It first starts as a small cut,
Or missing one meal.
And who would notice?
But then you find yourself tumbling,

Tumbling down a rabbit hole with no way to stop,
People ask you to 'quit it' but what do they know?
It's not that easy. It's never been easy.

Suddenly death seems like the easiest solution,
But is it? Leaving one hell for another?
Then it's all about whether you have the guts.

The guts to end your life. But how?
Slit wrists? Hanging? Overdose? Jump? Car?
So many ways to take a life
And fewer ways to save one.

It was sad
Depressing
Doing something bad
Watching the blood gush out
Room spinning, body shaking
I am just filled with doubt

Pain replaces my depression
My tears pour out
I start to question
End me out now
I can still feel the inadequacy, the depression
How?

My heart clenching
But I managed to fake a smile, and a feeling
Who will come to entrench?
My cries of plea comes from my soul
It shows throughout my dull eyes
My life has no true goal

Every time I make a cut
I go deeper and deeper
Pain is what?
My positive expressions would just be full of lies
Don't you cry
Now is the time for my demise

Who will hug me
Hold me
Knowing of what I do
"Don't do it too"

Everyone says that if you try hard enough
You have a chance of making it,
Well these people are very lucky then
Because for me I’m just a misfit.

You try and you do your best
But don’t reach your goal,
There’s no point in trying
So I’ll just go hide in a hole.

When you don’t make it
People give you pity,
Back off and leave me alone
I’m not some little kitty.

I’m constantly being compared
To the one person I really hate,
Everyone thinks she is so perfect
She’s a ten and I’m a negative eight.

She looks down on me
Watching as I continue to fail,
She notices my mistakes
But not my skin, completely pale.

I’ve given up on life
No point in trying anymore,
Leave me in the dark
Let me die alone on the floor.

She will always be better
Better than me at everything,
Let me die with this knife
Cutting my skin, it doesn’t sting.

I’m done trying and living
I’m done pretending to be tough,
She’s the best at everything
While I was never good enough.

Watch me bleed out until there is nothing left inside of me.
A flood pours out and the blood beings to seethe.

There is no turning back, you know what you've done to me
My bleeding out, is that what sets you free?
If so, then I have a job for you-
Under the hanging tree.

They're coming for you, and they will catch you one day you'll see.
Feeding off our body, your a monster who disgusts me.
Blood slips onto the roots, boiling underneath.
Now an endless hell awaits you, as far as the eye can see.

Blood red petals fall from the sky
Like the deceased who never got to say goodbye.

I tried to catch them in my arms, I tried to catch them as they fell.
But I was too weak...

And so with them I fell.

I slit my wrist to erase the pain,
you look at me, and think I'm insane,
my eyes turn red, bleeding my tears,
and still you try to protect me from my worst fears.
Look at my scars then you will see,
why I can't seem to go around and fake happy,
yet you tell me you love me, that you'll forget,
for I'll soon be gone, and I'll be your greatest regret.
So let me die, broken and scarred,
I can't deal with life, it's getting far to hard,
everything's gone wrong, it's not worth trying,
so leave me alone because I feel like I'm dying,
I don't want you to worry,
because my life is ending in a hurry,
I'll be fine, and happy you see,
for death is what I wished for and soon it will be.

You know my name
Not my story
You see my smile
But not my pain
You notice my cuts
But not my scars
You can read my lips
Not my mind

A musical trance seance under control by the hand of a shadow
A "Du hast" to a "Loco" To a "beautiful people"
A fraction of symphony, Sent by the gods of rock

Spiderweb rooms an corridor covered with the entrance to darkness set in place with danger light's, Strobe lights, an a fog machine set on auto
A haunted feel to a shack left cold an abandoned.
Equipped with superior beings and extended solo's of 6 string guitar's along with drum's and distorted bass guitar, setting the rhythm for our soul's,Feeding threw 4 large kickers.

This shadow was me
Venom
Decorated in crow face paint, Along with black attire to match my attitude
People came and went and came again
Supporting my and there craving for sublime sound
But one, the one, my goddess, my angel of death came to my dwelling, she came with a message

To indulge in my love

But also to give me a message of misery
To break me free of this chaotic world i was fixed in, with a bite to my fingertip the purified pressure was on
She wore the same colors as I
Only more dragged inline's
More pain, More beauty than she could see
I stared into her crystal corroded bloodshot eyes
I seen deep within herself
I saw pain, I saw hate for her fire, I saw hate from others
I had seen everything and nothing
I arose from my slumber to meet her in the darkness or mothers sleep
To give mother a great vision, a great dream and it was this
My angel of death, Meeting face to face, Eye to misery, Cure to disease, Beauty to ugly.

The words rolled off her tongue like the greatest embrace to a lover
Her words were sweet and seductive
Sprinkled with tears of a suicidal mind and a scarred wrist.
Then in a perfect moment are perfect tender love met with crying eyes and black lipstick.
Within that moment i ingested her misery
I took it and gave her what she deserved

Beauty

After the release of this lover's choice
We met vision and from there i seen the truth
I could never release her from this insanity
Only pamper or even embrace it
This timeless motion of misery will never stop ticking in my heart
Not till it expires!