Waking up worried about a day
That hasn’t started yet,
Shades of black under my eyes,
On my way to becoming a living skeleton.

Just tested the waters of adulthood a few days ago,
But I’m not an adult yet—
Nor an innocent child now.

There was a time when the biggest problem
Was trees dying.
Now I look in the mirror and see a girl crying.
(Or is it just a reflection of me, always crying?)

Trust came easy then,
But it got lost along the way.
Laughing was second nature—
Now it’s more of a chore.

Dreams were the future,
Yet all I see are nightmares.
Friends said forever,
Before they threw the knives.

Oh, it was all good back then,
But now I’m always crying.
Worry-free innocence, why did you leave?
Come back and give me my heart.

I was a kind kid,
But now all I think about is me.
I don’t want to breathe this way,
No, I don’t want to live this way.

My youth,
Please don’t leave me

She said, "I can't do it,"
her eyes shining with playful teasing.
Me, with the stubborn mind and will in my eyes,
said, "I can and will, and you'll see."

So it began,
making a chaos out of the colored cubes,
looking like a fool,
who's got no idea what she's doing.

I failed once, twice, thrice, for months,
but somehow I did it.
I put it back to how it was,
and I matched the colors to where they belonged.

And I felt proud of me,
for the first time in this life.

when we first met ,you wore the sun in your smile,
stars danced in your eyes, lightning up the night.
i was just the moon , lost in your glow,
but i fell -- oh how i fell, like a dream on the breeze.
i knew how this would end, yet i rose
chasing the shadows of where our love would weave.
i was sleeping when you were shining bright
and you were dreaming while i cast my light
your clouds never liked me,  always trying to hide me
veiling my light ,while i longed to break free
"why won't they like me ?" i asked you in despair
you said to ignore it as if you don't care
"why do they hate me ?" i pleaded feeling low
you said to let go , so i'm letting you go
i hit ignore and moving on from this show
i know that's not what you meant, but i can't take it anymore
and i do , i do feel bad,
but you , you destroyed my heart, maybe yours in the process too
so i leave now or i never will
seeing that we started to act like strangers
within the walls we built for years
they say to be loved is to be seen
and  you started to walk through me
you don't see me anymore
now you don't see us anymore
i blame you for shaping us into this
they point fingers at me unaware of the truth
no one knows how i tasted the bitter  salt
at two am when you were out there
building a world where im locked out , without a key
so i drop your hand and start to walk away
towards a future where we'll never meet again

We were young back then, just kids, you said (two kids, you said),
So was it not real, what we felt when we fell?
Got too used to being the light of your life,
I forgot who we were, I forgot who you were (you are the sun),
I forgot who I was (I am the moon).

We won't last, I knew it then,
Just kids like you said, too young back then.
But I heard your voice on the radio the other day,
And my heart came alive in a long time.
Oh, I've been living a lie (without you all this time).

And with teardrops I yearned,
You on the couch we bought
waiting for me with  dozy eyes (but they were full of love)
that's how it was back then

and it got me thinking

Are you busy if I call you now?
Will you pick up , will i hear your voice
Let's turn back time, because darling,
We are kids no more.

How about we give our love another go (say yes)?
Just take my hand, we are not  kids anymore.
We'll be alright,
let's reconcile.