Rose - Hello Poetry

Rose Dec 2018

I climbed that tree today
“That one we loved?”
The one we’ve always been a part of
I smell charcoal grill till the squirrels come home
and see the rocks you never let me straddle

I wrote a poem today
“The words I never fathomed?”
I grew them from our seed and I babied the roots until they brought me something forthcoming

But I saw you disgusting and rotting like fall weather will do
I had hope I gave love like a summer sun subdues
Seasons are seasons and like seasons we flee
Unbecoming unknowing unpredictable seeds
Roots do flower and we can’t blame them

Rose Dec 2018

Please say “Goodbye” to Brian for me

Don’t ever run to a crying kitten
“Hello; where are you?”
Go back, go back.
A crying kitten grows silent,
the more you hold it
Inhales its last in your hands
Your palms tickled by its fur
Thick, small and muddy
Take a ritualistic breath
Plan its funeral
Run from a crying kitten
Pray its mother comes back
The most you can do is
Pray for a sick, crying kitten

I wrote this about my ex husband

Rose Jul 2018

considering all the considerations ive considered

there's no one with my dna
no one with my seams
considering all these considerations
no one compares to me

i could sit so tiny on a kite
fly string-free through the sky
use a firefly's light as guide

the sea would see me and wave
the air would take a big breath
and the moon would gaze
the stars would wink
the earth would cave

and well if we're saying things we've yet not said
ill tell you why i went away and why i would again

there's no one with my dna
no one with my seams
considering all these considerations
no one compares to me

#inconsistency #love #hate #friendship #selflove #indulgence

Rose Jul 2018

I’ve forgiven you

Maybe I think my nose is perfect
Perhaps, this whole time,
They’ve seen it is skewed.

It’s perfect to me because my
mommy and daddy made it -
I am me because of you.

Beauty to you is religious,
It follows every rule.
I let the river run;
Words flow true or untrue.

Rose Feb 2018

blue jay

If you could just tell me the truth
I'd have something to work with
But
A
Lie
Is
So
Isolating

Rose Jan 2018

it will come back again

Resisting the urge to call you
Is a battle I can't fight
I might give up this time
And then I pick it up
My thumb opens a portal to everything
You're just a fingerprint away
Why did you have to do me so right
Why'd you do me so good?

It's 3 am
I'm remembering
the calm, your breathing
warmed beside me
Why'd you leave me one night

Are you really gone for good?

Rose Jan 2018

hermit crab

i make faces at myself in the mirror and i think
"i love my wrinkles"
they add more detail to the story
i stare at myself in the mirror and embrace
"i am growing"
a delicate ******* flower
blossomed, plucked and hung to dry
no i can not turn back time
but shells left behind are still beautiful