something I suppose to say like:

"I can say I did but I can't say I didn't "

Laying on my bed ain't real rest.
I think about the night darkness can you hold my hand?
Feeling like I'm august I'm the only one to fall
Picking out myself again like black panthers do there Afros
Twisted, tangled and pulling all these thoughts again oh no
Can't keep running Forrest you just got to let it go.

Thicker it grows
Heavily the fangs show
The moon comes and it bounces off his inward glow
So much to the fact that most will know
I can't hide forever
But if I tell then my tale will be given to the heartless Endevors
I can't hide forever
But if I just tell will my tale fall off and will I be free forever?
I can't hide this... forever.
Forever has hidden who I am under this image I'm tellin.
I try to speak but my howls are comin
Is it too late..
Is it too

**howls then runs off

There after me!
It calls at night
What's after me?
I'm scared of light
Cause I done this in the dark
Some how when I'm living can you help me threw what I fight..
What I started
What I might
Bad habits coming to the light
My habits walking threw the night
I love my life but I can't stand my rights
I wanna go home I wanna go back
Back to where our mind was in the Garden before we sat and ate of what good and evil pre- lapse.
I have nothing to gain
I have nothing left
If I was born without hands ..amen I'll will praise you on my knees.
But I lift up my hands and say..
He's after me myself save me from my help all I need is you and what you are to me you're  holy in all your ways what am I in your place ? No Kanye I'm not a God I need one not just anyone you the Holy one I believe..
I believe!
I'm just tired of me

I don't know what to do anymore
But I'm ready to start in the anymore
And on my nothing's my short comings...losing the fight cause I'm gaining the truth.

Over crowded but so alone
My demons met me at the cornerstone
And Jesus Died on the cross bone
So death is easy but you go first..
Faith lives when your walking on it's single verse
I'm excluded and including my angel even my angel dust
Cause my addiction trying to prey on me
See it lies and it tells me that I will set you free,
When it's really just drowning me
Lake of fire never felt  so good
But it burns when I think about your love.
Luciferians Christians and paganism
I'm fighting religions nemesis is really just men trying to govern this
This world man I need a real analysis
But let me shut up and get back to the basics..

"Thy kingdom come thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven".

"If this cup can pass from but not my will your will be done."

I'm missing every part of you
It's a week just a week ago!
I should've went I should've just let go my schedules
And grabbed your heart some more
I went to your open casket and I couldn't even walk up there just to say and tell you "I still Love you".
I always will mario
Forgive us for who we pretend to be
For we forgot to go
For where we went
I came just to say I know this
I still love you my friend
You know what I didn't
I'm here where I shouldn't
Back at the place where we loved the most.
I'll stay 4 u
I'll wait for you
Can't lie I miss you
But I will always love you

Take me high
Take me higher
Yes I know
The higher you go
The people worship you
And God is brighter
You talk to him who is not
And you see what you are
Higher then who I been
Higher then where I've been
High that I can't feel it
The agony of not having this
Just to let them know **** couldn't do this and *** is in another position
Birds can't breath up here
As I think about my life
I wanna go higher then who I been.

I must be blind to the T I forgot to dot my eye,
If that  mirror was Me I'm only a reflection of the sky.
These clouds rain these clouds hold Life
Why can't I see why can't I fly?
We really did fall further then our skies
Hells boundaries has taken Most skies
I've stopped looking up to the stars at night cause most are angels that lie
So I bow my knee and Pray head down that's one way of reaching God staying with him I have given  my life

Songs Fade and People Die
Heavens great and He'll is Hot
If I think upon a world where there is no Christ
Then were all doom like Dwayne Johnson "the rock".
If I make my bed in hell you are there
I heard your servant say that I'm convince that he's Right
I have been careless in a wicked and Evil thought
I can't judge when I know I'm a prob
I crash under your alter tonight
My hands are like Sand man I haven't heard from you all night
My Prayer is for me to be ready for your coming
Be a better Light then my own short comings
I'm brainwashed or living either way he's coming
I have broke my mind threw this hello poetry
And I'm finding out I don't even want to know me
God ...
My God..
I want to spend my life with you
Cause I know you real and you been threw it all
You see all
You know all
After this life I'm thankful for your salvation
Help me to help them
Sing to me to song to them
Speak threw me to understand
Yes Lord amen

In a world of entrepreneurs all you want is to fix my heart

Can I paint the sky for you even though I'm not God?
Which one you will trust if it was just us?
Tell me what's better in color..
The coat or the sweater?
Question my pleasure but don't don't question my love
This world is full of heartless Endevors
If I was one of them can you save him?

