When this madness first set in
It only made sense
To search out a good diagnostician
Trustingly sharing my story
With strangers with degrees
Quickly realizing no clinician  
Could fix what's alien me

I search for someone wise and trained
Instead I found myself slowly drowning
In a system of judgmental rain  
My very heart and soul an open subject
Sharing my uncommon delusions
Over and over explaining
My poetic conclusions

Yet those who have never ever lived a rhyme
Are prone to leave the unexplained behind
Who simply label you from a book
Quickly stop reading and give you that look
A book of broken soul’s
They write ya a prescription and send ya home
............................................................­...................

When I was but a foolish young lad
I trapped my demons down below
Creating spells of compromise
I let my holy spirits flow
I'm not here to free your mind
Of guide you through your maze
The only truth I have to share
Is I have simply lost my way
.........................


Just because we change our ways
doesn't mean the darkness fades.

Your kind of love
Has limitless bounds
Spreading like wildfire
When you come around
Your kind of flames
Ignite my soul
Passionately burning
Out of control
A single spark
I'm easily fed
Come and consume me
Upon my bed
.....

My eyes have seen your image
**** are you and your beautiful poetry
So eloquently designed
You pull me in every time!
You and I
We are supposed to be
Imagine our world
Two and then, perhaps three....
Somehow I love you
Witch craft indeed
Words have power
When (would) you agree
.....

Here I am
Did you miss me?
You can’t get rid
Of what we all need
I am your hollow
Beneath your shallow
Nonexistent invisibly

I am with you
Behind the curtains
Within the wood
The fire set free

I am your sorrow
Awaiting tomorrow
I am the love
The heaven you seek

I am indeed
Your
Poet Freak!

How dose it really feel
To just get up and go....?
Perhaps you subsequently already know
Perhaps you left, maybe even yesterday
Could you explain how true love
Could possibly, suddenly decay
How long where you planing to never come back?
When did your devious heart turn black?
Turning my world upside down
Even my smile
Hooks like a frown.....

This is not a poem
Oh how I wish it was!
I wish it could make you cry
I wish it could make you blush
Oh how I wish I could express my need for love

But this is not a poem
I'm just a writer
Alone
.....

You can tell 'em that I was crazy
But I was just a harmless nut
My pathways are all corrupted
My neurons are all but ******
Committed to survival
White knuckled through this maze
Holding on can get really tough
When a Traveler tries to stay
.....

I've been cursed into
World's beyond
Exactly where I go
I surely don't belong
As if my body
Expels my soul
Through the ether
My existence flows

But I am The Poet
My words have breath
Happy Halloween
To you
With all I have left!!!!!

Hope is carried upon subjective words
The manifestation of ideologies
Introduced into our objective realities

Yet I can no longer contain
A hope for what could possibly remain
Under hope's spell
The side effects
Of hope mania
.....

You feel it slowly at first
The singeing of sanguine-pumped pain
Piercing the remnants of a drained soul
Spreading through those past-haunted veins

You grasp & claw for something, anything
Maybe it’s hope, or just some fresh air
Something to save you from the agony
But still you drown in the depths of despair
....
Living in a maze of contemplation
All these things that I've become
This web of karma
I've weaved completely
Every which way my spiders run

Perhaps a pill or
Some sort of medication
Could help me find my poetic way
Yet I could never give in
To an indication
That I've nothing left to say
.....

Could you ever accept
The truth
Shining from this cheaters eyes
Even if I told you my reason's
I could never tell you exactly why

But
I do advise you to escape him
And come to my side
I must warn you
I love to win
I am the hungry kind
...

Be more than scared
Be very, very afraid
There is truly great evil
Lurking astray
Darker than shadows
Creeping below
Don't become dismayed
Hold tight to your soul
Hide where you may
At the altar where you pray
If you truly believe
Than try to be brave
Simply close your eyes
Take a deep breath
Words shall protect you
Give us your best!

Life is but a cruel, cruel maze
Of dead ends and nowhere lines
Prepare to hold tight
To the connection
Between your body
And your poetic mind

Off the tracks of life we stumble
The dice of love we tend to fumble
Thankful for another chance
Life is cruel but still we dance!

