I have loved you
Longer than I expected

Harder
Than I wanted

And more beautifully
Than I could imagine

Your mother could die
And it is entirely possible
The hospital will charge you for
Parking

she gave me her nudes
she was bare
and naked
and so out
and open
and i willingly
accepted it
because it wasnt the nudes
that showed her body
the physical aspects
that made her beautiful
it was the words
she didnt choose
and the spontaneity
that left her
either from her lips
or her fingers
or ink

she was as bare
as her nudes
and i accepted
her for her.

Somehow
I have managed
To forget the weight
All the self doubt
All the self hate
I begin to crumble
You begin to manipulate
Stuck in this cycle
Somehow
Has become my fate

Aunt: I can’t do yoga I can never relax to much thoughts
Me: well I can barely sit down for 10 minutes
Mom: she’s not manic not bipolar she has “really bad ADD”
Me: ok mom whatever you say

P: I love panic at the disco
Me : Me to btw I’m bisexual
P:Oh that’s ok
Me: Ok well Brendan Urie is mine
P: Yes Queen bi people rock be you
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