I wake to birds
Their songs make symphonies of morning
I wake to hurt
tremors throughout my bones
I wake to wind
The breeze whispering across my face
I wake to need
These vices that I can't seem to shake
I wake to hope
That today will be better than the last
I wake to loss
Another battle lost to these demons
I sleep to forget
All the choices that I made
I sleep to remember
The time before all of this
I sleep to wish
That tomorrow will be different

Dear ex lover,
I see you everywhere
Your name etched on the insides of my life
everywhere I look there are traces of you

Dear ex lover,
I hope you are well
The angel that you are
took me, a broken thing bruises and all
plucked me from hesperides and brought me back
to the land of the living
Just to hold me close and whisper all the good into my ear

Dear ex lover,
I know that on the surface I was silver and strong
but the devil never liked a quiter
and those demon's arms have a long reach

Dear ex lover,
I used to love the grocery store
Linoleum and fluorescents
The way you moved so effortlessly

Dear ex lover,
I used to love the grocery store
But my aisles are filled with ghosts
and my pantry is a tomb

Dear ex lover,
I know I hurt you
My decisions were not the best ones
This body has felt so heavy for so long
and these demons scratch at my skull

Dear ex lover,
I hope you are well
I hope you laugh
I hope your belly is full
and you have a warm bed to come home to

Dear ex lover,
I wish you well
always