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Jayla Williams May 2022
When I was nine and reckless
sunburnt and covered in dirt
my mother yelled that all I ever do is make a mess
Now I make a point to clean twice as much as my siblings

When I was ten and childish
loud-mouthed and over-excited
my mother yelled that if she ever saw my face again she would **** me
Now I stay out of her way when she's angry

When I was eleven and enamored by the world
learning, stuffing my head with facts and numbers
my mother yelled that I talk to much and should learn to be quiet
Now I keep my discoveries to myself

When I was twelve and growing
Always hungry, always eating
my mother yelled that I over doubled our grocery bill
Now I don't eat much at home

When I was thirteen and lonely
talked to the moon and the stars
my mother yelled that I should get a friend; stop lazing around home
Now I stay out of my house as much as possible

Now I'm fourteen and finally happy
tanned and shouting at the top of my lungs
my mother yells that I don't spend enough time with my family
Now I refuse to listen to those screams

The words your mother says
stay with you your entire life
I won't let them
Jayla Williams Apr 2022
I hear it was the whistling towards a white woman,
that got you killed, face beaten in like a castrated mummy.

They stopped you because they did not want to take the blame.
Oh! how they killed you because they hated themselves,
used a lie to send you to your grave in the most horrible way.

Blood stains the Coliseum doors.
Now history repeats, everyone getting killed like Till.
Dead Black bodies dropping down on the streets.

Shout all of their names 3 times! They were innocent Black people, but 5-0 thought otherwise.

Police took away precious black lives of men, women, and children.
I know I’m guilty of it too, but not like them.

Stop the killing! Stop the racism! Freeze!
Black people are no longer enslaved,
We no longer wear those chains just to be painted gold.

Now once upon a time not too long ago,
A ***** like myself had to strong arm a ***.
Hold your golden-black crown high

Black woman

Black woman

What do you see when you look in the mirror?

Do you see the strength
and heart of the warrior Afrekete?

Is your head held up high,
for a crown to rest?
And be dubbed black queen,
mother of life, educator of black intelligence

Do you see your dark skin as it dances
and befriends the night,
kisses the sun and
absorbs black power day in and day out?

Do you see those wide hips, big bust,
big **** and big lips?

Never will you say that those precious gifts
from descendant Saartjie Baartman are a curse.

Black woman

Black woman

what do you see when you look at you
Lookup!

Lookup I say.

See that melanin on fleek,
that no one would dare to compete with.

Black woman do you see us?
Ancestors who stand before you,
behind you and beside you.

Give birth to a Black nation
Do you see that within the mirror?
The blood and shadows of a warrior queen.

Black Lives Matter, I cried

Pull up your pants
They would say
And WE won’t shoot
Black men in 1920’s suits
Left dead or in jail
Black mothers cried, I cried
M.L.K has arisen and died
Jayla Williams Apr 2021
How could it be that we let our love fall?
There were times in our life that we had it all.
As the weather got colder, my attention did shift,
but I could never be ready for this.
Yes, my attitude changed. Then you cut me so deep.
Is it possible to push a woman to cheat?
So I pray not for gold nor for worldly riches.
I pray for strength, wisdom, and forgiveness.
Did I not tell you enough how beautiful you are?
Do I deserve the bleeding of this never healing scar?
Would it be different that night if I said please don't go?
That me and the kids love you, that you're food for my soul.
But I didn't; swore and hollered with names,
Not knowing our love would never be the same.
Then you told me what happened and I started to cry,
And I felt like half of my spiritual body had died.
As much as you're sorry, should I take some of the blame?
Should I forgive and forget? Would you do the same?
Is our marriage worth saving? Have I any more to give this?
I ask the Lord for strength, wisdom, and forgiveness..
Jayla Williams Apr 2021
Shame...
Its what people say to you..
Its what people feel about you..
But is it really bad?
Can it be good?
Are you feeling distressed..
Is it just me feeling ashamed..
Shame...
Jayla Williams Mar 2021
Is love real
Is love true
Does love make you feel a way
Or does it make you blue
If you lost the person who you loved
is that love?
Jayla Williams Mar 2021
My heart is now in so much pain.
My tears are falling like pouring rain.

I can no longer sleep a full night.
I can no longer fight.

We broke each other's hearts.
We were torn apart.

We are no longer together.
What happened to forever?

No one can save me from the dark's might.
This time there will be no light.
I'm not going to fight.

There's no reason to.
When I did fight, it was for you.

I know I never did show how I felt.
Just believe me,
every time I saw you,
my heart would melt.

Just know...
I loved you then,
I love you still.
I promise
I always will.

I don't know why
we had to say our goodbyes...
but I'll love you till the day I die.

My heart is broken,
but I still have hope.

One day
we might get back together.
Maybe next time will be forever
Side note: I love you!
Jayla Williams Mar 2021
This isn't the way it was supposed to be.
Things started out so perfectly.
We were so happy, our future set in stone.
Never would I imagine myself alone.

But time after time, you broke my trust.
What I thought was love, you felt as lust.
You locked up my heart but gave her the key.
I watch as you now love her and not me.

I should have known it was too good to be true,
But yet here I am, crying over you.
Now I am left heart-broken and betrayed.
How stupid I was to think you would stay.

You shared love with her, knowing I was the cost,
And I realize now that all hope is lost.
Side note: Your Perfect
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