**** these violent black holes
Compressing each and every passing soul
****** through these eternities
By vacuums of unknowns

  On the other side where entropy awaits
There at the eventful horizon
Another big bang
At heaven's new gate

Hope is but a hypothesis
From an obsolete science book
Outdated in spirituality
Humanity is always
On the hook!

There is no running
From such crimes
The witness is always
Behind these eyes
The guard dogs barking
In your paints
Is a simple warning
In advance
I'll pillage your loven'
As I rapture your flesh
And I'll always return
For what ever's left!

How could I ever just simply let you go?
Your beautiful smile that forges
Has now imprinted upon my restless soul
The warm soft glow in your wandering
Bedroom eyes
Your radiant shooting star charm
The chase could never die
Dearest Dark Fairy
Darkness 'til dawn
Shrouded in sparkles
When I catch you it's on!

......




Thanks Santita
For your beautiful friendship!!!!!

If I could somehow explain
Surely I would
Contrary to so many thinking they know
For some of us
It is barely understood
The opposite of it can get lost in the unknown
Obviously I'm speaking of finding my way home
.....

Flickering in the night skies
We've been sleeping truths away
Hearts get lost to reason
Loves get led astray!

Climb, push
Get the hell up!
Don't let these words
Get stuck in your ****!

We read and write poem's
  While these aesthetic bones
Are of knowing
The lawn needs mowing

We dream, ***** and pray
The prose slowly change
But the poetic heart's
Keeps flowing!

The world around me, so lost in chaos
I wonder what this day shall bring
Perhaps tragedy or heart throbbing sorrow
Perhaps plan old-fashioned suffering

I wonder where you’ll be tomorrow
For today I’m forced to let you go
The center of my world's gone missing
Deeper than my Poet soul

I send these messages via telepathy
And hope someway that you might hear
I send my love via angels
Who touch my pain and disappear

Vanished now our unresolved love
Broken now my forgotten soul
All my knowledge and all my wisdom
All adds up to letting go...

My dear friends
Go on and enjoy yourselves
Slumber the morn away!
It seems early on Saturdays
I've always far to much to attempt to convey

While my few kind heart-ed followers
Tend to sleep their mornings hours
Peacefully in and out of REM
While I'm at the computer rhyming again...

It's late
You passed your chance for early waking
Hell you miss out on a great early baking!
And now it's far past time for eggs and bacon
The munches, as you can guess
Have all been forsaken

And what did you achieve
With extra sleep
Morning dreams of distorted thoughts
Poetic themes now subconsciously lost?

I know, I know
You made wonderful love the night before
And you need your beauty rest
I read your writing, I get it
you are so blessed!!!!

I went to bed alone and played
With the thoughts of someone wanting me
I wish my poems could reflect
But all they do is bleed

How I envy all my followers
If I offend
Give me a holler
You've been hanging out late
With a habits to itch
We all have a role to play
Unfortunately  
By the time you get around to reading this
I'll either be asleep
Or on my way!
.....

How long can we keep this going
Our leaders are bought and by the establishments stolen
We have no say, we lack the speech$$$
Our lack of money is what they seek
The status quo, evil on earth
Military Complex
Wall street
Big Pharma
The beast gives birth!

That's what I saw on the news
God help the earth!

Before the world
Could stake it's claim
I was the first soul
To know your name
Before the stars could shine
From the blue's of your
Pretty eyes
Before the mountains
Before the skies
Far before the gods could know
I was the first one
Who loved you so!!!!

Did you ever wonder
Who I really am?
Look how easily
You left me and your memory of me behind
A shameful picture trapped
Way, way back in your inner child's mind
Secondhand narratives are all you've ever heard of me
You see, the law...
They put me away when you where only three
Not the way it was meant to be
But second chances can heal
Not the red, the blue pill
No one can know how they're gonna feel
.....

I can’t believe you could be so  extremely unfaithful to me
You’re almost my brother
Is my wife up for grabs on the side

Something I never told you buddy oh pal
Once when I was working with your wife (My sister in law) she questioned me about her attractiveness  and how **** I Rated her to be
I knew right then your beautiful wife wanted a kiss from me
I’ve watched her for so long, after all she is my sister-in-law. Yet I’ve seen her clear,
And because of you I kept my distance
A gentle man
Gives no resistance
If you do have my wife
I assure you
Your beautiful wife is mine!
You can have her back later
And one of my future rhymes.

