Shooting Star
Queen of Heaven
Hail Mary
Full of Grace

Oh Goddess immortal
Isis incarnate
High Priestess
Fallen Angel

Bring us your light
Let it shine bright
Into out hearts
Clean away the dark nights

Lift us up to heaven above
Transmute the pain
Into love

Oh Mother God
show us how to live
Empower us with your grace
bless us

Infinity in my mind
Beyond all space and time
Here in the moment of non moments
I seek nothing
Yet desire everything
Seer of the future, it plays in my mind
Dreamer of aspects I've yet to find
The laws of nature of one and all
In my DNA
And
That is all.

no weirdness allowed
you must appear normal at all times
do not behave
be average at all costs
******* METER ALERT
warning con job in process
proceed to your nearest exit
do not get dressed
do not show love
stay within yourself
and get outside for awhile
morse code secret code
symbolic to nothing
nothing being everything
hidden reasons
are clearly seen
when you are in a state of reality
that which appears one way
is a veil to infinite possibilities.

I work where people yell at you, curse you
call you a *******

Many lie, cheat, steal, cry, fight, ****, manipulate and con.
Most are hateful and angry; argue everything.
Many are petty criminals
All or most are drunks or addicts
A lot are prostitutes
Some are politicians
Others poets
And Moms

They threaten
Complain
Can be self centered

But I'd have it no other way
These are my people
These people are me

God bless the drunks in all their stunning, brazen beauty
There is a raw honesty in a person with nothing to lose
That is one of the most beautiful things
I have ever seen

I sit, breathe in
eyes closed
feel my breath in my lungs
notice my eyes open and hands reach for the computer
remember I'm meditating and close them again, pulling my hands back to my lap
breathe again
listen to the neighbors chit chat outside my window
the sound of which has no meaning and is only melodious like birds singing
breathe out
phone rings
all of 15 seconds I could meditate
now it's time for more chronic busyness
doing absolutely nothing
ahhhhh

caught up in the mix
sniffing out my fix
to feed these demons in my head
years of being spun
still I'm not dead

spinning on this endless ride
deep inside the real me hides
I deny the truth it hurts too much
I'm in love with my denial
it makes the sting of unfulfilled desires go away

I'm waiting for my ashes
to be dropped into the bay

wonder if I'll ever learn
this devil inside
is my only obstacle
like to blame instead
**** it, anyways
it's just in my head

a breathing corpse
is what I've become
my soul is dead

as I pretend to think
written in ink
cleverly disguised
all of my
senseless alibis

dreaming of the day
the good lord takes me away
life everlasting
sounds alright
as long as it's not
like these nights
lost in the drama of a user's a paranoia

I'm pulled down into the pit
this abyss of
demons
losers
users
criminals
of every sort
all completely consumed
by their disease

as we all slowly march to our destiny

prison, death, or mental ward
one way dead end
lifestyle
is what I've become
lie to myself
in self-pity delusions
ain't life grand?

lie to myself some more
life is such a bore
yeah yeah yeah

free thinkers aren't allowed
you might expose
the truth
the true power
is to relinquish your power
give up your throne
to control is oppression
like a gun to your head
you'll soon end up dead
accepting what's handed
allowing the abuse
to plant a seed of doubt
in your truth
those who condemn
could be said to be the truly guilty