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Sep 11 · 43
Chained slave
Lesoko Sep 11
Your sins have been forgiven
The shackles are off
You are no long tied to this kingdom of Darkness

FLEE

But I’m still here Lord
I’m still chained God
I hear your declaration of freedom from sin
I speak and hear and write about it all day but

But not me why?

Is there something I’m missing? A eureka? A revelation

I hear the words but I do not live them. Why Lord?

Have I fallen for these shackles
Have I made this pit my new home

What is lacking Lord? Please help me see it ?
Aug 13 · 312
void
Lesoko Aug 13
Hollow
Could there be a better word
Empty
No, better
Sad
This human emotion
Hurts
Can it be taken away
Aug 13 · 49
Better now?
Lesoko Aug 13
I’m better now
Yes I’m better
My smiles a little bigger
My hope a little brighter
My laugh a little louder
Yes I’m better
The pains not so deep
Yes it’s not deep
It’s root
Wrote this in 2019
Aug 13 · 32
Alone
Lesoko Aug 13
I’m alone
But not really
I put myself here
Chose this place
Embraced it
Now….
I’m not sure if I like it
It’s heavy
Empty
Cold
But light scares me
Fullness dulls me
And warmth…
Warmth is the most dangerous feeling
Jul 2019 · 136
Lord I praise!
Lesoko Jul 2019
Lord each breath I take is a gift from You
Each feeling of joy, desire and sorrow comes from You
Let everything I feel be for your Glory
Let it echo within me and send my praise high into your Holy place
Lord I thank you for all I see
I thank you for each perfectly designed creature you created
May what we see bring praise to our lips
And excite our hearts with a holy cry
I thank You, Lord and I praise you.
Apr 2019 · 173
Is there forgiveness?
Lesoko Apr 2019
Is there forgiveness for the sinner?
Yes? Maybe? No?
How many times can God forgive my countless sins
How many times do I have to disappoint Him
Before he casts me out like the demons that wage war deep within the earth
How many times, God do I have to mess up for you to realize
That this stained, tainted soul isn’t worth what you sacrificed
Lord, God, Father- how many times do I have to bring shame to your name
In the light all is right yet in the dark where you see all I’m... rotten, shameful
Constantly bringing shame to your precious divine Name
Lord how many times do I have to cry and realize that they mean nothing
Because a few days from now a repetition of the sin I’ve cultivated  is expected
Lord, God, Father how many times can you forgive?
Lesoko Apr 2019
Lord the tears remain deep within
The shame that I carry weighs me no more
It’s a part of me
A feeling I’ve scarified You for
Lord the tears remain deep within
As I find myself numb
To the pain
Hurt
Anger
Always, simply moving through the motions of life
Apr 2019 · 185
I did it again
Lesoko Apr 2019
I did it again
I stopped and watched the sin
Found myself enthralled, captivated by it
Then I sat, my hands itching to take part
In this evil concubine of sin made by man
Then I sinned
I blemished  the snow, my soul, the One the Savior died to cleanse
I burned the bright bridge that lead to the One
All that work
All that prayer
Only for a single, evil thought to burn it all away
Right before my eyes
I sinned
Now I watch as I’m pulled back
The light I so desperately desire shrinking
Shrinking
Shirking
Till I found myself completely immersed in darkness
My heart beats, it doubles as my eyes sweep this oblivion I’ve created
Looking forward there is no light
On silent darkness
I sinned
And burned the bridge that lead me to Him
Mar 2019 · 159
Dethrone
Lesoko Mar 2019
Dethrone all that is shameful
Dethrone all that is sinful
Dethrone all things that are not of the One

Day and day we put something on our throne
We worship this being and praise it
We believe it brings us satisfaction, happiness and fufillment
But all we do is waste the short time we’ve been given

Dethrone

Stop putting up this thing and making it your king
Stop believing the lies it tells you; it's soft whisper of deceit

Dethrone

I can’t live like this anymore, I won’t live like this anymore
I won’t waste my time on things that keep me thirsty

Dethrone

See, there's one King
One being
One father who belongs on that throne
The one we should worship day and night
And continuously shout about his goodness and mercy
See this King is amazing he loves unconditionally

Yahweh the one
Let's put him on our throne
Mar 2019 · 131
Distraction
Lesoko Mar 2019
Distraction

