For want of fire, farther furnaces sphered in alignment
I lit your cigarette and you ignited my tongue
we crossed our wires
and poured roads a cacophony of car horns
and shifting street lamps heading East
hazard lights left on as the planet rushed by
now everything is muted in your wake
I keep pulling at my flesh
this body was always a puppet for you
Husks for which I was growing in to
and decorated with threads and falsehoods
weekends built to be empty
with all my windows and doors closed
not even an echo escapes out of politeness
for a memory I am just learning to keep sacred
There were fireworks once
they celebrated the mortal distance of
hours and kilometres between us
now fotographs grow heavy
collecting shadows made less so
with each new attempt at levity
Don't save me from these days
I may lose count of the steps leading back to you
lose count of the clouds for which we mortgage tomorrow
Somedays move heavier everyday
I miss you
Hands so small as if broken by this world
found me in places I didn't know were home
As we raised our peluches
and layed down in foreign parking lots
everything is a facsimile of what could've been but we try everyday
Trees lengthen around us as we wait
for our chance to plant our lips among them
to add garden to the changing green
I reach for you over seas
I dream of you recklessly
I breathe mutual atmosphere
I don't want to leave this place if you won't take me
In neighbourhoods as safe as routines
I hide and wait for the sky to be paved
as these streets overflow with thunderstorm warnings
with cigarettes that won't quit
with good coffee and new uses for paper
My tongue waits for your toes behind the last unlocked door
As you practice the full nothing away from me
My tongue waits for your toes behind a last unlocked door
For Mei.
We shared sleeping bags upon mountains
Brushed our teeth to aurora borealis
In constant search of crown land
to rest our heads