I've been seeing nightmares in my sleep
tryna stay awake so i wouldn't dream
i can feel the demons following me
tryna push me when i cross the streets
it's getting way harder for me to breathe
knowing that your putting curses on me
you're not even here but you're killing me
you're not even here but i can hear you breathe
are you gonna stay with me or will you leave
i can't get over the anxiety
who are you to walk all over me
who are you to stop me from reaching my dreams
you said you're the devil on my shoulder
but you're just a lover turned to enemy
i don't want to be running i want to be free
i don't want to be reminding myself how to breathe
just let me go let me be
just let me go and let me heal
i'm not a robot for you to control
i'm not a toy you make up stories about
i'm just a human who likes to love
you're too sad you have to hide your truths

You think you know
all the answers we need
you said it's a stupid secret
we choose to keep
last night you forgot your name
laughed it off and drank some wine
but we both know
you don't know who you are
you don't know what you want
looking for some feelings and connections
you know you won't keep
you think you know
all the answers in the world
yet you still forget your name

What is it about cigarettes
that makes them poetic
is it the fire or being
a reminder of death
is it the stink
that pushes people away
but mixes perfectly with
the fingers that so delicately
hold onto the smoke
is it the feeling it gives
when you know
you hate what you do
when you feel a little power
in your fingertips
a nihilistic view of life
is it the lips that
inevitably look sweet to taste
maybe it's the soul in looking for

Cigarettes and ***
Distinct odours
Lingering around fingers
Silent night silenced
By an accelerated heartbeat
And deeper breathing
Reality is gone
Glances of solitude
And madness
As night passes
With open eyes
Yesterday’s problems
Still lay unresolved
But peace in mind
Is restored

Why you messing with my head
Said I wanted to be friends
Now you given me the feels
Giving many compliments
Then you disappear again
You're left staying in my head

Hate loving nice boys

Why you gotta be so god ****** nice
You're nice to my heart
But killing my head
You're good with words
Even better in bed
Can't keep you outta my head

You're so honest
You're so kind
You tend to always blow my mind

Left alone on my bed
Hating nice boys- we're just friends

You disappear again
Leaving things left unsaid
Don't know what you're thinking again

Let me be

You're not a nice guy
You deceive
You're not a nice guy
They don't leave

I left my lovers all behind
got enough of being kind
they gave me headaches and  sleepless nights
don't have space to keep them running in my mind

Want a warm touch on a cold night
Wanna **** your brains out
won't be thinking for some time

Don't wanna talk
but we'll be up all night
Don't wanna know you
Don't stay the night

Wanting to fall on the knees
in front of someone
anyone who is standing
anybody who cares
begging for help
can't speak
but the body shows the signs
help needed
how can't anyone see
crying
screaming for attention
standing on the stage
bright lights making the body shine
it's brighter than any light
turn it off
turn it off
let it be dark
let it be quiet
can then everything be let out
so that everybody hears
so that someone cares
so that help will come
or has the bystander won