Petals in the Frame
Sin as red as scarlet
Moving different places but I can't seem to function.
It's written on my face but some how they can't read it.
Driving threw my city just to say "I'm leaving".

I know I've been far from home
I keep my circle small but all these squares don't ever bother you..
Tell me what's the petals for..?
What's the Roses for..?
Because my sin is red but my love is for The most high..

So I've made it home

I fell in love with a Dragon last night
And she was sweet,
My mind can't think in this state
So I dream.
I tried to hide the lies now I can't sleep..
Don't waist your time I just want what I can't be.

I'm Dry
no answer
my mind is haunted by the weather
whether i stay or go I'm Under Pressure
Should i just do what all my Brothers Do?
Go and get women and treat her like shes nothing?
My heart is to big to play on four play measures..
So I sit and watch Shirtless Men make impressions
Just a bunch of heartless endevors but who am i?
so you really wanna know...

I hope that i can turn back the time where i can see your face
the only Girl that never had a chance cause I'm oblivious to my ways
I don't know whats wrong,
My heart is like the Sun's rays Giving off light but when the clouds come i hide my Love but i need somebody in the frame watching my brothers grow up is I'll See and like the Sea I'm need of a drift someone that can keep my head up..
"Can We ...we keep keep each other company? oh company.
a Justin bieber song feel heavy in this nice weather
what if i sell my soul then i won't have a leg to stand on I'll be having millions to walk on i believe thats why I'm still alone.
So peaceful yet So alone
So Me yet I don't know
So simple yet complicated all  I want is for someone to walk with in the mall
how many men do you know work for them self?
On a Island but i rather be Home
A Liger with all my desires but my heart is like the Pacific
Watch how i smile at the Birds I wonder sometimes if that was you sending me Messages where ever you are I captured your birds just to see if would visit.

Some how some way I can control the sea but I'll die before I count the sand
What am I is who I am is better then what they want me to be.
I can speak to the mountain and it will run in the sea..
So why am I still fighting over me?
Hell seems like it wants me but heaven went to go die for me just to see!
Indesicive will literally be a knife
And Love will be the death of me
In a strange land away from home
Locations around me are fading before they do without a trace I'll be gone back to my first Love you see I can control the ways of my life but counting my Sins I have already commited my trail is set in the heavens I bow my knees today to toss my mountain my life my gold my silver my things to stay ...

Ohh nooo!!
If they don't wanna stay they can goo!!
It seems love don't live here anymore
I find my self walking alone
Singing "I love you".


For me
For you
Pray about the same ol' soul
Til my knees are bleeding cold
I do
Love you
..it's true.

Lyre
calls me
I thought you was gunna show!
But I waited just to long.
Is it cool
If I just don't move..?
My love I tried like..


Ohh nooo!!
If they don't wanna stay they can goo!!
It seems love don't live here anymore
I find my self walking alone
Singing "I love you"

His thoughts were scattered
His walks were like thunder
Blood boiling like a tea kettle
Eyes pierced like fire
Like the Sea before lava
The one he Loves has transpired
Heart dropped in his musles
He's tired of people looking over
Ashes of rain as he thinks about his friendships
He's broken and he just now noticed..

Funny if I  leave today I wonder if you will let me go!
I wanna stay and hold you like we use to but it's hard you know,
Cause once upon a time you was my everything
Far away from home I'm thinking should I stay..?
You left me now I question what did I do so wrong"!

If there's a way God if there's a way
If there a place God where me and him can talk fr can you take my soul ?

This is killing me
Suffocating

Life is great
Life is mean
Life will take you by the hand show you what it really wants to say..
Are you listening?

In the 10th grade double headed dragon lies pouring more my faith was absent I tried to stop the noise but it was hit a well known platinum Bobby's house we are icecream and passion the lips of a spokesman and the tongue of a assassin. Wrapped around the time he said he liked  my fashion I feel like his mom even knew I was living life backwards, I couldn't help it they popped up like spasms hurting my life didn't know it until now he follows me on Facebook but barley even talk.
When ask for a helping hand I could barely even talk shot by his tongue I wasn't even shocked how we lead the conversation and investigated each other like someone I white chalk  he Dosent take it out instead his throat feels up with lumps ...swallows my intention! He swallowed my "thoughts" ! Mom is gunna **** me but I've came to do a lot.
Next night comes  and my horns are big as f* victor calls my name now I have the power to call thunder from my eyes and make him struck bigger then usual I fell in lust he wanted as much as i did there was no one to help me up. Volcano of skin he was so hot to the touch this was the second time my thoughts were kicked out like a punt sad thing about this I ate the double headed dragon for lunch

