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Mar 2016 · 245
Untitled
Mr Xelle Mar 2016
My mind is trying to convince me not to go
Think how much people that's not gunna come
What about  the door of integrity that lingers on some
Or the process of being One.
My skin is boiling what have I become?
Lesson learned don't give up on something that you need
Lesson learned don't give up on me
Mar 2016 · 309
Rocking the Boat
Mr Xelle Mar 2016
How I hate it I want to erase it
I'm messing with fire how can i play with it?
I'm so dead wrong I'm not living right
How can I be so close and yet so Far then the fight?
Somebody come somebody help me fight! Before something goes on and I become numb to this pain
To your grace
To my lane I haven't figured out I'm haunted!
By my own skeletons in this place see i thought I'll be well pass this lane I need to wake up before I end up on his bed catching Z's in this Wave
Mar 2016 · 302
I'm not the only one
Mr Xelle Mar 2016
Can I be honest
Can I speak the truth
Talking to wonderful
Like life ain't been wonderful
What I thought and what I had is becoming uncomfortable.
Have you  ever tried to get what you can't get?
Or when you think you was doing it right feels like Ive flipped..
Doing what I need to do without no money how am I surviving?
Wonderful just Wonderful
All Praises goes to Him
Mar 2016 · 217
Show or tell
Mr Xelle Mar 2016
Times are cold but I'm sick of old waves saying there new people with known names tell me there truth and selling my stuff for there clues just to find out they died to soon and the only thing that stands is a mic and a song 45 years go by if your not Elvis or Micheal we don't know you..
What to soon? Is 50 years old good for you ? Looking at and looking up to a Idol is two different mindsets luckily I got them both raging like sea on sand counterfeits people push people to the limits just to say "I got more power then you!" Then Die like the great beast in forest ....get ready folks I bet they have another show there bout perform in it..
Mar 2016 · 236
Down Here
Mr Xelle Mar 2016
Lips stuck
Eyes struck
That's what I'm used to
In Love
With no one
Ghost of you still linger but..
I'm done with
Lip service
You know my heart behind close curtains!
Not working!
In service!
YOU KNOW MY HEART BEHIND CLOSE CURTAINS!
He's not working but he's working for Loooooove!!

So I don't just wanna hear it!
I wanna feel it to!
It's much more then trying!
It's more like I'm dying to Know you.
Mar 2016 · 470
Paradoxx
Mr Xelle Mar 2016
I can't feel my faith
I can't tell what's fake
The sky or me above?
The lows look like there tape.
My mind talks all day
Losing all control
There I feel so safe
Words touch deep there ****
Words so deep there ****
I can't breath I'm *****
Tried and tried but I can't wait
Slowly thoughts penitrate
Slowly drifting away
Slowly drifting away...
Mar 2016 · 286
H.I.M.
Mr Xelle Mar 2016
Oh For Goodness Sake !
He wants your body taped and placed in magazines..
He likes your wink and wants your hands all in his Jeans...
He watched you **** you can't say sh* cause you know it will be a scene..!

I'm not going to let him do it !
I won't let him do it!
I can lock him up in a dungeon
I can chain him with himself
But don't  worry I'll **** him With
"I love you, I'm not the same person he wanted me to be to you.
Love can conquer all
Mar 2016 · 251
I Drun. K
Mr Xelle Mar 2016
Tethk me how I feel I feel great
Help me I can't see straigt
Mar 2016 · 372
Sicko
Mr Xelle Mar 2016
Ima beast I'm the devil I'm in chaos every night cause I know who he really is..
My diary knows who he really is even that didn't want to come and spend a night for I am intoxicating ....drip...drip..

Sicko run threw my veins
Sicko run threw his home
Please ignore the possibility of walking alone.
Alter egos or ****** life
It wants me to be someone today and another at night.
But I swear and pray and those hold me tight.
Sicko, sicko
Get lost tonight
Mar 2016 · 221
Untitled
Mr Xelle Mar 2016
Do you know how much people I owe?
Do you know how much people I dropped?
Paying back my enemies with only Love is still enough..
It's a statement not an answer.
Couldn't answer you about money cause I give and it's gone I'm in danger that my love will be bot one day after the wedding I'm sorry I have given her more then what I My can question.
Under God in God is more then what I can fathom.
More nothing lesser power something greater I've become a greeting card to my oppressor and a gift to my brother.
But I'm noticing I'm sitting on a shelf as "oh I'll unwrap it later for it was just a gift from a Lover"...

