Fine
Fine crumbs snowing in the spoon
Burn
Boil, purify
Pierce the cotton with the eye,
Draw your shot, locked and loaded
Roll your sleeves or arms get bloated
Shoot the poison
Straight into brain
Such toxicity
To keep a man sane

Fresh from the oven,
Baked golden brown
Like ash it crumbles,
Snowing softly onto spoon

Translucent tap water,
And help from an orange,
As orange flames burn
Your poison forms

Ball as white as purity personified,
Safety first, how ironic,
Tip of the needle drinks,
Defiant of danger

Blue belt tied,
You've got make 'em all pop,
Wipe then shoot,
Your heaven awaits you

I remember days long past walking
aimlessly through parks shrouded in shadows - sun nowhere to be seen,
the cold grey stare of housing peering through our purity as we walk
no where to go
no where to be.
I remember the simplicity, the magnificence of meaning,
meaning nothing to no one as we,
we brave bodies continued forth in our bohemian bravado,
bottles in hand with best intentions in our heart.
The times when time wasn't so torturous -
when time did not tick at all,
just this singular eternal moment
As still as a frozen snowman smiling
in the frozen winter wasteland we called home,
a moment when we still had our kindness
a simple kindness in our hearts and our lips
causing the most simple delight
when our wide eyes would light
up at even the most simple sensations -
the beauty of the shining sun,
the tip-tap of the rain as it smashes of of the concrete slabs
that made us the pepole we would unwillingly become,
Moments of
Love, friendship and alcohol
love friendship and drugs
the love and the friendships founded on these
terrible troubles lifted from Lucifer
to corrupt
what once was so innocent – so naïve,
to bring ruin to mighty Babylon generation
after generation for this is our fate
unbeknown to us yet

I miss the feeling of our intertwining skin,
I miss the silky softness of your hair
Running through my fingers as you lay down on my bed,
Nothing but sweet thoughts and morphine in your head
I miss the warmness of your structure,
the heat from your heart that warmed even the coldest of souls
Recklessly ruined by
Private paranoia
And a fatal dice roll

I try and
Try and
Try and
Try
It's never enough
Not enough but why
I die
And die
And die
And die
It's never enough
You feed me lies
I want to live
I want to feel
Some love
Informed it wasn't real
Your hazel eyes
All part disguise
Though I know you
A desperate sigh