I want a distraction

Drown out all the unwanted thoughts, pain, hurt

Put the music a little louder

Pour a little more into my cup of shame

Keep the thoughts out

I want a distraction
Mar 2019 · 135
Sin
Lesoko Mar 2019
Sin
Sin
Oh, the pleasures of sin
How they so easily ensnare you
How they lure you in with a soft sigh
Sin
How devious and clever you are
Even the greatest have fallen at your feet
Found themselves entangled in your web of deceit and shame
Sin
How happy you must be
To see us all try and fail….continually
How we fall for the same trick
How we quickly waddle over when you simply wave your finger
Sin
I hear your malicious laugh through the night
Taunting and teasing those who can’t resist your mischievous eyes
Oh, but Sin you have met your match
The One who defeated the grave
The One who isn’t me but lives within me
The One who loves unconditionally and the One who never changes
Sin
Oh, how I hate to say that your darkness shall no longer intrigue the lost
But The One, the light of The One, shall call the lost sheep to repentance
Mar 2019 · 126
Lord, I'm Sorry
Lesoko Mar 2019
Lord I’m sorry
I’ve failed to deny myself the temporary pleasures of this world
I've failed to chose you above all else like you continually do
I’ve failed to express your love and shower the world with it
I’ve failed to show your people compassion and mercy
But Lord my greatest failure will always be not loving You enough
Lord, I’m sorry
Mar 2019 · 109
The Day Is Coming
Lesoko Mar 2019
The Day is coming where there's no chances
The Day is coming when all my sins and failures crawl back to me
All the things I’ve suppressed mentally, physically will seep into the cracks of the foundation I’ve tried so hard to build
The Day is coming when my rejection of the truth will judge me… hurt me
Lord I’ve tried
I know I didn’t try hard enough
I lied to you to myself to everybody
I’ve build a temple for world
Where people can come in as they please
Breaking and wrecking everything I've tried so hard to build
Lord I’m done
For the day is coming where sorry won’t work
Where going on my knees and asking for forgiveness won’t do
Chance after chance opportunity after opportunity you’ve given me
And I've wasted
And each I've thrown back with shake of my head a drawl of 'no way' on my lips
All you’ve done is show me love and I return it back with rejection
I’ve lied cheated, hurt, embarrassed killed
Maybe not literally but killing is killing
Lord I’m scared that there is no salvation for me
That I’m just meant to twist and turn in the hot furnace, Lord
Facing and serving my time for all the decisions I’ve made against you
Isn’t that what I deserve?
Lord the Day is coming and I fear i won’t be ready
I fear the spirits and demons that lurk in every corner of my life
I fear the day when I will see Your face and you won't recognise me
Because all I’ve done has masked the beauty You created
I wish I knew
I wish I knew
but The Day is coming and I’m done for
Mar 2019 · 101
Irritated
Lesoko Mar 2019
I’m irritated
The look in your eye just feeds the growing demon inside
Every time you open your mouth meaningless words just put out
But those words act like fuel in a fire
Im irritated
The burn in my chest gets hotter and hotter and hotter
It's burning me now too
I don’t have an outlet, I need an outlet
Oh wait you’re right here
Let me scream out all the words you said to me
Let me lose this burn and ache in my chest and exchange it for peace
The price...your feelings
I'm irritated
Nov 2018 · 111
EXAMS
Lesoko Nov 2018
EXAMS
What a simple,simple word
But in every child’s heart it brings fear
Doubt
Hurt
And a scathed esteem
EXAMS
What would we do without them?
Prosper
Succeed
Evolve
Nobody knows because no one has been given the right to deny it
To face the teacher, the educator, the life bearer and simply say No
To simply chose life, peace,happiness and sweet, blissful ignorance
EXAMS
Just like change,they’re inevitable.
Aug 2018 · 157
Double Standards
Lesoko Aug 2018
Disappointment floods my veins
Anger brewing underneath the hurt, betrayal and double standards

Double Standards

Something that everyone can do, be
Irritation feeds on me because of you
Yes, I blame you
How far will people go for money
How far are you willing to bend your morals
Their being is:
To worship their ‘god’

They say one thing and do another
Further pushing in the knife they plunged, so deep

Double standards

Double life
Double you
Double the lies
Double the hate

At least when there 2 of you
My anger might just last longer
I know I forgive,  I always do
But, there comes at time where when I look at you
All is see is every single wrong deed you did to me
The way you plunged the knife deeper and when I finally healed
You did it again and again and again
My life a series of scars bred from hate, betrayal and hurt
And it all has to do with your:

Double Standards
Jul 2018 · 323
I see myself (DRAFT)
Lesoko Jul 2018
I see myself being who I am
And still reaching for what I can be

I see myself  ready
Ready for obstacles,challenges and mountains that will be moved by faith.

I see myself...
Believe in yourself, even when others don’t. Sometimes we have to imagine ourselves where we want to be even if we aren’t there just yet.
Jul 2018 · 127
In you Lord I trust.
Lesoko Jul 2018
Lord, I choose to trust in you
I choose to trust in your timing
Love
Sacrifice
Lord I choose to let go of today
And all its worries
I chose to believe in you
I’ll push past the pain,sadness,worry and anger
And focus on you
Lord I choose to stomp on the devil
Show him I’m not afraid, I remain unchanged
Lord, I choose to believe in you
So here I am Lord
Trusting in you
Show me you way, your light, your path
Let me be like the woman from your Word
Unwavering in her faith
And brave in danger
Lord I choose to breathe
To let go
Lord, your servant is here
She’s suffering,afraid, hurt.
But in you she will trust
A poem I hope will inspire you, that will remind you that God loves you all the time and that  he is readily waiting for us to ask him for help.
Mar 2018 · 104
Fog
Lesoko Mar 2018
Fog
I know what I must do
I know I have to do it
I know I can’t delay
But what else can I do

I try and find the answers
Force the motivation
“It’s not there!”

Putting pen to paper
Still coming out empty

Stepping back
Observing the situation like I’ve been told
I still see no answers, no solution

Fog
It’s thick
It not only exists in nature
But in our minds

It hinders
“It’s a form of evil.” I’m told

Evil. Evil I rebuke thee!
Mar 2018 · 435
I see myself
Lesoko Mar 2018
I see myself being who I am
And still reaching for what I can be

I see myself  ready
Ready for obstacles,challenges and mountains that will be moved by faith.

I see myself..
Mar 2018 · 356
Pressure
Lesoko Mar 2018
The pressure builds and builds
There’s no running away from it
Everyday another problem is thrown on our shoulders
“They can’t hold anymore.” We scream
But more is thrown
Everyday, a new pain it brings.
I look ahead and the journey is oh so long
It twists, turns and requires more energy than we’re willing to give.
All the tasks demand to be done.
Each problem singing its own song.
My ears they hurt
I longingly stare at the place that gives me peace
Just when I take step towards happiness
They sing again and again
Louder and louder
The journey is long.

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