I sit here at the bar drinking corona after corona. I stand to go play a game of pool but as I’m playing I find my thoughts drift to you and the memories I keep locked up tight in my heart and mind. I sit here and wish and pray I could take all that time and those years back alas I cannot. I’ll be here drowning till the bottom of the bottle

I was happy with you I’ll admit I ruined the amazing relationship we had. I truly regret everything I did to you with my whole heart I understand you no longer have love for me and that’s my fault. Hopefully one day I can that love you once had for me back. You brought out things in me no one else could. You made me feel like I as important to someone. You made love not just a word with you everything was much better and even brighter. You were and still are perfect in my eyes and will be forever. Even your flaws and all your insecurities are perfect but I’ll always be here waiting for you no matter how many years pass by. I still love you and will continue to love you till death. Hopefully one day we can fall in love all over again until I still love you

I sat down on our bench. I’m sure you remember the one I’m talking about. The one outside by the library near the cafeteria. Ours had an umbrella in the middle. Anyway I can’t help myself from drifting back into those precious memories of me and you, the rest of our friends. They all flood back like a dam that just broke mostly good some bad but still as precious.
I start to spiral down an all consuming wave of thoughts. Past regrets that I to this day I yearn for those days and your love again. You were my first everything as I was yours. As I fall deeper and deeper I suddenly wake as if ****** awake only to realize do to my own actions I caused smoke and mirrors

there’s
something
comforting
about
the
vacancy
in
­my
heart