Will it be too late unwrap it one day?
Mar 2016 · 247
Who am I to you
Mr Xelle Mar 2016
If your hands were a shelter and your lips was the sea,
I'm just tryna rhyme so you won't see my feelings..
If my hands was a safe place if my heart was a warm peaceful drink,
Would you stay and just Drink with Me?
You hide behind jokes you hide behind the weeks.
Is it bad to say when you crash I would like to see?
Or When you collapse fall on me ..?
Please..?
That day you will know you can Trust me.
Till then who do you want me to be?
Mar 2016 · 291
Ashes...ashes
Mr Xelle Mar 2016
Body shaking eyes focus
Blood pumping I don't think he knows it
Open legs my mind hasn't even notice.
He smiles how am I not frozen?
Looking  upon his lips Breaks my focus
The back of my head saves me with "don't even if he wants it".
A Careless "why"?  circles my circumference..
What's Guarding my hands from touching his conscience?!
A sweet Promise to never touch a shaft again.
Yes there I said it!
Years of being enslaved by a shattered heart.
Alone at night tossing and turning on old parts.
There I was **** by own thoughts...
Mar 2016 · 396
Saddest Story Ever..
Mr Xelle Mar 2016
You was never mine so nevermind never have I thought about somebody so much to the point where I can't believe I'm spending another night.

You see what I see and now I can't breath I'm suffocating in another flipping persons life..
Is this how my life is suppose to go tonight?

To feel like your in a relationship without the hugs and Kisses or like the one that always have to end the fight.

Welcome to the Saddest Story where you can't even Get mad cause Your the love you have is not from this world just roll over and say Goodnight cause in the morning you know there gunna need you right?

Yeah...okay Well goodnight
Mar 2016 · 204
Long story short
Mr Xelle Mar 2016
My head softly digs in my pillow
Rays of light dancing from my window.
To think is optional
To pray... I close my eyes and dream of your wonderful face..
Mar 2016 · 361
Entertaining Angels
Mr Xelle Mar 2016
Bragging rights are like the ocean with waves get notations from the sand like "your gunna end right here tonight".

I Heard about Buddha I listen to the ways of Allah but who is Yeezus?

Down right wrong there coming as a nasty fragrance that's too strong...
Killing just live by clothes, books or songs.

As they ask me can we all just get along?

You headed beast your the same one that's speaking about women like they don't matter at all?!!

Why would I believe in a lie that cost?
Mar 2016 · 295
Holy
Mr Xelle Mar 2016
Pressing in closer the ones that are farther is getting harder to Save my Father.
Oh I tried and tried if I said I'm right I lied
Suffering from obedience is hard and I don't understand it,
Suffering from obedience is so easy but for some reason I don't want it.
Relentlessly giving embracing Forgiveness like it is Me.
Mar 2016 · 227
Locations
Mr Xelle Mar 2016
My date is soon I'm leaving to bloom or I'm staying with you?
I'm out for grabs but I'm in it for you
Can't tell my past I'm a shame of what some might do.
Let's roll the camera let me see a smile cause if they say no I'll be gone for a while.
Would you come to my show?
Would you walk a mile?
Will they open they're door?
Will you stay for a awhile?

I can't lie I'm down
I can't lie it's to soon
There I said it!
My Friend I'm so Scared to Lose You.
Feb 2016 · 250
Strange Fruit
Mr Xelle Feb 2016
I'm never gunna bother I'm never gunna text you no more..
Man foreal this is strange...this so strange..
Love me oh Love me when I'm weak.
That's my Reign What a place.....all this Shame..
I'm a Shamed...
I'm stronger then what you believe
Please don't take what you can't eat
Feb 2016 · 268
Where are Ü Now
Mr Xelle Feb 2016
It's a new season the leaves fell off the branches...just a minute.
Reflecting of my heart and my soul and my spirit...can't deny it.
I see a ***** sky as the ground became a fragrance...rain on me !
Feel like im dead but I'm breathin..
Where are you now !
Where are you now that I need ya?
I've tried a different pair
Cover up my smile for a reason..oh..
I don't like to lie.
So where are you now that I need ya?
Where are you now that I need you.


