Heart
                                           Ice
                                   Cold
                            For
                 years
          My
fears
         Driven
                      by
                           tears
                                    My
                                          brain
                ­               Insane
               thoughts
clouded
              pain
                      surrounded
                                            Living
             ­                                           in
                   ­                         doubt
                                  want
                              to
                      pout
    ­                I
               do
without
               Wash
                          away
                                    my
                         ­                 fears
                                                    With
       ­                                   tears
                            Nobody
                  hears
    Nobody
                  cares
                            Nobody
     ­                                      dares

                                              I
          ­                        Carry
                            On
                    Like
                A
   Drone


...............alone.............

Silence.
I can't hear anything but my heart thudding in my chest.
Normally I'd feel anxious, but not tonight
Tonight I welcome the silence as though it is a relative. Here for the weekend
I lay against the cool sheets on my bed and I listen to the stillness of the night
I don't miss you as much today.
Tonight I'm not wishing you were beside me
Tonight, I'm thankful for a bed as empty as my thoughts.
I thought I needed more than what I have.
But actually all I needed was the silence
Tonight the solitude feels like a blanket wrapped around my shoulders on a chilly night.
Comfortable.  Free
I will sink to sleep content with cool sheets and an empty bed.
Tonight was better. Tonight was not only manageable but freeing.
I don't need you

Blue skys
Dry eyes
Sunshine
Fun times
Clouds appear
People fear
Rain to come
Fun is done
Sky opens
Rain pours
People cry
Fear they'll die
Chaos of the unknown
People groan
Winds gust
We don't trust
Hail cascades
Clouds fade
Rain goes away
That's all for today
Colors appear
A rainbow is here
Dry your eyes
Don't you cry
Hope is here
In the darkest of times
There's always hope for tomorrow
After every storm there's a rainbow

Today I woke up with the smell of snow cast upon my senses.
A cold grey shadow stretched like a quilt across the inside of my house.

Snow falling like wet feathers.
The intake of silence echos across the white glittering crystal blanket that is perfectly scattered hither and thither across my endless horizon.

I step outside to helplessly embrace the winter air. It fills me up like a tree in the summer filling up with water.
Snow drops dew upon my delicate eyelids.

While I inhale the snow exhales and together we work as one unit reckoning the perfect balance of the natural world as we know it.

my quill like a dagger
my paper is skin
with each line
dragging deeper and deeper
hitting nerves
and cutting to the bone