Find yourself falling free
In love's magical flight
  Perception is but an open door
Trust is a mighty plight
I've waited to be with you
Now our planets have aligned
Stand by to receive the cocoordinates
Do you prefer the physical
Or sublime?

(Your place or mind?)

Beneath the tears
That bleed fools dry
The eye of Ares dwells
Peering into eternal night
The darkest blackest hell
There be found
The wretched bound
Trapped within their dream
Whispers of madness
Within their ears
All shall be redeemed

If I were lost
On a perpetual path
Navigating back and forth
With only a mad man's map
I would leave behind
A bread crumb trail
To help feed those
Still lost in hell
Then perhaps they'd find a way
Through this perpetual
Relentless maze
...

Slowly my imagination fades
That creative side of yesterday
I bid farewell with kiss goodnight
Sadly I've lost my poetic sight

Oh but I remember when
The words would come
And have no end
An expression of wounds
The darkness within
But even the poet
Must someday mend

Endlessly I push these stones up these steep hills
My body wears down but the need is all I feel
Who am I that believes in such a cursed cause
Who am I but a voice of forgotten and betrayed gods
Repeating the madness in my weary head
Pushing rock up the hills of a life of dread
What is it for, fears is an unwanted emotion
Still
I fight with insight to find my path of true devotion

17 years since 911
Safety has never returned
To the free world
School shootings now rule
Our headlines...
Saudi Arabia still
Our closes allies...
Police still shooting
Our unarmed black men...
The industrial military complex
Bigger than ever
President still doing
The bidding of the 1%
$$$$$
Innocent people died
We were blind sighted
We came together
Only to become
Completely undone!

I wouldn’t dare to guess
The whole extent of
The adolescent mess
  Left upon the first broken heart..

Certainly you are one of those
Who have overcome
Those common blows
    That tears a first timer's world apart...

Or even luckier yet
Perhaps your soulmate
This time around
Is who you met
   Reflected in the passion of your art....

Being a poet
Can be quite telling
Aesthetically rebelling
Sharing all the secrets
   Of one's unique solitary heart.....

What if I could believed
All those impossible stories
All those brilliant miracles
Majestic in their glories
The proverbs
You teach your children
The comfort of your gift
What if it were true
That destinies were some how fixed

Where is this place
Where truth is hidden
For only the chosen few
The gathering of angels
The conversion of the Jews
Where are your invisible deities
The miracles of their love
If they’re real, then no big deal
They can stop the wars
From above  

Sea of gold
Trees of knowledge and life
A ****** heart
Becomes god's wife
Bowing down
Forever more
Before the judgmental
Blood stained floor
Answering questions like
Did you support the war
I'm afraid you'll need
To convince me more...

The awaited bottom
Is but a thump
Another
Life down
Another bump
Upon yer soul
Upon your
Quasi Moto
****
We gather lifetimes
Of spiritual lumps
....

If I were the monster
Under your bed
Restlessly awaiting
Your attempt at rest
I would insist
Your fears be met
Silently plotting
To make your sheets wet

As chill bumps climb
Down your **** spine
I'd sense you were one
Of the sleepy kind
As short hair *****
On the small of your neck
Let go and just connect
You're feeling fearfully fine
My claws rip into your dreams
Heavenly Hell's ecstasy
Is what you'll scream
If you make your monster me!

Arrogant is not how
I meant this to sound
But by now you must realize
It's only one time around
That's as far as wisdom
Can stretch for the truth
Existentially speaking
Imagine no roof
No bottom too the abyss
Where we fall
Hopefully our ignorance
Can catch us all
.....

The man behind the curtain
Speaking loud and certain
His image twisted and blurred
Larger than life
His armies and might
Imperialism is what he prefers

The little people do his bidden
On the senate floor of Oz
With pockets full
Of yellow brick gold
Their children live like gods

While those outside the castle
Have fallen fast to sleep
Trekking through the ***** field
Light upon their feet

The witches rise
On the centrist floor
The Wizard of Trump
Will have four more

Where are the ruby slippers
For it's time to go home
There's no place like...

I think to myself...
That could have been
One of my children out there
How swiftly
Death can strike
Behind our backs
Beyond our sight

As I tuck my children in
I kiss there eye lids
To fill their dreams with love
Thankful for another evening
Generous is their hugs

As another day slips away
So heavily we hold on
With love as big as the universe
We dream into the dawn...