Tell me that you love me cause I'm falling for my best friend.. Mm..
Your ex told you the same  as she left for your Woman...now you're Torn.
You know it's just a game when they tell you that "there playin"...that's for sure.
I'll be what you need but I know that you don't want it.. O Lord..
Where are you now that I need you.
Where are you now that I need you
Mr Xelle Feb 2016
Two Stories of Minorities

Growing up in the hood as a mexican
You learn your no good and your pedestrian
Now we have trump running for president
So now "a mexican will *** offend our women" and "they're all drug dealers that dont deserve to be residents"

Growing up in the Suburbs as a african
Martin Luther King speech was ran down like a pedestrian
Trampled over by those skin colors who chose the first black President
And a african will steal anything just keep family in mention, they're all low food stamp having Residents

We are hard workers, we helped build the country
We arent shady lurkers that ship drug loads filled with some tree
We had our grape boycott like the americans at boston with their tea
In reality we're no different from the white man, despite our cultures we are human completely

We are the anchor of alliance defining us would be passion of soul
The beat to another's code, we're not different from the white man, despite past offences
We all walked the trail of tears and picked cotton
Different languages came from the Tower of Babel the immigrants alike we fell from ourselves
Me and my friend hellopoetry created a theme for a poem and it is fitting for this age and moment we felt the need to remember where we stand as a unit  equally
Feb 2016 · 510
Now Hiring
Mr Xelle Feb 2016
I'm a fool I'm sick and weird to everything,
Everything told me to stop being somebody..
Somebody said if you're breathing you can't be a nobody
Nobody just watched as the tears gave birth like ovaries.

Yeah the sad thing about it is I lost a friend and gained a community.
Funny how we never joke and work hard for this" dying man to be".
Too make clear Money is dead and yet we still need it.
I need a job man I need a job
It feels like my heart was mobbed it feels like my past will always haunt.
And the Good thing about it is God is on top...
Sleep why
Eat why
Count the days I have broke off,
Count the months I have tried to get it right.
Feb 2016 · 204
Purple Rain
Mr Xelle Feb 2016
I wear your under wear you cleaved my jacket,
Grow deep things that we can never imagine.
My head is ***** you say your thoughts are to..
Have you ever loved it too fact where you want that person?
We speak about the past and I trace what was broken,
Draw him in rage I can feel it in my stomach
We measure weight we measure love
Even though we lost a lot tonight if your down I gotcha...

How do you  know that I not turn?
How do you know that I won't leave?
Look at my actions like a verb
Like I look at you as a door with a key.
Feb 2016 · 186
Zoning
Mr Xelle Feb 2016
Please please let go
We can't be froze
And some how I can't stop looking at you ...I know.
Buy your self a dream and stop looking at the mirror plz..
Feb 2016 · 262
Evaluate
Mr Xelle Feb 2016
His heart sinks in his stomach
Gasping for air.
Being the bad guy is to easy you know why?
Cause they just don't care..
My friend forgive me for burning walls where my hands rip and tare.
Here is The man that sits upon a Liars Chair!
I was here to help not provoke your thoughts,
In heaven it's counted on earth it's someone else's lunch.
I can't eat right now it feels like your one hand shake from leaving me today.
I'm weird I know
Am I suppose to leave? I'll go..
Are you uncomfortable let me know
In this life I just don't wanna lose you on second thought ...I .....hate me bro
Feb 2016 · 170
White Flag
Mr Xelle Feb 2016
I'm to old
He's too black
He's to white
Your to young
God this
God that
But you know she has your heart in every act.

You can
You will
She prays
Okay!
But you know he listen to you right?

