I'm just a bubble of foam from a wave that breaks on the coast

I don’t know why but I just feel like I’m constantly in this ongoing loop. A train that Is going around and around on this track. It won’t let me off. I would just jump, but I’m scared that it’s going to hurt. I don’t know what to do. I don’t even know how I got on the train in the first place. I see people walk in an out, on and off with ease. If they can, why can’t I?

I always hear the old saying
“cut off the limb.”
Unfortunately,
my heart convinced my mind
to allow the infection to evolve
and grow into a whole new limb
that became a toxic person.