"my lips feel lonely."

-him, 3AM

whispering words in the darkness of night under a soft red blanket,
I've never felt so alive at four in the morning.
staring at our ceilings miles away,
But still feeling like we're the only ones in the world at this moment.
i feel so close to someone so far
And yet i still can't bring myself
To admit i want you more than i can express.

your thumb, lifting up my chin
your gaze piercing me.
and for once,
i look at you too.
and that's all the confirmation you need
to press your lips to mine.

fat
until I lost some weight
now people fear I’ll waste away
too quiet
‘til I speak my mind
now they’re all ******,
wish I would die
wear too much black
wear pink one day
now everyone assumes I’m gay
work out an hour,
now I’m crazy
I take a break
now i’m too lazy
the truths I tell
become a lie
all people do is criticize
too meek
too weak
an ***
too crass
It doesn’t change
until I die
nobody will be satisfied

you wonder why i barely look you in the eye.
It's because, if i do,
I know we'll end up entangled in each other again.
Because eyes can't hide the truth,
And the truth is,
I love you.

Beware the boys
With dyed blond hair
blue eyes
and beautiful music
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trust me darling
That handsome smirk
May have told you
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he wanted all of you
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But it turns out
He only meant your skin
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I asked you
What you thought
the worst way to die is
And you said
"Alone."
I should have told you
That being alone
And being lonely
Are very different things.