I think of men much like I think of dogs
I'm initially weary of all the strange ones
I keep my distance and speak softly in case they might bite
After I meet them a few times and they're consistently friendly I'll let my guard down a little
Even then though they will still sometimes bite even if you think you know them
I've encountered enough biting dogs that I'm starting to fear dogs as a species
Which, as it turns out, dogs can sense and they don't like
I don't want to dislike dogs.
I've loved plenty of very good dogs in my life.
There are many dogs that I'm excited to see when they approach me
That I'll give treats and belly rubs to
But people that don't know me well think that I don't like dogs
When they see me interact with them on our first meeting they think I'm mean and crass
But in reality I'm just afraid and trying my best not to show it because they'll sense that fear in me
And chase me back to my truck
Or bite me
Or snarl and snap at the air to watch me dance for them
One mean biting dog will make you wary of dogs for a short time
But then you forget
It's only after many biting dogs
Many scary dogs
That it starts to wear on you
That you get nervous of all of them
But you tell someone their dog bites and they don't believe you
They say its never done that before
They ask you what you were doing when it bit you
They tell you that you should've have been in their yard
Like they didn't invite you there
So it's not that I don't like dogs
It's that dogs don't always like me
And they're one of the greatest dangers that I face on a daily basis
I'm a dog person
I'm also just an animal that runs on instinct