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Victoria Feb 2019
I think I'll enjoy loving you
just from a distance
In this little space in my mind
Where the best version of you lives

I'll be satisfied loving you
where my fears are silenced by dreams
and you know my every insecurity
and the charm never fades

I love you, I'm sure I do,
But maybe its just the fantasy I love
That maybe its not me, but its you
but part of me knows that I'm more afraid
of me being the problem
Victoria Feb 2019
Sometimes as I step out of the steaming shower, I see myself in the mirror and cant help but question the reflection. The way my body curves oddly trying to smooth out the bones underneath, how the small red lines appear from thin air, how broad my solders appear, spread out like a mountain range instead of a blooming pasture.

Then, I remember the Greek Statues with their pear-shaped bodies, and my towel drapes across my shoulder to become my sash. The soapy water beads are my olive crown as I stand poised.

But my face isn't up to par anyway, and this isn't the Greek period.
I think my sculptor forgot that, or maybe he wasn't that good with carving faces.
Victoria Feb 2019
Tearing me from inside out
This thing, felt yet intangible
Came from hell, bore a name
Depression is a cannibal

My heart is swallowed whole by it;
Brain rabid as an animal
And yet I tell you I am fine,for
Depression is a cannibal

You don’t see the damage done
For this thing, not understandable
But I’ll be eaten whole because
Depression is a cannibal

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