This world is so messed that makes you look messed up when all you was doing is making things right,
Everything can go left in a night crap I hate how you're right crap I hate how I fight then I don't wanna do nothing I'm too busy thinking about my heart is gunna get broken one of these nights if I do or I'm keep it and someone else will lose there's if I won't.

Thanks Mom no Thanks Mom.
Feb 2016 · 414
Tomorrowland
Mr Xelle Feb 2016
Let's blow each other's minds
What's yours is mine I know threw all the wires in time well let's just count this slow let's rewind what's kind well cause I can't count on tomorrow I leave my house for rights some how I try to rewrite my wrongs threw all glasses of wine well let's just sip this slow...
I'm buzz off you tonight what's yours is mine I know you wanna see me again sometime? Well this is your chance to run.
Feb 2016 · 191
What?!!
Mr Xelle Feb 2016
Lions crouch at my pillow
Thinking in the fact that I'm wooded before the morning I'm a ******
Typical to drink the moon tonight
I just need a boat..
Feb 2016 · 246
Back to Earth
Mr Xelle Feb 2016
We was good on the weekend...right?
You said you love me when I hugged you tight..
Still I don't get what's eating you tonight, you're not texting like you texted me
Man I wish I was your thoughts I think of things that just be wondering about me like..
We was good on the weekend...right?
Maybe I should of never said that speech that night,
I kissed you on your cheek and that was the second day we probably hanged out tonight
Back on earth for right now your the only one that's in my world I'm think of...are you alright?
Feb 2016 · 309
"Clue-less"
Mr Xelle Feb 2016
Calm down it's not that serious
Calm down it's not that serious.
Peace I can't I'm delirious,
Peace there making them clueless
Feb 2016 · 590
12 o'clock news..
Mr Xelle Feb 2016
My tongue is a sword and my heart is a shield,
My hands are here but the government has cut my fingers so my freedom is being chopped off.
It's deep I'm still bleeding from I'm a black man ...but to be honest I don't think no one is safe cause.
El Chapo in prison, Martin Luther is dead
Scarface I still watch him and my presidents black.
Do the math before I say it do the math I think you get it.
Marshal law is on the Game Tekken,
But somehow you never see him in the new games they don't present him.

It's getting deeper are they trying to dig up hell?
I'm losing sleepers I'm glad your awake if not in other News ..hi I'm zeal
Feb 2016 · 466
One of Superman's Quotes
Mr Xelle Feb 2016
Drones are UFO
UFO ain't real bro
Stop lying to me you're fake Brodie how come you say what you won't ***
She's hot man just hit One!!
You gay dawg I know huh..
It's okay bro you like butts
They stole the rainbow from Noah's Flood and they hang on it like Pride umm..
You should shut up zeal YOU don't know nothing
You're a Doom & Gloom so please back up..
Why do they hate me when I'm trying save someone?
Feb 2016 · 367
Genetically incorrect
Mr Xelle Feb 2016
These people are weird
They eat raw and they sip blood
The Nephilims from around the flood
These people sleep like wolves
The kids from old the sons of Wood
The Nephilims from around the flood.
Flesh ripped open smelling like a pack dogs,
You wouldn't believe me if you knew what there trying make a "God".
You read like I'm writing something that you can like and just go on.
Please believe the heartless are on top.
We have faith in Noah to free what is left of us.
THE ZOMBIES THERE TALKING ABOUT is the Nephilim generation but...
You won't believe me if I said "Here They Come".
Pray for I will be a David to my Goliath.
If they **** me it's only because I wasn't Quiet.
Feb 2016 · 273
The man I need
Mr Xelle Feb 2016
Waking up everyday knowing how you care.
It's like a  pillow or the ammo that I need to get out of here.
Can I be honest to a God that know what I will say?
I love you and I need you even though my love reaks of who I appear....to be.
I'm 21 and it's killing me that I'm betting on things that's not even a Good sight to see.
Good sides to me is the worst when they come to me and find out I'm not who they thought or cracked up to be...
My head runs like the waves in the sea,
Never terrified cause I scare myself of who I'm going to be.
If I am a King it's only because one lives in me, I'm becoming something that they don't want me to be something all you need, everything that's really killing me ...thank you and I love you sencerely the Man I need me to be.
Feb 2016 · 204
For your suicidal attempts
Mr Xelle Feb 2016
Hiding behind the laughter
My world just shattered
I would give you anything just don't leave this matter.
You didn't want to live I'll make this world worth living.
White flakes of ***** or thick bond agreement.
Whatever you want I'll be here on my knees,
Eat my heart like lunch my love for you I can eat.
We feed upon each other in him we move and have our being.. Is that how you really feel about me? Is this the real deal? Is he really for you? How can I show you I am? How can hold your understanding ? I'm here for you take my hand.
Feb 2016 · 271
What love really means
Mr Xelle Feb 2016
He waits to die as he sits all alone he's man in a cell who regrets what he's done.

