Gotta carry a .40 with me everywhere i go
So i can protect her property and let it blow
Whenever there's a person who wants to be a splatted roach
Touch me and I'm not afraid to glow
Sparks levitating in the air you'd think you saw a ghost
She keeps me grounded but my mind's in space at most
Enough with that happy **** I'm back to norm
I'm starting to think I won't be here for long
Mind acts like its not my own, then i get prone
To mind manipulation tactics on a low
I usually write free verses but tonight imma switch the flow
Forced to change my style cause I'm here for the show
I watch her stack her luggage on my door
I'll gladly take it in but slow
I know she was sent by God on a low
From the heavens she dropped
In the end it all comes down to Him
....
Wouldn't doubt him for a second i know

Thought you had the devil in a cell
But I guess you took too many and ended up in hell
I told you to tell when you needed help
But he took over and put you on mute
Now he's dancing on your grave cause he can't reach the nave

Imma save my soul for another day
I still need to live and slay
All the dragon's that lay awake
Getting free of this cage is the first step
And then I float in the sky like a new star

Pacing in my mind, thinkin of the days I didn't mind having you around
Next thing I knew I was fighting with my mind, it won't let you out
I'm always rejecting the possibility but the probability that it'll propagate to my heart
Is becoming more likely
I allowed you to break every bone in my body but never my heart
But you went for it instead
Lashing out as a result of my incompleteness
Do you think I'll ever get out of this darkplace or I'll carry on in a state of sadboyness

I run away from my problems knowing I need help
At least I'm not taking this drug called love
Just like the rest of the world
Lemme be, lemme fall into an abyss
Darkness is not all I know I once saw light
I grabbed it tight, only to lose sight
Of whats important, detrimental issues take me for ransom
They say it was so random, but I believe it's all fateful
Let the puzzles fall into place and you'll see the bigger picture
Let my mind go on a race as anxiety grabs onto my face
I lean on the wall as I take it all in
Is this the end of it all or its the start of a revolution

It's really sad when you consider that no one really knows me
Blinded by my looks they think they understand thee
They smile whilst they watch me wallow in misery
I show them these writings but no clue comes to mind
Does that mean they know me but don't get me or they think I'm in too deep to be saved
It's only one day that I'll wash up to shore filled to the brim with sadboyness
I'm the last of my kind, and I'm at the brink of deathness
Never been in touch with my emotions cause they're covered in sadness
I don't sleep cause when I do I see the reaper and he reminds me that my time is near