Fire trickles down your eyes
Cold,
but flaming
and gaining on me

I know I could never have you back
I’ve known it for a long while but still— I held on.

You were lost before I ever thought about the end

I didn’t care

Only would your touch keep my sorrowed heart at ease..

I saw it in your face every time he walked past,
And our hold lessened each time

It slipped

And slipped

I slipped

So I foolishly dreamt of the first few, where we ran away from everything, down to our special place.

Where our secrets were guarded by your lips and mine alone..

I despised your Goldilocks hair and your beautiful smile..
You trapped me in your lovers game, played me like a fool.

So I took it out on my bedroom wall

I need you, and your toxic habits
I live for your poisoned heart
I’ve broken down, night and day, at the thought of me losing you

Holes were left

Baby if you so wish,
He can have you in the morning, I in the eve

In them, and my heart.

Though I knew I had to hide them.

I yearned to cover them with concrete and forget about their existence
I needed to forget and move on like the wind..

But wind doesn’t fall in love

Just please let me stay

Let me forget your laugh..

Keep holding on, my angel, my love

And the worthless feeling you bestowed unto me

And take me back to our romantic haven

Take me back to my perfect life without your manipulations

Darling I beg you..

Darling I beg you..

Let us turn back time!

Let me turn back time.

My lady
Walk the street with me

Let us be like we used to
Laughing so freely

Don’t forget, my dear..
Because I know the road will surely fall apart

Though I will stay
Looking for the other piece of my heart

And holding onto the one lamp post
We kissed at, under the earnest moon

Hoping something will change
I pray

You come back to me soon

Half-chuckles flourishing in the night time scene
Slow deep breathes connect us
Staring into the darkened sky
We waited

…

But nothing came
Only a cool wind that blew leaves at our faces
And moved my hand onto yours
That's when I knew
I didn't want to wait for the stars to align
I just needed for you to be mine
and the elements seemed to agree..!

For some reason..
I hate you with all my guts
but
I want you to like me
and admire my presence
Yearn for my attention, sir
as I grumble at you from across the hallway..

My glorified enemy..
my incapacitated friend
when you told me I was your biggest regret
that the rage of 10,000 (dead by guillotine) cursed souls
make up 1% of your hatred for me
that when you died, your 2 year old child would grow with the very purpose
of destroying my entire life
I was appalled, dismayed
so I pressed on the blade
and you no longer could throw your outlandish threats my way.
But I did not expect, 30 years down the road
Sitting at the edge of my pool In my Florida mansion
which (of your own free will) is what you gladly endowed me
to see a bright light in the sky falling so quick and smooth
a beautiful sight
So I picked up my martini and took a final big swig
and extended my arms to the flaming red might
"IN MY MOTHER'S NAME!"
He spoke aloud
his mother would be oh so very proud!

Half-chuckles flourishing in the night time scene
Slow deep breathes connect us
Staring into the darkened sky
We waited

…