Hello, brother
God is nobody’s toy
saying hello, the hardest part
while rifles are getting cold
and army of tears are passing through
I know you see this too
there is only one blood
one pain
one thirst for revenge even
same wind
different chill
different bow
different the choreography of laughter
and a patient god dormant
in the gentleness
of hearts

I try to envelope
My hope
In something translucent
Succulent it may be
But fading in glory
A pond of koi fish
Bright as can be
Drawing me in
Yearning my release
My hunger evolves,
Silky brush of youth
Bittersweet satisfaction
In coating the truth
Light strips me white
As I'm pale for all to see
The scars, the pain
Fragility inside me

there's anticipation in the air
a hint of something to come
my soul can't see if it's good or bad
and it's unnerving

all i know is that my stomach is
knotted in this waiting
for something that i don't know
will come or when
maybe it's just the threat of the unknown
the lingering anxiety that comes with time

all i know is that i want it to stop
and let me rest
let my mind and heart be at peace
and let me feel that comfort that comes
with familiarity

Hot coffee, foamy and bitter
Scalds my tongue but I drink anyway
The clouds are low around my mountains
Trees are orange and red and
Nearly barren
My cheeks are cold and pink
And my fingertips trace the frost that's
Gathered on my window
I feel like the earth is preparing
For the change that is winter
And I am ready
For the rest that will come with
The first real snow fall
And the healing that happens underneath
For the reawakening that will occur
When the frost thaws
And my heart can finally beat
Without that ache
That has plagued me for far too long
With a quiet sigh
And eyes half shut
I will allow this period of rest
And recovery
And soothe my weary heart in
The balm of forgiveness

i have a Jack,
you have a Queen,
i have a ten,
you have a two,
i used to have an ace up my sleeve,
but it’s long gone
and now the cards of destiny
are spread upon the ground
waiting for the hand of time
to pick them up
and play another round.