Back in 8th grade I looked over Cory while peeing as a joke I took in consideration a thing worth dreaming it inks me like a tatoo and swims threw my being kissed by lust now I see why my skin crawls when he winks at me. So close to the edge I forgot my desire my flesh taking over drops of ***** I've notice that this has stolen my focus pushed down but not broken he walks beside me speaking eyes glowing my hand in my pocket my errection is showing I don't know this guy I've become like the sun in the morning cool breeze with a chill as he step backs heart jumping he mentions me planted seeds just start growing I can't fake it I'm showing in his shorts the smells pointing "look his mouth is jawing"! This was the last day he undressed as he looked at me oh crap! Now I'm drowning as he says "do you like what you see"? ...the first day of fighting my inner being

Was rolling deep I can't keep them from running away or leaving me
Man forreal this is a shame I'm ashamed..

Couldn't sleep the walls love to talk to me why didn't I keep her well I couldn't feel anything man for real this is a shame I'm ashamed..

Use to be safe on who I was what I am is better then who I use to be follow me you follow him end of story man for real I was shame that was his Name..

Everything that's nothing sleeps with me the mirror reminds me humanity
God is the only thing that let's me breath and I cherish him out of the nothing I am for everything he is..man for real
..cause I was shame
...

With the 4 locus you was looking for a Friend
With the ***** you was looking for a Man
With the Ciroc crap you are my Brother Man!
And now I had a Dream the scares everything I have in me dame!
I kinda messed up with your heart
I kinda messed up from the start
I kinda loved you in your dirt
And planted a seed that takes time to start.
Wishing you will never leave
Loving how the way you breath
Your laugh is a lot to me
I just pray and say Yes God I messed up, "God please don't take him away from me.."

Not for long
Not for short
I hope he wakes up
Before I take off
This house is amazing
These memories im chasing
I will never do this  again
Only Just because I want you to know
I'm staying

Have your heart ever melted in your hands?
Or just sat down in your stomach?
Why ...what happen..?
My friend I'm Sad
One of my best friends has moved and all I see is black
I closed my eyes and my new just asked what's wrong ...and I said my true feelings and responded back

"Night"

What's this
What's that
Leave me on read
That's Sad...
When you need to go forward cause who use to hold you back,
But your forward is nothing like the last
Guess I'm walking alone
Have your heart ever layed there with you?
And breathing was the only thing that kept y'all going

Inner Battles fighting for the new me
I couldn't handle being the old me
Cause change is good when it's for better things so..
Was I wrong not too come and see you old friend?

Rewrite feels like we fight blue skies low mic I sing congrats to the new lead singer !

Me?...me?! Who can I lead who will even follow on stage buzzed from a hangover listening to me is like listening to fallen emperor applause to the New freaking Singer!

Play your part
Just play your part
Never stage freight
Just Cover up the thoughts with a smile and a off stare look..

Smiles are glass
And the heart is sand
They push me until I  break..
Time has Stopped once again

Breath out breath in

In the Eye of the hurricane
I'm calm in it's thunder
I have gave myself a float
So there my body lays in the river
Purifying my deepest thoughts
Cleaning my being
Washing away the times I tried to stay
What I'm trying to say..
I'm Leaving

**Breath in breath out

Touch from  the angels
Gripped by God
Devil always talking
"You'll never have Enough".
Demons they spit
The angels silent tonight
God whispers and say
"Trust in me threw the Fight".
I ******* own blood
It flows from the bite
Death just looks like
" I'll be back alright?"
Fainting...
One blink gone
Breath in...
I can see my bones.
Get up!
I find the strength to roll.
My heart sings a sweet Hyme for my soul..!

From glory to glory they will go...

**Chuckles

Roses are Red so is my Blood
Blue as the ocean I'm so deep in Love
My arms stretched but my feet are dumb .
Because my mind is flying but my feet seem numb
So I jump with excitement I jump like a fool ...
I'm fighting my own life to give it up for you
To see you
To hear you
To be with you forever has will and becoming my desire to Live with you
Seems like this body is the only thing that's keeping me away from you.

Have you ever seen the fall before somebody fell
Or knew the answer before somebody told the Question?
My heart is hurting before they know the pain,
And what you do you smile because there smiling and swallow the truth...
Above all you love them not because you know what's coming soon but after to be there when they say "I never needed you"!

Trying to hide the things in my mind
So quiet but I'm screaming inside.