Control that which your powers allow
Let everything else go
The craft is only perfected
By the ability to let energy flow

Take a deep breath until
You can't hold it any longer
And as you finally release it
You’ll be gasping ever stronger

Trees fall, some burn
Some are diseased or infested with worms
Yet you are a tree rooted in your own beliefs
Never letting go of a single leaf

Concentrate on who you are
But meditate on who you desire to become
Knowing the power of reality
And the power of creation are one

I wish I didn't know why
Yet crazy will have
An eye for an eye
The giving
That eventually takes
Life and love
Make no mistake!

Fear and karma
Are nothing more
Than crazies way
To Heaven’s door
Crazy teachers
Crazy test
From such labor
There is no rest!

Crazy enlightens
That is true
Crazy enough
To play so cool
While jumping into
The logical maze
Attempting to hide
Your crazy aways...

If like me
Your first love has failed
And inevitably
Your second
And perhaps third as well
And now thick bittersweet blood
Pumps through your veins
Take my advice
Don't give a care
Leave not the tear that stains
"For our kind"
Nobody's praying!

The next door neighbors
Had their own
Bomb shelter
In "their" basement
If the bomb dropped
This family of seven
Planned to safely survive
But
Many town folk secretly planned
To also pack in
Friends and strangers
All who knew about it
Their
Closest and farthest kin
All would be crowded inside
To eat up their snacks
Their five children had told
Everyone at school
Imagine that!
Standing in front
Or waiting out back
Not enough room
Survival was stacked
Thank goodness
The Russians held off
Their Attack!!!!!

The waves of uneasiness
Trouble the shores
Deep in the night
The tides still roar

Unmovable past
Refuses to bend
Emotional fractures
Crawl back in

Chills, sweats
Fever dreams
Are the cost of war
At love's defeat

Carried on
The wayward soul
All the loving
We've ever known!


.....

These words are not intended
To condemn nor confuse
This is not an attempt
To spread fake news
In fact it's nothing
That absolutely
Needs to be said
It's merely the poetry
Beneath my breath
Simplistic my rhyming
In aesthetic waves
Soothing, freeing
New life on the page
I am a keeper
A giver of words
We are the receivers
As poetry gives birth!

I'd be glad to spank you
Like your daddy did
You were such
A pretty
Spoiled little kid

Still you make me happy
Where else would I go
You're the finest freak
I have ever known
........

Swirling spiral of anti-matter
Cascading down an endless ladder
In non-corporeal states
Spirits search for their soul mates
One taste and we miss our goal
And cling to a second-hand role
One state that we all share
Bittersweet and unaware
Feed on life, consumed to death
We devour the world with every breath
Forged by chance, nurtured in deceit
We glimpse the truth and quickly retreat
Our description becomes indescribable
Our delusions become undeniable

You were once mine for a moment in time
I embraced your accustomed wounds
Used and abused, starving for love
You shone like a Samhain Moon
Yet love is alive, not a lie
Not a manifestation of will
Not a statue of god or paradise façade
Nor some unholy devil’s deal
I was once young with mind undone
Chasing a somber moon
Yet time has devoured
Those dead flowers
Upon that empty tomb

In the twinkling of on eye
Time passes us by
In a fleeting moment
Dead skin turns to dust
Still I feel I must
Insist on going slow
Letting each moment linger
With plenty of room to grow

In each of us
A rite of passage
A special trip
Through
Our own hell's
From beginning unending
We search for soul
In the physical realm
Of human cells

The greatest reward
Is to always be growing
In your love
And in your soul
And even greater
The love we're showing
While we're gracefully
Growing old
...

As the day draws on
She strikes a fire
Pink and red candles
Project her desires
Flickering flames
Smoke in our lungs
Her dresser's an alter
Unto the Sun
Passion her offering
She straddles my lap
No need for instructions
Ancient writing, nor map
No day can be darkened
In the temples of her soul
Witches of the northern land
The place I call home...

High in the forest trees
Summer spirits
   Ride the breeze...
Timeless souls
Beneath they gather
Summer hearts
   Waxing fatter...
Summer romance
Nature's desire
All of her children
   Drawn to the fire...
Something else
Is about to bloom
Underneath
   An Autumn Moon...