Why is it so hard
To just tell you the truth?

I want to smile
A real smile
Not the fake ones
I put on every day
I want to smile
But I can't
I can't be happy
When there is nothing
To be happy about
A smile seems to hard to do
When all you can think about is
Unhappiness

Don't say a word.
Because then they won't see.
You are not as perfect.
As they think you are.

Why can't you see
That when I look at you
I see perfection
Why can't you see
That I would love
To spend the rest of my life
with you
Why can't you see
That you make me laugh
And make me happy
When times are hard
Why can't you see
That I love you
Unconditionally

Heart beating fast
Afraid I might miss a beat
Slowly closing eyes
Feeling sleep deprived
But I can't close them
Not for one second
I might miss something
Sleep calling and darkness comes in.
But sleep can wait
Because life doesn't wait for me.

You don't see how perfect you are
How your staring effects me
How when I am in your arms
I can't help
But want to stay there
I can't tell you how I feel
So I put it in poems like this
I want to hold your hand
But sometimes you don't hold back
I want to talk to you
But next to you
I feel not good enough
I want to hold your hand every two seconds
But I feel like it is too much
Like it might push you away
I want to tell you so much
But something is holding me back
And it is just me