He utters a word from the depth of his soul,
"oh Lord forgive me ..I wanna go home.

Then he hears a voice somewhere deep inside and it said

I know you murdered and I know you lied and I have you watched you suffered all of your life..and now that you will listen I .... I tell you that I  
I will love you for you not for what you have done or what you will become I will love you for you
Mr Xelle Feb 2016
What's the point if you ain't gunna point a finger all this yelling that some do to get the point across I would to. Life goes on but I'm still admiring things about you on the first day I wonder if I'm so messed up by the feelings I have for you? Laughter  is proof but is it real though? I just want you to be real when no one esles is letting you I will..just stay close what I wanted has become a soft answer to ...it goes "I will always love you"
Feb 2016 · 183
Mercy
Mr Xelle Feb 2016
I've walked in the presence of a unknown king
Taken my glory to a realm unseen
Food for a prince but he never satisfy me so this earthly wisdom has become scrap oh please!!
Don't tell me what you know if you trust in your jewelry
That's like having dirt in bowl on thanksgiving.
Yes it can produce but who is that feeding?
Like a slave that I haven't for days I crawl out of my ashes and feast upon what's greater then anything that has love me and that's MERCY
Jan 2016 · 270
I'm not trust me I am.
Mr Xelle Jan 2016
I'm not trying to sound depressed.
I'm not trying to sound ******
I'm not trying to sound like a monster.
I'm not trying to sound like I messed up.
..wait....yes I am
Jan 2016 · 195
The higher things in life
Mr Xelle Jan 2016
A glass of milk by his bed it keeps him a float.
All these years I stretched like a rubber band tied to a boat ..
It's about to pop and I'm still trying to pedal my way to a foundation of better heights.
Jan 2016 · 529
The invisible boy
Mr Xelle Jan 2016
It's like nobody needs me anymore I have become the get around guy
You kno the friend that drops you off from place to place.

But what if I disappeared
What If I didn't call back
What if I dispear?

Sounds like a plan
Jan 2016 · 324
Idk
Mr Xelle Jan 2016
Idk
I don't know what to say
I don't know what to say
Please do not leave
Please do not leave me today
Jan 2016 · 243
Man of Dust
Mr Xelle Jan 2016
My dad lost his dad feels like i am loosing him to,
All this fighting and no cash have me distracted on who is who.
I lay in a house with my  best friend
Are you depressed ? Or am I just pressuring you?
Your almost 17 and I'm about to be 22
Man I know age isn't nothing but a number but your ego tells off on you.
So I back up for a couple of weeks or two, waiting but learning I can't keep waiting for you.
I'm sorry for everybody I have let down.
These covers go over my head as I never felt so useless as my thoughts hit the ground.
My heart is the only thing that looks up..
Oh God if you can create something out of these ashes and this man of dust.

Can you always be that someone that thing .."you" that I cannot.
Jan 2016 · 235
Untitled
Mr Xelle Jan 2016
Rekindle what I can't
We're talking but I space
My love has always stayed
But that fight was like I should go my way.
Wanted you to be proud of me
And you wanted me to go to college man that would be great..
Instead I go and get certificates.
Out of all of the stuff I did I've learned if it's not your way it Dosen't count.
But I love you so much I tried to fit in your educated world and don't worry i will find my way.
Everything is a process do you still love me Threw it..??
Jan 2016 · 452
For the Good times
Mr Xelle Jan 2016
What has haunted me has became my friend but now I'm in a time in my life where that friend has left and I moved into another  " ERA".

