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Apr 2018 Rae

And then there are those who follow their dreams

Apr 2018 Rae

River

And then there are those who follow their dreams

Some people wake up every morning
Fill their mug with strong black coffee
And commute to work
At work they slave away for the dollar
That never seems to truly satisfy
The hungry greed growing within them

They once were children
Who said they would be
firemen,
teachers,
artists,
pirates,
astronauts,
authors,
innovators and world-changers
When they grew up

On Fridays after work
Sometimes these people
Go out for a drink
After a few beers
One of them opens up to the fellow
coworker they are sitting next to:
"Oh," they'd say
"I have dreams of sailing away
I can't wait for the day
That I am able to break free from
the monotony and mediocrity
and pursue my purpose,
and my dreams"

"What noble ambitions you have"
The fellow coworker will respond
"But what are your plans to make this so?"

The dreamer will answer
"I don't know
All I do know is
That most people
Stay stuck in conformity
And then there are some who
follow their dreams."

Apr 2018 Rae

If god forgave my one sin...

Apr 2018 Rae

Noone

If god forgave my one sin...

If God forgave my one sin,
I swear I would have killed you
I swear I want to
I swear I want to

For all the things you did to me,
For all the things I wish you did
No, I wasn't such a hateful person
You made me like this,
You made me like this

I don't feel a thing now...
What is pain? What is fear?
All I know is loneliness,
Loneliness eating me alive
That long never-ending nights,
Nights so dark and monstrous,
Nights so melancholy...

You destroyed all that I had left,
Now I m just a broken soul.
Oh, how much I want to hate you,
Oh, how much I wish you knew
But still, in this life, I can't
No, I can't hate you
No, I really can't

If God forgave my one sin,
Yes, I want to **** you...
Place a knife in your heart,
And check if you had one
But no, I wouldn't be able to do it
No, I can't.....

Apr 2018 Rae

Steps

Apr 2018 Rae

Grand Piano

Steps

Step 1: Get out of bed
Step 2: Look in the mirror
Step 3: Practice your smile
Step 4: Eyedrops to hide the red eyes
Step 5: Conceal the dark circles
Step 6: Breathe
The curtains are almost up
Step 7: Lock down the pain
Step 8: Ignore the weight on your chest
Step 9: Silence the screams inside of your mind
Step 10: Choke down the sobs
Step 11: Ignore the stinging in your eyes
Step 12: Swallow past the tightness in your throat
You’ve put on this show a million times
Step 13: Don’t let them see
Times up. Curtains up. Camera rolling

You know how when you’re not ok but you try so hard to pretend you’re ok that it becomes a ritual

#pain #depression #smile #breathe

Apr 2018 Rae

Keep on Keeping on

Apr 2018 Rae

leinstinct

Keep on Keeping on

No shame
     in personifying vice
         all they can ever do is judge

If maybe
       you are not where you are supposed to be
just maybe
       life has deprived you from your dreams

The sun is shinning
             but you cannot embrace her love
                        your hopes are fading
                  you have lost your will to fight
       But
somehow Magically
                Even if you are completely lost
You find a reason
                                                  You
                                      "keep on keeping on"

#hope #faith

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