I’ve been walking for some time,
Now there’s a mountain too steep to climb
Too steep even with the right gear,
This is ridiculous, impossible says my fear
Just turn back you did your best, says my mind
But I don’t plan on turning back, don’t dare to look behind
The temperature is falling, I feel their breath in my neck
I pretend to be better, but inside I’m still a wreck
I now free-climb this rocky hill,
One mistake and it’s over, fighting against the will
To simply stop climbing, I want to let go
At least I’ll feel free for a second or two,
Before hitting the sharp and pointy spears below
Maybe this is it, maybe that I’ll do.
The mountain gets steeper,
And steeper again,
I already see the reaper,
Or am I going insane?
Insane I still am, for this rock is not climbed,
But I only have my eyes to guide me,
For my mind is completely blind.
You’re the reason I climb, friend
Your illness might just mean my end
But I won’t be able to live without you,
I’m sorry, I don’t have what it takes to go through
I’m now falling, as it starts to pour rain,
“Finally, thank you.” I hear from my brain
My friend, finally I understand
We’ll finally be rid of this, but not really as planned
We were meant to work together, friend
But you lured me into climbing, and now I near the end
I squint my eyes and make out not a single spear,
Those who haunted me are waiting, I already hear
Their dark, low voices, shouting that they’ll capture me
Leave me alone, don’t capture me. I’m now, for once,
Finally free.
Just when there should be light, there’s none
Where am I now, is it all done?
Did I finally do it, are the voices all gone?
Then one starts to laugh, I can’t believe it, come on
I get back up on my feet and my vision pulls into focus
To find myself back at the start, this journey is hopeless
I’ll have to walk those miles once more,
The first step I try and then fall to the floor
I look down and spot both my legs are broken
You thought that would leave no scars?
Oh, you must be joking.
To fall back down from such a height,
Even further away from a sprinkle of light
The mountain casts a shadow over this path all day
Please tell me, to the light, is there another way?
My skin is desperate, it is so pale,
Because you sir, missed a tiny detail
Every time I peacefully try to take a shortcut
Another door in this tiny room, somebody throws it shut
The darkness takes the rest
It even creeps in through the keyhole,
I might need a life vest
To prevent myself from drowning,
In this mixture of darkness and rain
It fills up this tiny room,
I simply can’t stand the pain
It fills my lungs, my veins and head
Until I then turn blue,
Is it finally over then, please tell it to be true
The room is drained, I hear a voice
He whispers “This is easy.”
I crash back down onto the floor,
My breath it sounds so wheezy
My body is tired, it’s through, it’s done
All I ever wanted was seeing the sun
Feeling it’s warmth, seeing the light
Instead I keep falling and I just write,
Again.
This journey takes too long,
Ran out of supplies, they’re all gone
I won’t survive out here all alone
I shouldn’t have tried, I should’ve known
That this path, goes on for eternity
There is no end, I’m filled with uncertainty
There is an end, but I can’t see
I can’t decide that, It’s not up to me
I’ll just keep walking, don’t try to fight
I’ll see the sun again, when the time is right
Maybe not ever, maybe I’ll keep walking
With behind me those who chase, they’re talking
How they like their home, they vandalize
Destroy everything they can, at any prize
Windows smashed, walls are cracked
And the neighbours, they get attacked
I hear pounding on the door, they’re back again
I snap and then shout “PLEASE, WHEN?!”
When will you leave, you keep hurting me
Just unlock the door, just set me free
Free from this path, free from this door
I can’t walk on for long anymore
I’ll have to crawl, just to continue
Know it is pointless, that’s not the issue
I just want you to see me try
For you my friend, this is goodbye.