I see the white hair road around the corner,
But I don't wanna be in the same state I'm in when I reach it.
I wanna be a pharmacist I wanna be a electrical technian whatever happen to college ?
Right there I don't know what to say
Whatever happen to wait?
I can't no more I really wanna be in a good place in my life before I leave this's  place .
Not that anything is wrong with my mom & dad's place but it's my mom & daddy place.
Getting so des pressed I love that I don't really wanna call me lust in.
But I will figure out for Good time sake
Jan 2016 · 346
If I had my way
Mr Xelle Jan 2016
I wanna be the one you call with your momma,
I want you to be mad at me because I didn't come over.
Want you to kiss me when you see him,
And smile with butterflies in your stomach.
Get closer when there's thunder
Hold me when it's raining.
Tell me what happen as you sit up on the counter.
Look down so I can put my hand on your chin and watch you fall in love with me over and over.
Lay on me and count my fingers,
You know me so well you kiss my cheek with no problem.

See..
We don't have to act like you don't wanna,
I play in your hair as I make your mind wonder
Text me and call me with morning text and "what are you doing".

..I've just been thinking of things I would do if I had you as my lover."
Jan 2016 · 230
That guy
Mr Xelle Jan 2016
Listen he can Love you all night but you will never see him in the morning.
I'm not going there for your tears..
Why can't you see your not his..?
Wishing on him for years
Have he even met your piers?
All you can say to me is you love his hair..

Looking in the mirror there he is there he goes,
Man I need to get my stuff together.
Jan 2016 · 293
Escape
Mr Xelle Jan 2016
I hate how I want you,
I don't you need you but I like to
I can't sleep no if It was me and you
So I sleep alone and it's so cold.
There's a better life and better death
If I can get pass your mess.

If you ever told me I'm leaving I wouldn't run after this,
Escaping you is a stronghold that I'm wiling to break free from all this.
Jan 2016 · 282
New Years Resolved.
Mr Xelle Jan 2016
I can't lie this is my cash Year
So don't be shocked if I'm wearing all cashmere.

Who would of thought you'll make it last year?

This month alone has me gasping for air,
My dad's silence is the thing that I fear,
Not his fist that hit me twice on a new year.

I didn't care but I did though
A funny feeling but I can't laugh though.

My family is spaced out in our own home,
So I plan it out to watch the stars around me go in and out.

If you haven't felt like your losing how bout now..

Even if you have money for riches spot to eat out,
Who is gunna be with you?

Tbh no lie I feel like a raining cloud to my own dusty drought.

Happy new year to me.

-Son
Jan 2016 · 367
Inside my mind
Mr Xelle Jan 2016
There must be a cheat sheet
There's gotta be a clue
Is there book on Y.I.Luv.U?

There have to be a problem
There have to be something wrong
Can I fix this problem of "thinking about you ?..umm.

Man I need some answers,
To all my questions!


What if ..Why do I love you is a clue because thinking of you  is my problem wait are you answering my questions?!

Okay okay okay calm down Steve
There's no one there
But I could of swore I heard..Na maybe it was just a bird.
But I still feel like there's someone thar..
I mean there.

Well if you're there Why Do you care?
No wait why do I care
Who ....

Hello?
From the outside !! Lol HAHaha okie okie.. Oh
Wait

(Phone rings)
"Aye Steve are u coming to church today then after we're hooping?"

Sure bro
Okie
..no you hang up ..no you hang.. Ohh okie well.

I'm here. Bruuuuuhhh what is that??
Ugh okie ur getting on my nerves!!

Who are you..
Jan 2016 · 171
Stains of time.
Mr Xelle Jan 2016
In the stains of time my pockets are full of improvise,
Look me in my eyes and see if there's no scars of what I hide..
I held you for so long that I'm barely turned on.
I believe I have reached the shore of a new Dawn
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