I wonder if you even know
How much you affected me
I wonder if you even know
How hard you made life for me
I wonder of you know
Why I get panic attacks
I wonder if you know
That I get panic attacks
I wonder if you know
Why I hurt myself
I wonder if you know...
That the cuts you made fun of me for...
Were your fault...

Come one, come all
Come see this display
He once stood tall
Come now, don't delay.

Show and tell,
A sight to see,
hopelessness etched into my skin
I realize I'll never win
Ha. Silly me.

Sleeve fell down
Everyone saw
I want to run away
And break the law

He goes through pain!
Everyone see!
Ha. Silly me.

An unfinished poem
An unfinished song
A nonexistent place
Where everyone feels like they belong

An imaginary escape
Fake people with open arms
A mere dream of a place
With no hurt or harm

The real world with endless pain
The true world with tears and grief
The actual world
Where I'm not allowed to be me.

Life feels like a carousel
Spinning and spinning
I want to fall off
Too much happening
Nausea sprouting
Anxiety rising
More future scars appearing
Spinning
Spinning
Spinning
All alone

Open your eyes
You're not safe
Get out from the open
Hide in a cave

Lock your doors
Hide with me
In the closet
Where no one can see

Where can I go
Anywhere but here
Anywhere but here would be safer
Anywhere but here would be better
Where will I go
Somewhere i can meet new people
Somewhere i can hide
Somewhere i can have new experiences
With you by my side
Somewhere...
Anywhere...
Would be better than here.