Standing still dazed
Unable to process completely the whole thought
Waking up since that day makes you want to slap yourself awake
Away from this bad dream if ever it was one
That pain slowly eating away the insides of your chest cavity
Makes you harder to speak about that day
The day everything suddenly gave away
It's hard I guess
It's unbearable
Weeping is currently impossible
Because the whole thing refuses to sink in to me
This is the first time in history that I've felt like I kinda died because of a misunderstanding in our circle of friends... but I don't know, maybe it's also because this same thing has happened to me already before and experiencing it for the second time is just ugh... *sigh